Frenz..

Sometimes.. i started thinking recently..

Too much frenz is not a good things... hai.. As my range of frenz becomes broader my time like becoming shorter and shorter.. Maybe not to everyone but to me.. haha..

I already have to give in my time to so much things like my CCAs, works, School, and sometimes projects, and i got to give my time to my frenz, and not forgeting Christ...

Sometimes watching anime.. haha.. and can you believe that i actually watched 288 of One Piece, 183 of naruto, and recently, 10 of death note, 4 of bleach... whahhaha.. how much time i have wasted on all this.. hai...

Perhaps is becos i dun noe how to organise my time.. haha.. thinking back i really got to sacrifice some of the things on my list..

If i am to carry on like dat... i dun noe how my life would be like... maybe that's why i going lesser to band and guitar... Rite now school work got to be my piriority.. even if someone out there were to say somethings because i didnt give enough time for them.. i got to stand strong.. i cannot waste my time..

It is perhaps lucky that i did not have a boyfrenz.. whahaa.. cant imagine if i really have one... what would i have become... haha

Rite now.. i think i have put my frenz as my piriority not my school work. haha...

My life during holidays isn't feeling good at all... sian...

It's holiday and i've got so much to do.. i really cannot take it anymore... i really wan to run away from all the problems.. But i jus left with 2 months...

I really dunnoe what to do..

Really feel like not living anymore...

Life has been a misery to me.. too much probs to face.. i really lost in dealing with it...

Living a life full of probs, is just like killing me mentally...

Finally i submitted my lab report... n in 15 more days i would need to submit my pp...

I nv go sch again... I think i noe how i can wake up on time and go sch every.. is to slp at 11 every nite.. lol.. i realise i have a standard slping time.. i must at least slp 6 hrs den i will automatically wake up even without an alarm clock..

When ever i slept at 1 i will wake up at 8... den recently actually wanted to slp a few hrs den wake up and do report de.. but went to slp after a few hrs n dun feel like getting up and do my work.. so slp till the morning lo.. den woke up without an alarm clock.. hehe.. so now i must start slping at 11 the latest..

I'm forming a band soon.. hahaha... Now we have a Drummer (Gerald), keyboardist (Grace), a Bassist that's me.. lack of a Vocalist and a Lead Guitarist.. so cool.. cant wait lo.. lol.. It all thanks to Grace who initiated it.. lol..

Previously..

I wrote a very long blog... but forgot to publish it.. den in the morning shut down the laptop without publishing.. sian diao la.. whahha..

Jus now.. on the train back to home.. slept in the train and drop at city hall instead of douby ghaut... was thinking whether to take to marina bay den back to douby ghaut or take the opp train to bugis then take bus home.. so jus went out of the train and took to bugis.. supposely to buy bread at cold storage.. but such a long queue and a big store lazy to walk ard.. den bought a honey milk tea outside cold storage... thinking of if cannot find a bread shop den dun buy.. hehe cos wanted to buy from four leave but quite ex.. and my sis alway finish the bread so fast.. anyway went out of bugis junction, cross the road to the opp to buy bread at 7-11.. den cross another road to take bus home.. waited for the bus for quite some time.. the 1st bus which came was 145... dun wan to take tat becos it drop at the other bus stop which i have to walk quite far.. so waited for 130 lo .. actually i dun like to take bus lo.. alway so squeezy... hai.. want to stand also no space to stand la.. den the people ar.. cannot ta han sia.. i think mrt better.. although also the same alot of people but at least you dun have to find a pole to hold on to.. cos mrt is more stable than bus.. especially at the turning point..

Actually can reach home by 7.15 end up reaching home at 7.45... lol.. i think if i had gone back to douby ghaut rite.. might reach home by 7.15 lo..

Distracted from doing my work....
There is so many distraction... TV la, and other things.. hai.. dunnoe how to do work.. i think i like to do work in the morning cos my sis wun be watching tv, and everyone out for work or study... lol.. den can concentrate better..

going to do my lab report.. submitting tml.. sian diao lo.. haven finish yet wor.. so many things to do lo..

Went out with Yamaha frenz on monday nite.. so cool.. actually only ask the people at our side only.. den KB, noe some of the staff at combo (Guitar side) so ask them along too... hum.. didnt noe they are also a brunch of fun people.. they look so dao and scary.. whahah...

Went to eat at Cafe Cartel.. den went to play pool till 1.30am.. den go eat prata.. while we (they, except me, kai lin, n grace didnt play) were playing pool, some frenz of Gerald walked pass so they join us.. while didnt noe them at all... but they are friendly.. they are... Adam from Yamaha too, Simon (ex Yamaha, lol..), Lawrence (some shop owner i think) hehe... Pool at Parklane, prata at opp fortune center i think, ard bugis area.. near nafa.. went home at 3 like dat.. whahaha.. got a free ride home.. hehe.. think that's the benefit of staying near town.. Simon's dad gave us (lawrence n me) a ride home.. hehe.. lawrence stay at AMK, simon stay at punggol.. whaha.. i find myself talking like one small kid sia.. lol..

Anyway the Yamaha people that went out that nite were... me, Kai Lin, Grace, Khoo Boon, Chrislyn, Gerald, Jaryl n Chew Fung (e last two only had their dinner with us at cartel)...

Reach home.. nothing to do.. sian.. haha..

I decided to take up Degree in Sociology.. whahaha.. i better not tell any of my frenz yet.. later they said i keep changing my mind de.. lol.. maybe a few months later i change again.. but hopefully won't la.. hehe..

i broke my promises today... Yest jus learn about not looking back.. while today i jus did something which i really really shouldn't do...

I said that i want to be vegetarian yet i didnt keep to my promise.. i tot that maybe i should just cut down only on the land animals first before going to cut off my meal for sea animal... they are all animals...

Went to eat with my frenz at ljs... cos didnt wan to tell her i'm vegetarian, so i tot that i can have fish instead of chicken... so right after eating, i had a really bad stomach ache.. had a really bad diarrhea... everything that i ate before all come out..

At first was thinking if something bad will happen to me.. and it really did.. you know that you had made a promise with God and you still want to play ard n tot that those are just empty promises... I think you are wrong.. He really listen to every little things you said.. After 5 days of Vegetarianism n i broke my promise, He really give me a wake up call... Now I am serious about what i said n nv going to look back again.. Being a Vegetarian is what i promised n i nv going to broke this promise...

Didnt go sch today... sian la.. alway this module that i didnt go sch... 5 times le.. haha.. the other two modules still ok lo... Anyway.. just try to slp early everynite ba..

Gifts i've got from my frenz from A to Z.. haha

1 Adidas Jacket
1 Angel Statue with My Month de Blessing
1 Black Dress
1 Calender very nice
1 Creative MP3
1 Duckie Soft Toy
1 Godiva Chocolate
1 Key Chain of a Key Shape
1 Memorable Photo Album
1 Skirt
1 Solo Guitar Book
1 Watches
1 Yamaha Keyboard Club Voucher
2 Bouquets of Flowers
2 CDs
2 Perfume - Adidas, Anna Sui (Secret Wish)
4 Liquor - 2Wine/1Champane/1Spakling Juice (Non-Alcholic)
4 Necklaces
5 Birthday Cards
7 Books
And most importantly numbers of tens of friend's presence, blessing, wishes that you guys have given me.

That's all about it.. Don't think i have miss out anything..

Thanks you guys for all the presents I had received.

It takes at least 17 kg of corn, beans, grains etc., many gallons of water, and some time to produce just 1 kg of beef. The 17 kg of corn, beans, and grains would feed at least 20 people while the 1 kg of beef would feed at most 2 people.

Does it makes any sense to feed an animal 17 kg of vegetation, many gallons of water, provide shelter, allow some time, and then cut it’s throat and kill it to produce 1 kg of meat?

Would it be better just to take the 17 kg of vegetation and feed on it directly rather than having it go through an animal and then feeding on the animal a much reduced quantity of food?

About 70% of the crops grown in the US are fed to animals and not to humans. The mentality is that convert 17 kg of vegetarian food into 1 kg of meat so that at most 2 people can eat instead of at least 20. Also there is the thrill of killing the animals, which is very much liked by the followers of the non-Vedic religions.

Would God want man to turn 17 kg of vegetarian food into 1 kg of non-vegetarian food (meat).

Annually, the U.S. food industry slaughters approximately 10 billion farmed animals

Gotten from some website.. If only like 30% of the people turn to vegetarian or reduce the intake on meat.. how much animals we can save.. it's Billions..

I'm thinking of becoming a Vegetarian... This thoughts have been bothering me for more than a year... Tot for very long, but dun have e wills/motivation to do so... I guess i should slowly start changing my habit of eating...

Not sure why... i jus wanted to be cos i really like animal alot... Everyday when i eat, tot of eating those meat make me think of those cute animal, how they are killed... Everytime felt like leaving them aside, but I'm not those kind of people who waste food, and i dun wan my frenz to question me cos i dun noe what to answer them... But now i know..

I think I'm ready to give up the rest of the food that's so tempting to my eyes... Not sure am I strong enough to do it...

I trying to start tml. so fast rite.. haha.. Take down the date... 30/10/06...

Let me be the Vegetarian Christian... lol..

I going to be 2 mths soon.. 4/11/06...

My 21st Birthday Celebration...

I had a wonderful 21st birthday.. i'm really happy and glad that i can celebrate it with my frenz.. really enjoy myself...

