hai....
damm sad... currently, i couldn't be bother with any thing liao.. that's why everything i do is failing me.. i not sure why.. i jus dun wan to do anything.. maybe i'm real tired.. hai.. all i noe is that i wan to play.. i dun to care about study all this.. hai.. super sian.. it's getting worse and worse...
actually this sem is so much easier and rite.. i can score better but.. i'm just getting worse.. hum.. most likely is becos of my attendance.. hai..
suddenly, i feel like giving myself a rest.. but i couldn't.. how i wish.. i can be like others rite now.. dun have to care about anything... and just go for holidays.. hum.. me leh.. got to care abt all the nonsense.. hai.. i just feel like giving up.. taking up so much stuff only stress meself..
Monday, March 27, 2006
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Sunday, March 19, 2006
i think i'm crazy liao...
Hum... seriously... i really dun noe how to cope with many many things.. hai...
sometime there are so much things to handle that you lose control of yourself.. i realise i'm impatient, hot tempered, petty and everything bad recently... i can't centralise myself... it may just be some small things but i will get easily irritated... not sure why?
was it becos i have too much things to handle that i feel frustrated... was it becos of the problems that i'm dealing with... was it becos i've no time for myself to relax, everyday there are things for me to busy with, most of the days.. i really have no time for myself to relax.. even when relaxing, i can't rest well becos too many things are running in my head...
i wan to find back the old me... when i can endure with many things... where i really think though, where i'm not the heck care type... i really realise i change so much.. from being quiet becoming more takative.. which is good.. becoming lamer... and all the nonsense things come out when with frenz outside.. perhaps i'm really too stress up.. god help me pls...
for a very long time i didnt turn up in front of god.. i realise something.. when you really started not coming often to find god... things start to change.. maybe becos the onli time i can relax is when i'm with god..
maybe i should really give myself a few days of break... at home and do nothings.. so that to centralise myself, to give myself enough time to do my personal things... like pack my room or so on.. hehe..
very tired.. only had 4 hrs of slp den go to work at 9 till 8... hai... life is full of ups and downs... when you have fun you should give yourself time to rest... the amount of energy use up should be equivalent to the amount for resting.....
sometime there are so much things to handle that you lose control of yourself.. i realise i'm impatient, hot tempered, petty and everything bad recently... i can't centralise myself... it may just be some small things but i will get easily irritated... not sure why?
was it becos i have too much things to handle that i feel frustrated... was it becos of the problems that i'm dealing with... was it becos i've no time for myself to relax, everyday there are things for me to busy with, most of the days.. i really have no time for myself to relax.. even when relaxing, i can't rest well becos too many things are running in my head...
i wan to find back the old me... when i can endure with many things... where i really think though, where i'm not the heck care type... i really realise i change so much.. from being quiet becoming more takative.. which is good.. becoming lamer... and all the nonsense things come out when with frenz outside.. perhaps i'm really too stress up.. god help me pls...
for a very long time i didnt turn up in front of god.. i realise something.. when you really started not coming often to find god... things start to change.. maybe becos the onli time i can relax is when i'm with god..
maybe i should really give myself a few days of break... at home and do nothings.. so that to centralise myself, to give myself enough time to do my personal things... like pack my room or so on.. hehe..
very tired.. only had 4 hrs of slp den go to work at 9 till 8... hai... life is full of ups and downs... when you have fun you should give yourself time to rest... the amount of energy use up should be equivalent to the amount for resting.....
Saturday, March 18, 2006
i think i shouldn't let myself being lock in a box... i should open up this box so that everyone can enter... to be open to everyone, making myself happier.. getting to know more friends is so much fun... of cos not to meet the wrong one.
In life i'm those sort of person who will do anything that makes my life better, enjoying myself, instead of keeping myself onli to myself.. i will jus end up the same. i shouldn't be so narrow minded.. i think i'm, though many dun noe. i'm jus thinkin...
i think when we are having fun we shouldn't let anything disturb us.. we shouldn't let ourself be constricted by something... if want to have fun have it all the way with the best thing ever... study.. den study all the way.. i'm those kind who do to the fullness.. unless i really have something important.. else i will nv spoil the mood.. hehe.. if i dun wan.. den i dun even wan to touch it.. cos i really hate things to be done half way.. whaha... that's why my room is always in a mess... cos i dun have the time to do.. if i do it would do real nice.. but one or two weeks later it would end up being the same.. whahah...