I almost got sabo.. and lucky i didnt. cos i switch on my awareness... whahaha.. almost got thrown into the water a few times la.. but didnt get me into water.. lol..

Failure to Saboing me.. whahaha..
1st - Sam wanted to help me do facial with my mango cake... i spotted him for a few times lo.. den there's once he almost got the cake on my face, lucky the cake drop on the floor.. lol.. nobody help him, i think if all of them help him rite i sure kena one lo...

2nd - During photo taking with the band. Stan, trying to get hold of me when celine was taking photo, but i kept my eye on him. lol.. as soon as celine finish taking i took my leave. At first they wanted me to sit in the center de lo.. but i insisted i dun wan.. haha..

3rd - This was when most of my friends had left.. Those people who are behind are my Band Members and some other friends and my sis.. So they got me near the pool already lo.. but i dunnoe why nv throw me down.. very lucky lo.. haha.. actually i think they very stupid.. haha..

actually there are many senarios lo.. where they trying to sabo me but i ran away... bleh...
Try harder ok...

Joanie Lost her Camera... Adrian Lost his PDA n Harddisk... I really felt bad about it... Why this got to happen? Went back today to check if anything was found, but nothing has been found. I'm going to try to ask again tml hoping that the person who took it would somehow return, but that's not alway the case.. I really felt that i should went back during that night but i didnt. Not sure if I would have gone back to search something might have been found.. Because that place close at 1am, but i didnt know... Pray hard that everything will be return to it's owner...

I want to give Thanks to all my friends who've came down to my 21st Birthday on 28th Oct (actual day was 25th Oct) and thanks to the blessing they gave me, also to the present they gave me, not forgeting those who are not here but their presence are there with me. I know you guys wanted to come but there are alway something more important than my birthday.. hehe.. N Thanks you guys for having a thought for me.. Also to those who had a hard time trying to sabo me... e Way to Success is Failure... whaha.. May happiness be with you always, and God will Blessed you guys.







When there is happiness, saddness will come in too..

I'm pretty sad with my mum... She has been nagging at me since yesterday... It's my birthday lo.. can't you be more understanding towards me.. and stop nagging me with what ever you can thought of... esp the Money parts.. i really hate to talk about money... i really hate money..

I nv ask a cent from you nor my dad for my Party... i spent everything on my own what else you want me to do? I'm happy only for this once, it's not like i going to have another party soon.. N u didnt know i'm turning 21 this year.. How sad to know this.. I broke down in tears, i'm really sad with you.. so disappointed..

I hate to call you, cos i noe you will alway mention things that i don't like. If not becos of me forgetting my key i will nv want to call you, n i didnt save my dad new no, and my bro new no. But anyway nobody at home, i should have waited perhaps..

But you know no matter how much you had hurt me, no matter how bad you scold me, treat me (used to be) , nag at me i can never be mad at you cos i know you are my mum and i alway love you although i really hated you at times...

But remembering you as my Mum, no matter what you do i will nv abandon you, cos i got to Forgive you as how He forgive us. I felt a relieve whenever i think of Him, who will alway be there, at least me...

No matter how bad this Family turns to (but i think things are getting better), I know for sure that I will nv want to leave my family members (I used to think about getting away from this Family becos of my Mum, and how i wish i could have a better Mum, but not now). But my Dad who really love me of alot cos not forgetting my sibling (but he love me more) alway makes me think otherwise..

I really love my Parents, my Sister and my Brother alot, like there is no tml.. Treasure Your Family ba...

Thanks You God, that you alway be there for us...

Didnt know the time pass so fast... awhile ago it was 12.30am.. and now.. 2.30.. i spent 2 hrs.. hahaha..

Though i skipped school again today, while it was of good used.. and i pretty glad that i make full used of Yesterday and today... my time was so pack...

Finally.. everything of RPWS going to be over for me soon... really glad.. for the rest of the few months i going to really buck up on my studies... cannot make it ar.. lol..

Tml is my birthday celebration and i don't feel anything abt it.. not sure why.. hahaha.. The time past so fast that i could't even catch up and take a breath... a month ago was jus like a few days ago.. i remembering myself giving out invitation cards and so on.. it was just like a week ago which in actual facts it has been one month.. gosh...

He gave me the gifts, loves, strength, teaching, guiding and everything he could afford to give it to me graciously, without hesitation... That's Him... How glad i should feel that i have met you.. There's nothing which can explained... I wonder, wonder and wonder... How much more, there is no limit...

E life without you... what else could have happen?

I going to slp.. nite..

Identity Crisis...

Hai..

Stress.... dunnoe whether should i tell my parents...

What should i do? I only noe one thing... Leave it to God...

My Birthday coming in 2 hrs time..
I already got 2 gifts.. haha..
Thanks to all my Frenz out there..

My Frenz jus remind me today.. what's my birthday resolution.. i don't know yet wor.. haha.. I'm too happy now to think abt it..

Why is it that your Birthday makes you happy? so weird rite.. it's nothing special too.. it jus a normal day only ma.. hum.. It's just human reponse.. whaha.. psychology..

My Birthday coming in two more days.. but celebrating on 28th Oct.... pounding on what to get?

Whahaha....
My Birthday List.. lol...
I think some of my frenz getting me some animals.. dunnoe yet... lol.. cos i told them i wan guinea pig... cute rite.. lol..
Hum.. Kai Lin bought me a scores (solo guitar de) really happy.. i was waiting for that book for quite some time le..
Some people buying me bags i guess.
How abt yamaha keyboard club voucher for 5 lessons de.
Dun buy me perfume, i think i dun wan necklace too... lol..
hoping to get a cheap guitar with picture and writing on it so that i can keep from guitar club, but not likely i guess, cos i haven tell them yet... whhahaa...
haven got anyone to buy me watch yet.
how about polo t-shirt, knee length shorts, nice nice belt (but i guess i will put it there and wun wear it), wallet, books, (dun buy fiction books), CDs also can (i wan William Su Yong Kang one, i'm collecting his series)?
IT stuff? mp3, anyone wan to buy me HP.. lol...?
Gov Diva chocolate (dunnoe how to spell) at city link there got one.
how abt a big big bear.. but what can i do with it? whahaha...
you can buy liquor too.. but dun drunk me.. i will keep it.
Want to buy cakes also can, cos i didnt order a very big cake, as advice by my frenz and my sis.. lol... both are gemini.. lol.. but i guess you guys will play with cakes onli.. so dun waste money ok.. whhaa..
Anyway i can't think of other things i wan liao.. if can't get any present jus come ok... I would be happy to see you empty handed too...

Well c u guys on 28th Oct, Civil Service Club near Farrer Park MRT station (Exit B, i think), it's a five minutes walk from MRT (if you walk slower will be longer la, dunnoe how fast you guys walk too). Ard 7pm, cutting my cake at 8 ba.. hehe :D

Have been quite busy with sch stuff recently...
Didnt really have much time to rest...

I'm handing over my post soon. so now it's kind of a crucial period where i have to plan prepared material and so on.

Not only that i'm busy with this, i'm also busy with my FYP, sch work (while is less of that actually). UT catching up with me... i don't even have time to do my study. gosh... Thanks God, that my manager actually called me up just now to tell me that that i can work from 1 to 6 instead of 10am - 9pm so that i can do my study. I was wondering how can i find time to study... Really, if not for so many changes and so on, i don't think i can have the time to study..

Nov, i can't work that much.. think i only working for 5 or 6 days.. really feel bad.. but no choice, dec will work more for them.. haha..

Birthday coming soon... actual day was on 25 oct, 3 more days... so fast.. i'm not prepared yet.. and my celebration is on the 28th oct.. suddenly dun feel like celebrating, cos it come so fast, and i dont really have time for that.. haha.. but everything already prepared nicely le.. just dat haven finish giving out my invitation card.. lol..

ok.. Gtg.. Nitty..

E Future....

Stress over my future whether on furthering my study or not... hai...
I think i wan to be a doctor.. whahaha.. which nv in my mind i will tot of it..

But Recently.. not idea why.. there's been a strong will that tell me to go for it... but then.. i noe if i going to rely on my cert i wun be able to get into it..

But rite now.. i should concentrate on my study first.. hehe..

4th Oct

Well.. today was a really wonderful day...

Woke up very early in the morning... was really tired as i slpt at 2 plus last night.. den need to wake up at 6.45 lo.. suppose to meet elaine at 8.30... end up meeting her at 9.. and i think i was abit late.. whahha.. 5 to 10 mins.. den she went to buy the business time to read lo while waiting for me.. so weird la.. lol...

Yup.. went to sch for our FYP.. changing the humidifier water... when we was removing the water accumulated by the humidity in the tent.. the tent really smell.. and elaine alway complained it's smelly... so we actually air it for awhile.. while airing.. i have to go to EC room to move all the cabinets and band stuff inside EC room .. there was quite a numbers of things to move lo. and no band members were there.. kind of sad la.. den elaine (my FYP frenz) got to help me carry and pack all the stuff lo.. hai... Where did all of you go to???

Was clearing the stuff from EC room for a few hrs lo.. so tired.. and very hot.. after shifting, went back to continue our FYP stuff.. jus before we leave i went to check on the mushroom, and it start growing le.. so happy.. den actually wanted to go off from sch le.. haha.. but we went to take ethanol to clean the tent.. after that den we leave..

we go to causeway point to eat mac's ice cream... after eating went to bugis.. to do our shopping.. i think it's really crazy la.. we did our shopping from like 2/3 to 8 plus la.. so long nv shop like dat le.. whaha.. and we shopped onli at bugis till ard 7..

At bugis... i bought my new dress for my birthday de.. den bought shoes.. den eye liner and nail polish.. whahha.. elaine spent more den me.. whaha...

while we was on the way to orchard, in the bus no. 7. we was discussing abt the sunflower ard SMU there.. she said is infront of the SMU.. while i said it was infront of the Musuem... as we passed by.. we said to each other.. look here.. it's here.. whahah... we both dun believe each other la.. whahah.. so funny..

Went to somerset first.. to drop her cheque.. den walk to taka to buy my cake.. whhaa.. well actually wanted to buy a 5 kg cake.. but after think and discuss.. decided to buy 3 kg one.. cos they say not many people will eat de.. my sis last time also said that too.. whaha.. anyway i save alot.. so happy.. everything was done.. and when writing the words rite.. it's kind of weird that i write for myself.. whaha.. so elaine wrote for me.. lol.. thanks a lot ar..

It's a really wonderful day... enjoy alot..

1st October

Today.. Sunday, went back to sch early in the morning 7.50 reach woodlands MRT station.. go back sch to do my FYP.. lol.. erm.. jus to change the water of the humidifier.. whaha.. 1 hr journey for 15mins job.. anyway went back to sch this early cos i got work at 10am..

Work from 10 to 9 lo.. so tired.. Tml working from 12 to 9..

I forgot to take my wallet from the drawer when i left my work place.. n i onli realise it when i reach my house downstair.. crapz lo.. haha.. wanted to buy Ice Cream to eat de.. den end up cannot buy.. cannot stand it lo. how can i leave my wallet in work place.. it's such an important thing lo.. anyway i left my wallet at home before but nv in workplace or in sch.. that time i left it at home really jia lat.. cos i got no money to go home.. lol.. as my dad fetch me to work... den no money to eat during lunch.. haha.. but i'm working with my frenz so lend from her first.. that was years ago.. i still remember quite clearly..

Busy life..

Just name somebody as Mr Crab.. lol.. He called me Turtle!

30th Sept

I super duper tired.....

Not sure where my strength come from... lol.. I believe it's Him...

Mon to Fri everyday stayed back in sch... not to study but to practice for Guitar Mini Charity Concert (small scale one).. lol. From Mon to Fri.. everyday reach sch at 8.30 and stayed back till nine, esp Wed, Thur, and Fri.. Stayed back till 10 plus.. Gosh.. Looking back at myself, if i'm still my oldself i don't think i will be able to make it, i think i will still be like last time (skip school)..

I'm Disciplining myself.. not to be my past one year. cos i noe i can't do that anymore...
Hope i can endure till the very last day of my Semester. and i going to make myself do it.

Now i'm working harder den i used to be. Though i'm really tired, but it's really worth it. I'm really glad for myself.. haha..

My FYP getting started le.. really happy that everything is going on fine, though there is many up and down.. esp recently kind of being scolded by Phillic... lol.. and Mita.. dunnoe what's she doing.. whaha.. u will onli see her mail but will nv get to see her.. lol.. Hopefully, all of us can do well for this semester, and our FYP going to be a success.. Lastly, my PP... really afraid abt it.. but i'm very confident dat i can do it. jus dat i really need to find a person to interview...
Really hope that God will alway be by our side to guide us.

1st October.. i need to go sch at 7.45am for my FYP den go to work at 10am.. lol.. because plant need to take care everyday.. so everyday we will take turn to go down and take care of it.. lol... like our babies...

I need to slp.. and hopefully tml i will be able to wake up...

26th Sept

Yest write a blog which is quite meaningful.. but then.. this stupid blogger cannot upload.. and i wanted to slp le

25th sept

One more month to my 21st Bday.. lol..

Stress up..
Guitar Performance for Charity on Friday 29th Sept 06. I still can't play certain parts well.. hai.. hopefully this few days of last minutes practices i can catch up.. Haven been going for guitars for the past few weeks lo.. hai.. kind of regretted.. But NVM.. there is still time to catch... whaha..

I'm really glad now.. Cos Sabrina, celine, caroline, and pek har from WAC will be able to come for my performance.. really happy.. haha.. *Prayers did work.. lol.. Thanks God. Hopefully will be able to see more of them...

Promoting Guitar performances to everyone i know.. whahaha... Esp Band.. lol.. really wish that alot of them can come for Our Performances...

I just finish the book 'Case for Christ'... craving for new books now.. This book really makes my belief stronger... though it's pretty hard to understand and some never really manage to understand at all... however overall still able to understand it. hehe..

Getting my pay in two more days.. and i can get more books, plus a little shopping.. lol..

It's 12 now.. i going to slp le.. if not cannot wake up tml..
Nightty..

22nd Sept

I'm sooOoooO Tired after one day in sch.. so busy busy.. whaha..

Tml 2nd Day.. Hopefully will turn out well too.

But expected it to be more tiring then today... today was really fun.. and tml Science module.. think i going to be dead.. whaha..

Promise myself i'm going to do good for this last sem...

Submitting my rough report to our faci during mid of Oct..
How??? I'm so busy.. during oct.. AGM, Election of Committees... den need to do Report.. if got time i need to do PP.. den My birthday...


My birthday 1st wishe... Promise myself that i will do my best in my study, and eventually take up a part time degree... that's my basic wish i wan to achieve..
there is much more to come..

21st Sept

First day of sch...

Wow.. i had a really good day today.. it was so fun.. whaha.. photography and digital imaging.. we went out of sch to take photo.. walk ard the whole of woodland and took like 199 photographs.. lol...

Having FYP meeting... later going for band den later having Band meeting..

20th Sept 06

Going Back to School...

I see the word Stress!!! Lol...

Really busy recently... each time i wanted to blog but i got no time to do so... haha..

Anyway life has been great for me...

Having some difficulties recently... while... it has been solve... Really... this two days i kept wondering what should i do... hum.. and Thanks Celine for ya help.. haha..

Tml going back to school le.. and i'm filled with plenty of stuff to do... hai.. SCHOOL LIFE!
Attend lesson in the morning.. PBL. At the same time i have to do my Report for my FYP, not sure if i still wan to do.. cos it doesn't make sense at all..

I'm wondering, if there should be a topic to talk abt when our adviser ask for Journal Club meeting. As i felt that, JC meeting doesn't make any sense if we are jus compling what we have been doing individually to the advisers. and obviously, it doesn't make any sense in the fact that, those thing we are presenting it jus common sense, and what we had already know. put it simply, it just a waste of time... let's say if our adviser are present when ever we are doing our experiment or we had our meeting... we dun even need to have this JC meeting.. Crap.. anyway i'm complaining too much.. whaha... cos i jus simply dun like the way she do things.. while.. i got to change my thinking abt that.. and pray that things will get better. okay.. after this FYP meeting rite.. i got to rush down for band.. and den rush home.. whaha.. that's my day for tml..

I got to go to slp le.. it's 12am.. hopefully i can wake up tml.. lol..

8th Sept

Woke up at ard 9 plus.. den i saw one msg...

FYP meeting change to 11am... while i definitely wun be able to get there by then.. haha.. so i guess i should jus skip the meeting again.. whhaha. so went back to slp and wake up at 12pm..

i was doing my stuff very slow.. lol.. bath le, den clean my necklace, then boiled water to make my honey drinks.. lol.. by then it was like 12.50 i left my house.. went to sch earlier to print my booking of place cum order of buffet for my B'day.. it coming next month so soon.. lol.. really can't wait.. My invitation card will sent to you guys soon.. should be able to recieve it during end of sept or start of oct. hehe.. anyway most likely it will be on 28th Oct, at Tessensohn Club.

after printing my that paper.. went for my guitar practise... today was our performances again.. at Far East Plaza. while it was for Guitar Festival. After performances, didn't go back to sch with them, as i stay really near orchard. i didnt wan to go back to woodlands and back to town again.. hehe.. took train back home..

Actually wanted to go cineleisure to get something, but i'm feeling lazy to walk to there.. so went straight to the train station... den i drop at Douby Ghaut.. cos i wanted to get post card... went up to level 7 hoping to collect quite some of them.. but no.. cos there's onli one design.. so i onli took a few... but i didnt gave up.. was hoping some shop will have post card outside.. and i manage to find one after walking PS for like half an hr. so collected abt 10++... i still lack of 50 post cards to collect.. so frenz.. if you happen to pop by some shop which has post card display outside, pls help me collect. thanks a million.. lol..

Went home happily after dat.. really happy la.. cos i already given up my hopes for it.. hehe..

Reach home... flooded with numerous of work.. whaha.. dunnoe what i busy with... untill now.. from 10 till 1..

Anyway... i saw one dress that i fall in love with.. i'm also shopping for clothing for my bday.. wondering to get a new dress or wat.. plus shoes too.. hehe.. haven seen any shoes i like. there is one.... cos like 49 bucks.. found it at P.O.A. but i wan to get my clothes before i get my shoes.. if not it doesn't match.. lol.. i'm fussy.. whahah

Going to slp..

5th Sept

I got this book called "The Case for Christ".

Of all the books, I've pick this. I guess i picked the right book. lol.. It just came to attract my attention. Was looking thru the shelves of Trumpet Praise at PS B2. I'm thinking if i would be able to get a book, never did i thinks that i will get out of the shop with a book. n no idea why, i got a book.