think what i'm trying to say here is i nv let my frenz down... will try to fulfill what they want... i seldom turn down their offer... dunnoe why i'm this kind of person... it might not be good sometime... haha.. but then life in poly are so short... we should enjoy ourselve to the fullness, further more, some times it's really hard to get all the people to come together.. there always be time for your other thing... it's abt organising your time ba... maybe that's why i can cope with so many things at a time.. while some people tends to give up.. becos they need time to rest and for some nonsense things...
my logic is that.. whatever you can do or find now, you can nv find it again next time... things are not going to be the same anymore.. so tresure it..
In life i'm those sort of person who will do anything that makes my life better, enjoying myself, instead of keeping myself onli to myself.. i will jus end up the same. i shouldn't be so narrow minded.. i think i'm, though many dun noe. i'm jus thinkin...
i think when we are having fun we shouldn't let anything disturb us.. we shouldn't let ourself be constricted by something... if want to have fun have it all the way with the best thing ever... study.. den study all the way.. i'm those kind who do to the fullness.. unless i really have something important.. else i will nv spoil the mood.. hehe.. if i dun wan.. den i dun even wan to touch it.. cos i really hate things to be done half way.. whaha... that's why my room is always in a mess... cos i dun have the time to do.. if i do it would do real nice.. but one or two weeks later it would end up being the same.. whahah...
think what i'm trying to say here is i nv let my frenz down... will try to fulfill what they want... i seldom turn down their offer... dunnoe why i'm this kind of person... it might not be good sometime... haha.. but then life in poly are so short... we should enjoy ourselve to the fullness, further more, some times it's really hard to get all the people to come together.. there always be time for your other thing... it's abt organising your time ba... maybe that's why i can cope with so many things at a time.. while some people tends to give up.. becos they need time to rest and for some nonsense things...
my logic is that.. whatever you can do or find now, you can nv find it again next time... things are not going to be the same anymore.. so tresure it..
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Mum in hospital...
hai... receive a message from my sis during my break at 2pm... that my mum was in hospital.. wanted to leave the work place.. but becos borders was busy and lack of man power today... the manager couldn't let me off.. so i stay lo.. actually he said something like try to stay if can... and after thinkin rite.. i stay lo.. since got my sis to accompany my mum le. knowing that my best frenz was there to accompany my sis so jus endure with a few hrs since it isn't really bad.
after work quickily rush to TTSH.. but didnt manage to see my mum.. cos only one visitor are allow to visit her at a time.. so i jus have to wait.. den accompany my frenz to smoke.. lol.. jus nice after smoking my mum can be warded to a room.. so we jus follow her up to the bed there lo.
ard eight we left for our dinner... however, i was worried abt my dad cos he has not arrive yet.. so called him up, realising he's on the way.. so i asked my frenz to leave with my sis without me, will go find them later.
so i went to look for my dad at novena square then go gardian to buy some stuff for mum.. after buying went up to find my mum.. by right they said that the visitor time is only untill 8pm.. however my dad and i reached there after eight.. lol..
den i stayed for awhile when i was abt to leave the doctor finally came.. after so much of waitin from afternoon 2 till 9... aiyo...
so i took cab to find my frenz at serangoon garden chom chom... i felt kind of bad cos my mum in hospital and i'm like outside with my frenz enjoying.. but i can't do anythng also.. and my dad didnt say anything, and encourage me to go...
at there waited for sometime to find a sit.. whaha.. we order quite alot of things.. and the first thing i ask my frenz to order didnt come at all. it's fried oyster.. we decided not to care abt it and leave.. cos we have stay quite long there, as in we have been eating for quite long... and we are full liao..