So happy.. haha.. it's pretty interesting. e cashier or the shop owner, told me it's a very nice book. haha.. e author who is a journalist, was a non christian, he realise the differences is his wife after she recieved Christ. That's when he gain his interest of what changes his wife, n started to go on finding out was Jesus Christ came to earth, die and rose from dead. What's the theory or basis, e Human/God or the witness made, whether it's in Bible or even now. Was it really true?

As he went on looking for material/interviewing people for answers, he became a Christian eventually.

What did he went thru? Will update you guys again after i read that book. whahah..

I'm very happy. I got another 2 books. A Bible, and a New Life Kit. I think it's really Great for me. haha..

Thanks you guys n also e God who knocked on my door n touches my heart.

4th Sept

Is the day I'm born new again.

Receiving the New Life.

It came unplanned, unexpected but thru friends.

With jus one word answer, I'm Born..

Thanks you.

2nd Sept

Got back from work..

Tml i going to shop for Cakes.. so happy.. haha..

Actually i'm thinking i'm preparing for my birthday too early le ba... but it's better den last minutes.. whaha..

I have a wonderful idea for my invitation cards.. lol.. i think would be quite interesting.. it's a cheap way la.. hehe.. wat to do all the invitation cards so ex lo.. like.. erm.. 10 pieces for 9 bucks.. so not worth it.. i need 100 of those lo.. and i think my idea rite.. onli cos like less den 5 bucks.. but the process is abit hard la.. sian diao.. lol..

Still thinking wat to order for my birthday lo... wat food and how much.. hai.. stress ar..

I'm glad that i sent out one email which i wanted to send it so long ago.. it's for my pp de.. i onli left with half a yr.. how sia.. if still cannot find.. i going to be real stress.. whaha.. but i'm confident. lol..

25th August

I guess I'm on Tao Hua Yun.... lol.. dunnoe why leh...

But all is Lan Tao Hua.. hahaha...




He's sick too... Poor thing.. lol..

He's handsome...

I think I'll stay in my old pathway...

I'll wait and see... hehe...

Let's see how long i can last.. whahaha..

22nd August

Went to watch Ghost Game today...

Not very nice leh.. lol..

The front part very nice but later.. kind of weird.. lol.. fall aslp lo.. can see how bad is it rite. fall aslp watching a horror movie? whahaha.



The Ans....
I Dunnoe...

What should i do?

I think my expectation too high...

21 August

Upset...

So are we still having meeting today...


I came to class at 11 today.. did my PPT by 11.30.. went to eat with Veron till 12.30 and chat with her till 1 plus.. and now.. chating with frenz online.. waiting for faci to come at 2pm... and not sure wat time we will end..


I watching Ghost Game with frenz tml.. therefore i can't watch today!!!

20th August

Went to Westside Anglican Church today...

No idea why I go too... maybe i want to find out more abt him...

I'm surprise that i'm able to wake up... Slept at 4 am last night and waking up at 8am? is kind of impossible for me. ya noe? I'm soooo Lazy..

haha... actually i already woke up before Gladys called me.. but i'm lazy to get out of bed.. 8.30am.. i'm still in my bed.. lol. den she msg and i replied her.. n i cannot went back to slp after a few replies to her.. so decided to wake up and go.. whaha..

They did their Welcoming to those who are new to there...
Announcement of First name, that person rise up their hand, n people claps.. Second name, third name and so on.. @ that time i was wondering.. are they going to call up my name as i had filled in the form just now 4 those who are new there... and they DID.. my gosh.. i was so embarrassed.. i dun feel like rising up my hand.. but i got to do it... cos people are waiting for me.. -_-'''

Well..
The speaker... no idea what they call it.. i think he's good...

I'm a listener but i'm not someone who will speak out my mind and ask question... but deep in my heart i'm asking.. what ever it is.. i alway get my ans back.. hehe...

I was quite surprise at the end of the speech... i think if like a few years back i wouldn't be able to accept it.. but now i guess i'm able.. slowly.. we are just Human who are trying to express our feeling out to god...


Dear Lord Jesus,
I believe You are the Son of God. I believe You came to earth 2,000 years ago. I believe you died for me on the cross and shed Your blood for my salvation. I believe you rose from the dead and ascended on high. I believe You are coing back again to earth.

Dear Jesus,
I am a sinner. Forgive my sin. Cleanse me now with Your precious blood. Come into my heart. Save my soul right now. I give you my life. I receive You now as my Savior, my Lord, and my God. I am Yours forever, and I will serve You and follow You the rest of my days. From this moment on, I belong to You only. I no longer belong to this world, nor to the enemy of my soul. I belong to You, and I am born again.
Amen!




At Jurong East..
I was pretty tired.. glad that i didnt went out for movie.. i guess i will slp in cinema. haha..
I saw someone.. hehe.. i was so surprised to see him there... chat for a minutes.. lol..

when i reached home.. i get change.. den go to slp at 4plus till 11 plus.. i'm real tired.. and for the first time i slept so long for a nap.. i really had a good rest.. lol..

I need to go back to slp soon.. haha.. got sch tml.. and i'm still tired.. lol..

19th August

Love is Amazing... It's Spontaneous, it's sudden, it's what you will never think of...

I think i found him.

Realise it only a few days ago.. lol..

Not sure whether if it's going to work out..

I noe he's interested in me, n i'm kind of interested in him too..

Should i give it a try?

He is a person who i never tot would be interested in me, and me never tot we will click so well.




I'm on Diets.. Hope i can do it..

i'm demoralise lo.. cos i can't milk and alot of things i cannot eat.. therefore i think there is higher chance of going on Diets for Real..
whaha

hai.. jus knew it..

lol..

i shouldnt have talk so much.. haha..

anyway wat ever it is.. it has been done.. can't be undone. that's it lo.. Let it be..bleh.. that's me..

This is the second time these kind of things happen to me.. there wont be a third time.

Now that i know too well.. that's enough le..

I think i'm pretty wicked. whaha.. i like to do funny things that turns out bad.. lol..

Things that i shouldn't do, i go and do it.. anyway it's good.. so that i know there won't be a third time.. plus it show me the truth...



It just that i never meant to belongs there ba...

whaha.. i just likes to learn and observe things/human... i'm a deep thinker... Not sure when this started i guess is becos of trust...



Just badly miss my frenz out there...

16th August 2006

Suddenly... I just felt these...

I'm Missing someone out there.... but i dunnoe who is it..
I think i jus miss the feeling of someone who can be with me alway... who going to be him?
You know the feeling of being able to depend on another...

It's going to be one year soon and it just pasts like dat... Wonder is this really me?



Anyway... Today which is 15th August...
Suppose to have meeting abt the Band Camp.. however.. people put me on aeroplane... they didnt turn up.. Nvm.. that's ok.. But they didnt bother to tell me! Infact I've to call them!! Angry!!! I mean if only you guys tell me earlier i wouldn't even go to sch lo.. I went to sch becos of this meeting! ok.. NVM.. but yest night you guys said ok... what is OK? OK = FYP!!! WTH...
if you guys have FYP den tell me earlier dun wait untill i need to call you guys lo.. Then left only me and aisha.. discuss what.. SHIT ar! if i had brought my phone and my internet connection was fine i might not be this angry.. Wat a FUCKING day is this sia... forgot to bring HP and having prob with internet connection is already quite pek chek le lo.. den.. hai... right now.. i'm ok le la... jus that.. hate that feeling of being lied.. I truely hate Liars!!!
Not sure why, i just hate liars. I hate people who broke their promises. not really promises, as in you tell me you can make it. then when that day come you said you can't make it or wat... i especially hate it! i really really hate it. I mean just be frank la... i dun mind if you tell me before hand that you might have something on or wat... even though i'm last min.. i nv say it's a must to have meeting.. if really most cannot make it there is no point having meeting rite.. hai.. dun talk abt this le.. will only make me think...

after classes went out with aisha to watch movie.. hahaha.. we watch Ant Bully.. very Nice and Funny lo... and very worth it.. haha.. too bad JY dun wan to come out.. SHE DUN WAN TO PICK UP AISHA CALL... whaha.. anyway it was fine la.. hehe.. anyway i guess we enjoyed ourself.. yeah? haha.. we chat alot lo.. JY you miss out this part.. whahaha..

I really miss you guys... when's the last time we went out together? whaha.. ever since we step into Woodlands Campus, we have lost touch le.. Not in the same class anymore also.. haha...

Why everyone Hates themselves??
hum.. there's no point hating yourself.. i mean if you think you aint' good in someway and hated that way you do things or wat... shouldn't you be loving yourself more... so that you won't do stupid thing or so... hum..

i love myself too much that i spoiled myself.. lol.. maybe bcos i dun like the feeling of Regrets. tat makes me do things with thinking.. but most of the times i dun think.. lol.. i did it onli at night.. lol..

14th August 2006

My Laziness becoming more like a bad habit... and it's becoming worse...

I'm lazy to do everything... not sure why.. jus don't feel like doing it... i guess my ignorance had becoming a habit of laziness..

Wonder what had change me?

I jus wanted to have fun and enjoy myself... asking myself to go sch is jus like killing myself...
Not motivated to go school anymore...
Top 10 Reasons in the Morning I ask myself why i dun wan to go sch!
Reason No. 1 - It's too far
No.2 - Laziness
No.3 - I dun like the modules
No.4 - I've lost interest in Science
No.5 - No motivation to go school
No.6 - Slp late at night
No.7 - Cannot wake up
No.8 - Stubborness
No.9 - I don't care about my Grade!
No.10 - Why should i work so hard for something which i don't intend to cont...


Frenz there... Dun worry about me.. i know very well what is there for me. Dun pressure me... i dun like to work under pressure, i can't work well.

I can only overcome this by myself no other can help.

Let there be fun for me and not stress...



What i need now is time to be alone...

I realise that... ever since yr 2, i'm living with stress everyday. there isn't really one day i can stop thinking about what i need to do next. I'm just too tired...
even when it was weekends i still think abt sch, even when i'm not in sch.. people still come and ask me abt sch.. everyday i'm face with problems regarding sch... that alone can be very stressful... and it's doesn't just stop there... life alone doesn't really lie with school only.. what about my others side of me... i dun even have time for that and i'm face with only more and more problems but not lesser...

I'm human i need rest...

I guess skiping sch is just one of the way for me not to think of sch.. that's why...

I have no one to face to.. becos everyone i tok to will just ask me how's sch... i hate that question. I hate these 'You nv come sch again', 'how many times have you skip?', and so many so many..
oly a few will say... hey let's go out... (that's my sec school frenz)
they will nv nv ask me abt my sch... i really happy when with them.. but sadly i can't alway be with them, as alway the next day i'm having sch..

Other times... i jus talk to myself and start wondering... I'm a deep thinker.. lol.. that's when i started thinking if god really exist.. i chosed not to believe in religious cos i really can't figured it out and i'm not able to accept it yet.
But i know he's there...
Everytime when i face difficulties and have doubt i will ask God... one of my fav question. 'God, do you really exist?' den start asking why this and why that happen...
I feel better each time i ask a question. i've no idea why.. and maybe that makes me believe he exist.. but still accepting a religion is hard for me..

I will nv talk to a frenz regarding this.. it's kind of weird..
Since God was the Creator, he knows me better than anyone. Therefore, i'm able to open up to him...

13 August 2006 : 10.45pm

whaha...
i bought a new score just now.. i'm so happy.. got one more books of scores to play le..
the first tin i reach home to do was.. take out my guitar and try it.. and then.. it's below my expectation.. haha.. the pieces is a little too easy and doesn't sound really nice.. anyway.. i'm very happy...

the next books of score i going to buy is 'The Library of Classic for Guitar'.. if i didnt remember wrongly.. it's cost alot!!! but it's worth it as it's quite thick.. hum.. wonder when i can get it.. $63 for that book! i can't wait to get it.. but sadly i got to wait till next month... who can buy it for me?

I forgot my pin no. just now!! when i was buying this book 'Fingerpicking Classical".. i key my pin for three times and i nv got it correct.. so unexpected.. as i nv forget my pin no for my card.. luckily the fourth time i key i got it right.. if not hor.. i cannot buy that book le. hehe..

Missing you...

13rd Aug 2007 : 12.15am

From 7pm since i reach home, i feel like slping.. but untill now i'm not slping yet.. was watching Naruto since i reached home till now lo..
anyway.. i cried when i was watching it.. lol.. i think i too emotional le.. lol..

hum... Daniel, Sherline, + dunnoe hu went out today with Pei Xuan and Stanley.. but i didnt go.. I spent too much too much within the last few days and didnt feel like going out to spent.

I know myself too well.. i couldn't control myself.. i do what my mind wants. even if i wan to control it's hard for me to resist when it's infront of me... therefore i dun wan to go out. i knew i sure spent without knowing what i spent on.

Furthermore, my birthday coming up. if i really spent like my old self... then i can forget about this yr birthday le...

I'm one who couldn't even control myself needless to say abt my frenz to help control me...
I'm getting worse.. perhap too tired trying to go against my own wills.. so just let it be.. what ever it is.. as long as it's not within the failing.. i'm alright...

I'm quite stress up with many things.. hai.. so sian..

i feel like.. i'm kind of hack care abt everything ard me.. sch and band...

Will i be like this sem when the new term start? let's see what i can change for myself..

I'm still looking for people to interview for my PP. I found one actually but then the person is not in Singapore.. hai..

My FYP... hai..

Anyway all this i think i still can cope with it... but then.. regarding my family problems... is much much worse... Now i'm just wishing that this last few months past quickily so that the problem will be solve.. I'm very scare the day will come... Pls don't..

Pls Let me Endure for 4 more months... I will be glad...


Friday Night...
it's all started with Wei Lun taking my shoe away and exchanging it with me.. stupid.. His shoe size is like 10 and mine like 7... i have no idea how he manage to size his feet in la.. anyway it looks weird on me.. with one feet big and one small.. crap la.. and he didnt wan to change back.. hum.. i'm so glad when he said let's change back my feet hurting.. whahaha.. huo gai..

before we left RP.. was outside Music Storage room.. Jing wen wanted to try out my shoe size. so i took out my shoe and let her try. while i was wearing back my shoe.. THIS SAM!!! come from my back and stole my shoe!! den.. it's ok.. but he threw it to Yu Zhuang and YZ actually walk to in front of 7-11.. WTH.. lol.. Stupid SAM n YU ZHUANG.. who made me walked with one feet without shoe and one feet with Wei Lun shoe to 7-11.. you guys going to get it one day.. whahaha. my shoe really so nice to play ma? or is it me really nice to bully?.. lol.. so mean!

Right after guitar we headed to city hall to watch fireworks... reach there JIT.. lol.. but couldn't get a good view of the fireworks.. after the fireworks finish... headed to golden mile market to eat.. took a bus there.. but before that.. as we were walking to the bus stop.. i was messaging.. so didnt actually see there is someone in front of me.. then my cheek hit a cute baby head.. i very scare he cry lo.. lucky he didn't.. den i sa yang him.. whaha.. so ka wa yi.. lol.. btw he's not a baby la.. abt 2 yrs old ba..

i wan to slp le.. nite..

3rd August

sian..

jus finish 3rd meeting.. was actually studying for my Proteomics UT.. den...

people are unforgiving.. wanting every thing for their own goods... why can't they see a bigger picture in it..

I dun understand..

eeerrrrrrrrrrr........

my hair is still standing up.. disgusted by pictures of body piercing.. couldn't withstand the craziness of the people piercing everywhere they could.. my god.. it's the first time i see it.. gosh... now i couldn't even take in a cup of drink.. i think it just make me puke..


anyway... the reason why i saw those pictures because i'm searching for whether tragus is made of bone or catilage.. then got this body piercing website.. haha
and the reason i'm searching for tragus is because i went to pierce my tragus today.. with elaine psyching me to pierce.. haha.. cos she wanted to pierce as well.. whaha...

show u guys

n my hand is recovering.. hehe...

Complicated...

Right after the msg... i saw tat msg... was it implying to me?

if it was me.. i'm really upset by ur words... do i really make a big hoo ha in ur life? tot i was just playing a nobody in ur life, dat you dun have to make such a big impact on jus a msg that cares...

i am neither angry nor sad, but just confused by your words.. i dun understand...

Maybe i already knew something was not right.. but then.. i tot it was just me imaging too much...

Hope i was wrong...

I gonna pretend that i didnt see it... n i'm not going to step up to u again.. cos i'm afraid n i dun wan to make it worse...

Jus wish that.. when the next time i see, the words are taken away...

Hope that...
it was jus becos you were angry and didnt really mean it.
e msg is not meant for me to see.
it jus like words on the sand, will be wash away by waves of the sea.
we going to remain as good frenz n forget abt this.

Purpose of Life

Ever wonder... why are we here for? who decide the friends around us? Out of the universe why there is a difference in country, and why do people born only at that country.. i have too many doubts on god... though i'm not a believer, but i believe in its theory.. where it really teaches you how to deals with life and people.. however.. there are still statements which i dun really agree on... perhaps its because god meant the other way but the people interpreted it wrongly... as time goes by, the true meaning of the statement lost its way...

there is this statement which i really like...
"if you want your life to have impact, focus it! Stop dabbing. stop trying to do it all. do less. prune away even good activities and do only that which matters most. Never confuse activity with productivity. You can be busy without a purpose, but what's the point? "

Most of the time, it does helps you get better when you throw away those thing that you don't really need it. Do what you should instead.. So that you can "Focus" on lesser stuff and creating a greater success..

Life though is short term, but its enough to do all the things we need and some extra time to do the things you want. as long as you plan and figure what's more important..

But why are we here on earth for... Many are searching for the answer.. was it because of what we did in the past? here for suffering, helping others or to have a better future.. i can't think of others...

Anyway.. what i am trying to say here is that... we will alway find this statement familiar... "even before we are born, god has plan everything for us". I dunnoe how true is this... but it definitely explained why people behave this way and why we are being in a different status and many many others things...

Often i ask myself, so... if god really plan everything for us. how does he really judge what kind of life you should take... again.. it came back to.. does he judge base on what we had done before.. so even after our death.. he accumulate the good and bad deeds... we will be sent to hell or heaven.. so what if we go to heaven.. and what if we go to hell.. do we come back to earth again..

So.. god created adam and eve... how did two people produced millions of people.. in that case.. all of us are related to each other?

Actually i really think that i've learnt alot from all sort of religion, they teaches good things, that help me overcome many problems with people... though i am not a believer in god, their purpose is the same, for the good sake of human beings..
frankly speaking.. i am not a religion bais person.. what i feel is that they are all the same.. all of them are for the good of people.. but why do we alway have to differentiate ourselves?