went KTV after that at serangoon garden also.. K garden again.. lol.. saw my frenz there.. as in at serangoon garden. so we stay at the KTV till 1 like dat.. after dat we sent people home.. whaha.. my dat frenz driving.. hehe.. total there is 8 of us.. lol. hum.. the journey home was very very long.. first suppose to sent the one who stay at ponggol (wat ever it's spelled) but end up sending the one who stay at woodland first (who is the driver galfrenz. lol), becos of one wrong turn.. den come back to punggol again.. after that suppose to be our turn.. but we got lost at punggol... haha.. the one who noes the road was slping.. actually we went out of punggol le, reach pasir ris, then tampines after sometime.. den take the wrong route come back to punggol.. den dunnoe how to get out liao.. so it's time to wake the person up.. whaha.. so manage to find our way out la.. den on our way back to my house.. got one stupid frenz went to open the window while the car on fast speed cos on a very long and no traffic road... it hurts our ears, got pressure. guess becos of the different pressure outside and in the car somemore in veyr fast speed. but he doesn't feel it. maybe becos he's near the window that is open.. got scolded like erm.. not really hell la.. but being scolded by us la.. stupid..
manage to reach home at 3am.. hai.. a 2hrs ride to home. lol.
i'm really glad that i have all these frenz, when i have trouble they come and help... two of them actually take half day off from their camp after receiving call from my sis to visit my mum.. i'm so touch, even i didnt do that la..
Thanks Bing wei, jason, guo qiang, gui quan, mu zhen and jia ying from coming down...
these four guys are my very best frenz.. hehe.. sad that i'd moved, else you guys can alway come my house and talk cock.. we stay in the same area that's why.
i going slp. good nite.
after work quickily rush to TTSH.. but didnt manage to see my mum.. cos only one visitor are allow to visit her at a time.. so i jus have to wait.. den accompany my frenz to smoke.. lol.. jus nice after smoking my mum can be warded to a room.. so we jus follow her up to the bed there lo.
ard eight we left for our dinner... however, i was worried abt my dad cos he has not arrive yet.. so called him up, realising he's on the way.. so i asked my frenz to leave with my sis without me, will go find them later.
so i went to look for my dad at novena square then go gardian to buy some stuff for mum.. after buying went up to find my mum.. by right they said that the visitor time is only untill 8pm.. however my dad and i reached there after eight.. lol..
den i stayed for awhile when i was abt to leave the doctor finally came.. after so much of waitin from afternoon 2 till 9... aiyo...
so i took cab to find my frenz at serangoon garden chom chom... i felt kind of bad cos my mum in hospital and i'm like outside with my frenz enjoying.. but i can't do anythng also.. and my dad didnt say anything, and encourage me to go...
at there waited for sometime to find a sit.. whaha.. we order quite alot of things.. and the first thing i ask my frenz to order didnt come at all. it's fried oyster.. we decided not to care abt it and leave.. cos we have stay quite long there, as in we have been eating for quite long... and we are full liao..
went KTV after that at serangoon garden also.. K garden again.. lol.. saw my frenz there.. as in at serangoon garden. so we stay at the KTV till 1 like dat.. after dat we sent people home.. whaha.. my dat frenz driving.. hehe.. total there is 8 of us.. lol. hum.. the journey home was very very long.. first suppose to sent the one who stay at ponggol (wat ever it's spelled) but end up sending the one who stay at woodland first (who is the driver galfrenz. lol), becos of one wrong turn.. den come back to punggol again.. after that suppose to be our turn.. but we got lost at punggol... haha.. the one who noes the road was slping.. actually we went out of punggol le, reach pasir ris, then tampines after sometime.. den take the wrong route come back to punggol.. den dunnoe how to get out liao.. so it's time to wake the person up.. whaha.. so manage to find our way out la.. den on our way back to my house.. got one stupid frenz went to open the window while the car on fast speed cos on a very long and no traffic road... it hurts our ears, got pressure. guess becos of the different pressure outside and in the car somemore in veyr fast speed. but he doesn't feel it. maybe becos he's near the window that is open.. got scolded like erm.. not really hell la.. but being scolded by us la.. stupid..
manage to reach home at 3am.. hai.. a 2hrs ride to home. lol.
i'm really glad that i have all these frenz, when i have trouble they come and help... two of them actually take half day off from their camp after receiving call from my sis to visit my mum.. i'm so touch, even i didnt do that la..
Thanks Bing wei, jason, guo qiang, gui quan, mu zhen and jia ying from coming down...
these four guys are my very best frenz.. hehe.. sad that i'd moved, else you guys can alway come my house and talk cock.. we stay in the same area that's why.
i going slp. good nite.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
i'm complaining!!!
hai.. i hate this.. hate it hate it... thinking of it jus make my nerves burst..
i think i very suay today... everything that i wan i couldnt get it...
what's wrong with me.. or is it jus the people.. argggg...