From all these that i know, learning to forgive one is very important and it is very difficult... how many time or how long in your life you will meet the same person again... i think it will be less den five time that you will be able to work with the same person, or be with your friends... and it's definitely a few years long for a friends to stay very close together... why not try to forgive that person and move on... there is actually no point holding on to it as life is short... you don't forgive now.. you might never have a chance to forgive again.. as it will be too late.. by that time you might be thinking of regreting not being able to forgive...
When i have came to realise about forgiving and being able to do that.. i cherish my friends alot more... How long can a friendship last.. you will never know... it is something which you cannot control... so let go of the unwanted, and bring in the needs..

I wanted myself to be able to understand and does the right thing at the right time... Attaining to be a person with great personality... Till now.. i still don't understand why people with very bad personality exist.. I am still unsure of my personality.. i think i am not that great yet.. no one is perfect.. there's a person i really hold high respect of regarding this...


Today went to library to borrow a book...
"The Purpose of Driven Life"

It's really interesting... i really like it.. hehe..


I am still wondering... if god really plan our life for us... den.. all the things has been predicted such as not going for lesson, and so on.. so do we still just follow..

God is testing us..

When god is testing us, he gave us endurance as well...

MooornNing!!!

hehe..

Realise Naruto is not as nice as One Piece... maybe because it is only the starting...
One Piece is more lame and funny... Naruto.. seems to be erm.. more of serious stuff.. not sure how to explain..

now watch one piece till 272 episod le... den have to wait a week for the next episode to come up.. hai.. dunnoe when it will end lo.. lol..

currently watch naruto till 20 ++ only.. another 25 episode still downloading.. hehe.. not very tempting to make me want to watch..

quite angry with mita actually... i think i really hate her lo.. whahaha..
went to sch to do lab actually... suppose to meet mita to do lab work.. yest she said she will be free untill five.. however it's a different thing today... we came to realise after we reach sch that she only sent email in the morning saying she is not free.. i think it's not fair to us lo.. who will check mail on a wednesday morning... furthermore she has already confirm with us that she can make it.. what the hell lo.. even if she's not free, she didnt even bother to book lab for us.. rubbish la.. luckily we met kelvin.. den he kind of stay back awhile la.. haha.. think he quite suay too lo..

One hr of journey to school for half an hour of lab and came to realise this.. who will not be angry.. i think she's irresponsible lo.. hai.. i nv really dislike a fac.. but i think i really can't stand this lo.. lol..

after lab.. went to cwp... for my dinner cum lunch.. whaha..
elaine actually wanted to pierce her inner ear, and actually asked my to pierce.. actually i really dun mind. hehe.. but den.. scared ugly and so.. haha..
anyway.. we went to a shop.. dunnoe which shop la.. den we saw a keychain where it indicate the 'personality' of the person born on the date.. while she read hers first.. den looking for mine.. whaha.. when she saw me reading at some other date.. she suddenly asked "zai can shui de!".. gave me a shock and she's kind of curious la.. so funny.. so she guessed "....." but it's not the right person.. whahah.. i told her in the end la.. lol..

something bothering me...

bother by my family problem again...
wonder why world is so unfair... most people r at the middle line, while i am slightly below there.
though i am glad in the condition that i am in. however, it not at all satisfactory... wonder why this is happening.. i dun really like to blame on others, i believe it is not their fault... jus heaven is making fun of us.. i had happily gone though 2 yrs + of surviving, why god just can't endure for another few more months..

was it really this fun? making people life really difficult at this point of time...

wat the hell is this thing that's making people goes though so much of suffering to get it... making people minds goes wild, and all the troubles its create...

i dun understand at all.. n i dun like it...

this thing which is so uncontrollable for me.. i couldn't believe with what i had done...

21st Jul 06

Bleh... today meet ying ying in the morning, both of us were late for sch... lol.. den we didnt attend sch, as she didnt really like to be late for lesson. so we went to keep our bag at woodlands library locker. haha den took bus to woodlands market to have breakfast.. haha.. after dat went to CWP walk around for awhile, den go back to sch... slack in the library, watch anime and wait for time to pass as i have guitar later..

i burned my hand this morning when i was ironing my clothes.. hai.. so careless... pain... the scar had turned black now..

tired.. wan to slp le..

hum....

listening to music.. feel like going to KTV with frenz.. haha.. anyway i'm nt a good singer.. alway go KTV listen to people sing nia.. hehe.. cos i like listening to others sing.. whahaha..

anyway.. i'm under stress from home, to sch, to work... why? why, why.. haha.. there's too many answer to it...
N' people! dun interfer with my life by asking me question abt how's work, sch, and whatever that you wan to ask regarding my life.. cos my life isn't for you to understand. unless you are one of my close frenz who i can truely trust and talk with... haha.. cos i dun like redundant chat (do that only to new frenz)...
In poly, out of so many frenz, there're only few who i can really chat with.. lol... i think you guys know who you are.. hehe.. maybe you don't haha anyway i'm nt going to say cos those things are suppose to be felt by heart.. haha.. ops.. i think i'm quite les.. lol..
I should go study for LM UT le.. hai.. i nv come for three lesson lo.. how to do UT!!! am i going to crap again.. I had crapped thru 2 of my 3rd UT wor.. i nv expect i'm such a crapper.. haha.. i'm jus using my common sense to crap.. so it's not that bad la.. crap which contain knowledge.. yeah? haha




i'm thinking... are you?

did this during 3rd meeting....

Your Personality Is Like Marijuana

You're laid back and easy going, so much so that taking a shower is often too much trouble for you! Nevertheless, you're quite popular, and many people enjoy your company. You're rarely turned down. You're prone to giggle fits, paranoia, and forgetting where you are exactly.

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind.People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

What Do People Envy About You?

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Your Observation Skills Get A C-

You tend to notice the big things in life...But the details aren't exactly your forte

How Observant Are You?

You are Agnostic

You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care.For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine.You rather focus on what you can control - your own life.And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.

What's" Your Religious Philosophy?

You are 80% Capricorn

How Capricorn Are You?

You Belong in 1966

If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

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How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

You Are 47% Selfish

You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved. But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!

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Your Luck Quotient: 70%

You have a high luck quotient. More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life. You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that. Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

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You Are 72% Lady

Overall, you are a refined lady with excellent manners. But you also know when to relax and not get too serious about etiquette

Are You A Lady?

sian... i missed lesson for 6th times le.. crazy me..

dunnoe what i wan sia...

tml.. got class.. but i jus feel like there isn't any.. whahaha

i think i'm lazy lo.. hehe.. all i wan is play... lol..

yest... went to meet up with my frenz and my sis at gelang bahru (my old house) and play pool.. as usual lousy me... actually dun really like playing pool.. but then.. dunnoe what else to do le.. haha.. then chit chat till like 12 plus.. hehe..

today.. went orchard with my fyp de team mates to work on our presentation.. hum.. quite well done actually.. lol.. very happy.. finally can relax regarding our presentation liao.. haha.. after that.. suppose to go guitar but then very far lo.. haha..
anyway my frenz needs to wait for her bf to finish class at 10pm wor... so sweet of her.. haha.. since i had nothing to do, so i stayed with her till 9.30pm ba.. for like 5hrs i was with her.. anyway we enjoy ourselves walking ard la.. haha...

I HATE MY PARENTS.. haha..
they very mean to me...
my fridge, have all kind of milks and gassy drinks.. but none i can drink, sian diao.. there is like so many bottles of coke, sprite, FnN... which i don't drink... and milk which i can't even drink.. hai.. why like dat.. haha.. there isnt any bottle of like green tea or fruit juice.. hai..

Check out my frenz blog... it's real cool.. haha.. anyway he's damm pro in IT.. whaha..


http://www.friendster.com/guiquan

booo...

can't slp...

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bye........

I like tis pic.. haha..

Saturday...

Jus woke up at 1pm.. lol...
Yest. nite my sis took like 2/3 of the bed, den i cannot slp properly lo... anyway my bro not at home last nite, so went to his room and slp. haha.. i think his room very nice to slp compare to mine.. haha.. maybe becos of the bed.. hehe..
Hum.. yest 2 calls from unknown no... somemore call me quite late at night ard 2.30am... think again should be someone close to me de if not won't call me so late.. so decide to sent msg.. haha.. guess what? it's my bro lo.. hai yo.. so weird lo him.. hp can msg de ma.. lol..

Later going to Sam's birthday... think he should be preparing and dressing himself for his birthday now ba.. haha..
e present under my bed has been waiting for you for 2 weeks le lo.. erm.. sounded like quite bad rite, put people present under my bed.. but then.. it's kind of big.. a4 size box.. my room no space to put le.. haha..

so sian.. now till later dun noe what to do.. it's too short to study for UT 'n' do my FYP things...

some facts..

Stayhome daddy have a higher chances of getting heart disease compared to Man who works outside.

Cancer causing bottles

so -_-"' Diao lo... got this from my frenz blog actually.. whahah... and i alway reuse bottles de.. hum... shall get my own bottle le... haha.. my sis complaining that i alway bring home bottles de den my room are filled with bottles wherever there are space. cos each time i go to sch, i will get one before i reach MRT station. lol... but i dun like those plain water leh.. hehe.. prefer sweet drinks.. lol..

Anyway.. read on..

This may be very true.Do you know chemical released by plastic water bottles can cause cancer ?
It is not the water that will affect you but the chemical released from the bottle.
The next time you get a bottle of mineral water, do check for a triangular sign on the base. You will see a number in the triangle. If the number is higher than or equal to 5, then this bottle is safe for more than one-time use.
Whatever number under 5 will release the chemical. Most mineral / drinking water bottles are made for one-time use and you will notice they are marked 1.
So, do check and do not reuse such bottles marked 1.

But then.. when i went to search for it...

Reusing Plastic Water Bottles

Rumor:This email begins by saying “Many are unaware of poisoning caused by re-using plastic bottles,” and says “bottles are safe for one-time use only; if you must keep them longer, it should be or no more than a few days, a week max, and keep them away from heat as well.” The email says the bottles contain DEHA, which it calls a potential carcinogen.

Fact:This email apparently relies on a student’s college thesis to make scary claims about water bottles. In fact, DEHA is not inherent in the plastic used to make these bottles, and even if it was the U.S. Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) says DEHA "cannot reasonably be anticipated to cause cancer, teratogenic effects, immunotoxicity, neurotoxicity, gene mutations, liver, kidney, reproductive, or developmental toxicity or other serious or irreversible chronic health effects." Meanwhile, the International Agency for Research on Cancer (IARC), says diethylhexyl adipate "is not classifiable as to its carcinogenicity to humans."

It's sunday again...

This sunday was different from others... haven been staying home for so many weekends.. i'm so bored la.. haha..
this afternoon was doing my FYP.. den do till half way.. dunnoe what else to include in..
wanted to take a nap.. but couldn't slp.. so watch TV lo.. watching animal channel and discovery channel.. haha.. so bo liao.. watch till four really nothing to do le lo..
realise that i still have books haven return to the library so went to the library to return and borrow 3 more books.. hehe

after borrowing my books went down to orchard to catch movie with frenz... watch campus ghost stories.. erm.. at the end of the movie i dun get what it means la.. whahaha.. but then ok la.. there is few shocking moments.. the worse one was from my frenz.. haha... stupid la.. lol..
Anyway, i did enjoyed the movie with you la.. haha.. thanks for coming out.. bleh..

actually was going to slp at 11.. but then.. i'm scanning picture into lappy, and surfing net.. haha.. went to see my old frenz de friendster.. hehe..
hum.. now 12.30 le..

recently have been hard getting to slp.. feel like taking up slping pills to help me slp.. haha.. everytime lie on bed for few hrs then can't slp lo even when i'm very very tired... keep thinking abt things.. hai.. hopefully things will get better.. hehe

jus now read a few pages of a books about drugs addict de story... den i read about one who said that he doesn't like study, perhaps is becos he wants to see result fast..
i think i'm the same too... maybe that explained why i'm alway skipping school, further more those modules are which i find it meaningless..
I dun understand why there is this kind of study system... it really sucks to core.. everything you do required cert, and most of the time those modules we study are not going to be used.. why can't we look for a job that we like, and den we go for courses.. which we learn what is needed and not something redundent. isn't this better... hai.. i'm feeling like i'm just wasting my time.. lol..
i've skipped my lab mangement, proteomics 4 times, genomic and computer animation 3 times.. i wonder if i will still go any further? i noe it's going to affect my grades really bad.. but i have no idea why it just didnt bother me. lol..

what i feel is that grade doesn't determine whether you are good or not... so what you have good grades and all, but then when out to work you know nothing at all.. from what i know and i truely believe it, studying and working is a totally diff thing..

erm.. i think i should go slp le.. it's 12.55 le.. nite..

Eating disorder??? lol

I realise that i have been very unhealthy.. haha..

Didnt eat for the whole of Sunday and didnt actually realise it, till late at night. But not really that bad la, cos i had 2 pan cake. However it doesn't even fulfiled a requirement for a meal.. lol..

Recently only had like one meal a day.. erm.. that's quite crazy. but then it didnt really bother me. maybe becos i'm too tired to be bother, or i'm just too hungry that after awhile i had forgotten abt it.

it's always, either i eat alot/very little or i don't eat.. but it's not something that i could have control.. haha.. maybe it's my mindset ba..

Probably i have weird stomach.. lol... having no idea of what's fullest means and when to eat or when to stop eating.

quite worried that one day i might have eating disorder or disease related... lol..

Can't wait till the last day of my poly...

Bleh... so long nv blog liao...

quite busy with my sch, work, and IGs... almost lost my sense liao...
down with flu for 6 day recently... now recovering from flu but down with sore throat... sian diao..

for this two days has been canceling everything and stay home.. quite sian la but then.. for the sake of resting also for the better of sch reopening and so..

had been not caring for anything.. and i think it some how improve my 'life'.
maybe i'm holding on too much things that i couldn't breath... now that i couldn't be bother to care much, i felt much better..

while.. i'm waiting for the next holiday to do my pp.. hehe.. might be too late though.. but i trust myself i can do it.. : )

jus wanted to improve on my study for this semester first.. haha.. attendance have not been good.. erm.. quite hard to buck up now.. jus wanted to keep everything at rest first..

regarding band.. i guess i put too much effort into those 'nonsense', wasting my strength which in the end goes into nothing... erm.. not much idea about what i'm going to go next... just couldn't wait to step down... i knew very well the prob in it, just that have no idea how to cope with it. it's e prob with none can help... i guess it's hard... ain't going to blurt anything more, just keeping it with myself... it aim nothing good... the best thing i can do is take a step at a time... multitasking ain't a thing to handle it myself...

maybe that's why recently doesn't feel like asking band people to go out when i wanted to stay out so much..

wonder when's the next time i'm going to blog... stressful life..

Photo taken recently

hum... i got so much stuff to write about actualy.. but i'm just being too lazy to write...
anyway write about the memorable stuff ba..
where shall i start from leh?

maybe last two weeks ba...
okay, same thing happen as my previous blog.. still the same went out with frenz and all.. dun wan to get home.. den one night while out with my frenz drinking what ever shit forgot le but can get it from 7-11 cos we got it from there.. then those two of my best guys frenz drank carslberg along the river. so we sat there talk, smoke (erm, not me la), listen to music. that's all we did. lol. when we were about to leave... i saw a snake! on the chair where we sat on.. let me describe the chair... it's a wooden kind of bench.. just imagine you are at a beach where there is wooden bench. the wooden bench is like those a few pieces of wood put together with space inbetween each wood. then there is the stone which place the wood, making it look like bench. in some where inbetween and underneath the wood where the stone is lie the snake. maybe it's slping or resting.. lol.. not sure.. but is damm scary la, just sitting above the snake. my frenz when to disturb the snake as it's quite small.. reall small la. width is about 1cm while length.. i dun noe quite long la.. my frenz use a stick to drag the snake out to the floor.. den it 'ran' to the grass patch.. this stupid frenz wanted to catch it and put into a bag, however he failed.. whahah.. and so we left..

Next event was.. i went out with my gal frenz till 6 in the morning... not sure why we had so much to chat about.. we walked from places to places and back to same places... every where we go we find a place to sit, drink and eat. and spent quite alot that day. but each place we didnt eat much la.. jus a few bites. hehe.. that was damm cool experience... lol.. it's like we nv say no to each other... i like the ok let's go on and on outing or wat ever.. maybe that's becos we were frenz 4 many yrs le.. i nv get this kind of feeling before and it's really hard to find..

hum.. while there are more la.. but erm.. let's go back to sch.. whahaha

while... realise i have skip sch for 5 days le... can skip 3 more days, erm.. quite sad for myself.. but on the other hand yes i'm happy with what i'm doing.. cos i had all the fun i had, all the craziness i wan, if only every day were like this.. but there are things called schooling and working which spoil the life i wan.

i think i already lost my own soul... i couldn't feel the soul is with my body.. body wan this while the soul wants other. the things i should aim for is study and not fun... but it's hard for me to get back to the mood of study.. i guess it is just too stressful for me, actually i can take stress, but then it's aimless for me to study. most of it was becos, it's just not something i like. the subject and all... hum.. realise that i only do what i like.. stubborn.. whaha.. for this sem guess the onli subject i love are com anima, den maybe lab management..
proteo and genomes... i guess i just can't make sense out of it.. it's all just erm.. what the fuck am i studying all these.. it just seem... not my cup of tea..

Now about guy in sch...
well... since yr 1 started and the 1st time i saw that guy, i think he's cool and has his character.. i dun say i admire him becos i dun like the word admire... it's fake, bull shit.. it were just merely liking. lol.. ya, so i said wat i wanted.. haha. not sure why, it just so happen that each time i went out with frenz, there might be possibilities i will see him, and it's always at orchard. lol.. maybe he alway go there.. and so am i.. whaha.. erm. i do remember taking the same bus from tanglin to orchard... hai ya.. he alway take that bus one.. lol.. anyway he was sitting beside me la.. just got to know his name recently..lol.. anyway... i think i'll nv approach him or wat so ever.. cos we are just living in two different world.. diff frenz, life and... further more i dun like one of his frenz la.. cos of his attitude and mouth speaking nonsense and damm vulgar.. other than that is stil ok la.. wat ever it is.. i dun think we are suitable for each other..

anyway there is someone who wat ever la.. but dun think i will wan.. as there are many reason.. and yes that i've already guess so that this day of wat ever.. lol..

erm.. i think i like to keep people guessing.. whaha.. therefore my blog is like dat... there's also other reason la..

that's all...
i wan to slp le... good nite..

Hi everyone...

lol.

Haven been bloggin for abt one month.. erm.. i'm just lazy and not in the mood.
For the past one month, i just felt like slacking at home and not doing anything. Well, actually i was kind of doing what i was hoping. Just working at borders like erm.. kind of not me.. lol.. cos there were not band practice, no guitar practice.. for the first three weeks i was just purely working and slping at home when i'm not working. then comes the last two weeks where i had fun like crazy and doesn't want to go back sch.. so much thing happen last two week. keep going out with frenz, poly frenz, ex sch frenz and so on..
and finally sch started and i was working on sunday nite till 11 and i didn't manage to get a slp after monday sch, not even a nap. then i went to my frenz grandma funeral and accompanied her till like morning 5am, went back home with my frenz didnt even slp for a few minutes, bath and go sch... erm.. den in sch i couldn't concentrate. i did my work as usual, but i slept through the whole of third meeting. trying to keep myself awake, but i can't, the class was just too boring and deadly. listen for a few minutes of talking and i dozed off.. whaha.. finally get home but then i didnt slp, forgot abt what i was doing, but slp onli after like 10pm.

erm.. think i wan to slp liao.. cont when free... not really in the mood to think abt what i wanted to write.. hehe just being myself. lazy!
Damm sian every morning have to wake up like 6.30am but who cares, as usual me alway wake up at 7am, couldn't wake up any earlier. usual wake up time because the sky turn brighter. :D

hai....

damm sad... currently, i couldn't be bother with any thing liao.. that's why everything i do is failing me.. i not sure why.. i jus dun wan to do anything.. maybe i'm real tired.. hai.. all i noe is that i wan to play.. i dun to care about study all this.. hai.. super sian.. it's getting worse and worse...
actually this sem is so much easier and rite.. i can score better but.. i'm just getting worse.. hum.. most likely is becos of my attendance.. hai..

suddenly, i feel like giving myself a rest.. but i couldn't.. how i wish.. i can be like others rite now.. dun have to care about anything... and just go for holidays.. hum.. me leh.. got to care abt all the nonsense.. hai.. i just feel like giving up.. taking up so much stuff only stress meself..

boooo....

hum.. so long nv blog liao.. hehe.. starting of the week mon got chalet... and etc... till now den free to go online.. but.. dun wan to stay long too.. cos i'm working morning shift.. going to slp soon

i think i'm crazy liao...

Hum... seriously... i really dun noe how to cope with many many things.. hai...
sometime there are so much things to handle that you lose control of yourself.. i realise i'm impatient, hot tempered, petty and everything bad recently... i can't centralise myself... it may just be some small things but i will get easily irritated... not sure why?

was it becos i have too much things to handle that i feel frustrated... was it becos of the problems that i'm dealing with... was it becos i've no time for myself to relax, everyday there are things for me to busy with, most of the days.. i really have no time for myself to relax.. even when relaxing, i can't rest well becos too many things are running in my head...

i wan to find back the old me... when i can endure with many things... where i really think though, where i'm not the heck care type... i really realise i change so much.. from being quiet becoming more takative.. which is good.. becoming lamer... and all the nonsense things come out when with frenz outside.. perhaps i'm really too stress up.. god help me pls...

for a very long time i didnt turn up in front of god.. i realise something.. when you really started not coming often to find god... things start to change.. maybe becos the onli time i can relax is when i'm with god..

maybe i should really give myself a few days of break... at home and do nothings.. so that to centralise myself, to give myself enough time to do my personal things... like pack my room or so on.. hehe..
very tired.. only had 4 hrs of slp den go to work at 9 till 8... hai... life is full of ups and downs... when you have fun you should give yourself time to rest... the amount of energy use up should be equivalent to the amount for resting.....

i think i shouldn't let myself being lock in a box... i should open up this box so that everyone can enter... to be open to everyone, making myself happier.. getting to know more friends is so much fun... of cos not to meet the wrong one.

In life i'm those sort of person who will do anything that makes my life better, enjoying myself, instead of keeping myself onli to myself.. i will jus end up the same. i shouldn't be so narrow minded.. i think i'm, though many dun noe. i'm jus thinkin...
i think when we are having fun we shouldn't let anything disturb us.. we shouldn't let ourself be constricted by something... if want to have fun have it all the way with the best thing ever... study.. den study all the way.. i'm those kind who do to the fullness.. unless i really have something important.. else i will nv spoil the mood.. hehe.. if i dun wan.. den i dun even wan to touch it.. cos i really hate things to be done half way.. whaha... that's why my room is always in a mess... cos i dun have the time to do.. if i do it would do real nice.. but one or two weeks later it would end up being the same.. whahah...

think what i'm trying to say here is i nv let my frenz down... will try to fulfill what they want... i seldom turn down their offer... dunnoe why i'm this kind of person... it might not be good sometime... haha.. but then life in poly are so short... we should enjoy ourselve to the fullness, further more, some times it's really hard to get all the people to come together.. there always be time for your other thing... it's abt organising your time ba... maybe that's why i can cope with so many things at a time.. while some people tends to give up.. becos they need time to rest and for some nonsense things...
my logic is that.. whatever you can do or find now, you can nv find it again next time... things are not going to be the same anymore.. so tresure it..

Mum in hospital...

hai... receive a message from my sis during my break at 2pm... that my mum was in hospital.. wanted to leave the work place.. but becos borders was busy and lack of man power today... the manager couldn't let me off.. so i stay lo.. actually he said something like try to stay if can... and after thinkin rite.. i stay lo.. since got my sis to accompany my mum le. knowing that my best frenz was there to accompany my sis so jus endure with a few hrs since it isn't really bad.
after work quickily rush to TTSH.. but didnt manage to see my mum.. cos only one visitor are allow to visit her at a time.. so i jus have to wait.. den accompany my frenz to smoke.. lol.. jus nice after smoking my mum can be warded to a room.. so we jus follow her up to the bed there lo.
ard eight we left for our dinner... however, i was worried abt my dad cos he has not arrive yet.. so called him up, realising he's on the way.. so i asked my frenz to leave with my sis without me, will go find them later.
so i went to look for my dad at novena square then go gardian to buy some stuff for mum.. after buying went up to find my mum.. by right they said that the visitor time is only untill 8pm.. however my dad and i reached there after eight.. lol..
den i stayed for awhile when i was abt to leave the doctor finally came.. after so much of waitin from afternoon 2 till 9... aiyo...
so i took cab to find my frenz at serangoon garden chom chom... i felt kind of bad cos my mum in hospital and i'm like outside with my frenz enjoying.. but i can't do anythng also.. and my dad didnt say anything, and encourage me to go...
at there waited for sometime to find a sit.. whaha.. we order quite alot of things.. and the first thing i ask my frenz to order didnt come at all. it's fried oyster.. we decided not to care abt it and leave.. cos we have stay quite long there, as in we have been eating for quite long... and we are full liao..
went KTV after that at serangoon garden also.. K garden again.. lol.. saw my frenz there.. as in at serangoon garden. so we stay at the KTV till 1 like dat.. after dat we sent people home.. whaha.. my dat frenz driving.. hehe.. total there is 8 of us.. lol. hum.. the journey home was very very long.. first suppose to sent the one who stay at ponggol (wat ever it's spelled) but end up sending the one who stay at woodland first (who is the driver galfrenz. lol), becos of one wrong turn.. den come back to punggol again.. after that suppose to be our turn.. but we got lost at punggol... haha.. the one who noes the road was slping.. actually we went out of punggol le, reach pasir ris, then tampines after sometime.. den take the wrong route come back to punggol.. den dunnoe how to get out liao.. so it's time to wake the person up.. whaha.. so manage to find our way out la.. den on our way back to my house.. got one stupid frenz went to open the window while the car on fast speed cos on a very long and no traffic road... it hurts our ears, got pressure. guess becos of the different pressure outside and in the car somemore in veyr fast speed. but he doesn't feel it. maybe becos he's near the window that is open.. got scolded like erm.. not really hell la.. but being scolded by us la.. stupid..
manage to reach home at 3am.. hai.. a 2hrs ride to home. lol.

i'm really glad that i have all these frenz, when i have trouble they come and help... two of them actually take half day off from their camp after receiving call from my sis to visit my mum.. i'm so touch, even i didnt do that la..

Thanks Bing wei, jason, guo qiang, gui quan, mu zhen and jia ying from coming down...
these four guys are my very best frenz.. hehe.. sad that i'd moved, else you guys can alway come my house and talk cock.. we stay in the same area that's why.

i going slp. good nite.

i'm complaining!!!

hai.. i hate this.. hate it hate it... thinking of it jus make my nerves burst..
i think i very suay today... everything that i wan i couldnt get it...
what's wrong with me.. or is it jus the people.. argggg...
1st... where has all my FYP team mates gone to? while i only manage to get elaine and jasmine.
2nd.. i forgot to get our FYP faci no. before elaine go slp.. elaine!!!
3rd.. Ying Ying where you gone to??? i very very long nv talk to u le.. call u nv pick up also... hai..
4th.. i'm trying to call up yunus.... he hang up my call..
5th.. thinking of ways to get my the other FYP teams on msn... the one i noe not online. the rest i dun have their contacts...
6th... noeing jon and vik are frenz of fad, but jon not online
7th.. talking to vik online so tried to get his no... but he said it's in his old phone... arggg!!!
8th.. i dun wan to think anymore..
9th.. i wan to get the hell out of all this things...


What the hell am i doing.. hai... why got so much last min things...
I HAD ENOUGH...
TOO MUCH TOO MUCH....
guess that certain things i need to give up.. i couldn't take up so much stuff... i dun wan to stuff myself with all the things and people doing nuts.
i think organising my stuff is very very important... i very long nv do that liao... arggg..... i think i need to slp..
bye...