1st... where has all my FYP team mates gone to? while i only manage to get elaine and jasmine.
2nd.. i forgot to get our FYP faci no. before elaine go slp.. elaine!!!
3rd.. Ying Ying where you gone to??? i very very long nv talk to u le.. call u nv pick up also... hai..
4th.. i'm trying to call up yunus.... he hang up my call..
5th.. thinking of ways to get my the other FYP teams on msn... the one i noe not online. the rest i dun have their contacts...
6th... noeing jon and vik are frenz of fad, but jon not online
7th.. talking to vik online so tried to get his no... but he said it's in his old phone... arggg!!!
8th.. i dun wan to think anymore..
9th.. i wan to get the hell out of all this things...
What the hell am i doing.. hai... why got so much last min things...
I HAD ENOUGH...
TOO MUCH TOO MUCH....
guess that certain things i need to give up.. i couldn't take up so much stuff... i dun wan to stuff myself with all the things and people doing nuts.
i think organising my stuff is very very important... i very long nv do that liao... arggg..... i think i need to slp..
bye...
i think i very suay today... everything that i wan i couldnt get it...
what's wrong with me.. or is it jus the people.. argggg...
1st... where has all my FYP team mates gone to? while i only manage to get elaine and jasmine.
2nd.. i forgot to get our FYP faci no. before elaine go slp.. elaine!!!
3rd.. Ying Ying where you gone to??? i very very long nv talk to u le.. call u nv pick up also... hai..
4th.. i'm trying to call up yunus.... he hang up my call..
5th.. thinking of ways to get my the other FYP teams on msn... the one i noe not online. the rest i dun have their contacts...
6th... noeing jon and vik are frenz of fad, but jon not online
7th.. talking to vik online so tried to get his no... but he said it's in his old phone... arggg!!!
8th.. i dun wan to think anymore..
9th.. i wan to get the hell out of all this things...
What the hell am i doing.. hai... why got so much last min things...
I HAD ENOUGH...
TOO MUCH TOO MUCH....
guess that certain things i need to give up.. i couldn't take up so much stuff... i dun wan to stuff myself with all the things and people doing nuts.
i think organising my stuff is very very important... i very long nv do that liao... arggg..... i think i need to slp..
bye...
Sunday, March 12, 2006
12th march midnight
Bleh... Jus woke up at 2pm... whahaha. recently keep waking up very late.. like 1 or 2.. unless got things on that day then i will wake up early.. and that is super early.. like 7am or earlier.
well... yest went to watch movie after my work with ashraf... whaha.. the movie start at 1.30 am. actually i dun wan to eat, but then as i walk hor then i felt hungry liao.. so we went to subway to eat... onli me eating.. lol.. he ate cookies.. whaha while i had my tuna sandwich.. aiyo.. the subway hor.. everything also dun have lo.. sian diao. then we sit down chat chat.. time pass very fast la.. like jus finish my meal onli then the movie starting soon.. realising is abt 1.3oam liao, so we got to go up.. whaha.. anyway the movie nv start on time de la.. we was early.. lol
i realise that recently all the movie start so sudden one... like you dun noe whether it's the movie or the advertisment.. only untill after awhile where they show the producer name and so on... whaha..
talk abt the movie.. while it was quite nice.. a comedy show la... more of it it's about meet the parent... oh forgot to tell wat movie we were watching... whaha it's 'DATE MOVIE'... then got one part like mr and mrs smith.. and still got la.. i think the show not bad la.. it's super lame.. lol... the story line ok la.. whaha.. it's abt a girl who is really fat.. looking for true love.. then one day they met in her dad cafe... then after that.. she went to look for hitch, i think sort of like a match maker or help her find the guy la.. den.. erm... go watch urself.. whaha. jus tell you la.. the ending was that, the guy she met in the cafe and herself live happily ever after.. whahah...
I enjoy watching it.. haha.. very funny.. after watch we took cab home.. lol.. nothing to do liao..
later going to find ashraf to take taxi receipt so i can claim the money from borders... whaha..
chao.. bye...
well... yest went to watch movie after my work with ashraf... whaha.. the movie start at 1.30 am. actually i dun wan to eat, but then as i walk hor then i felt hungry liao.. so we went to subway to eat... onli me eating.. lol.. he ate cookies.. whaha while i had my tuna sandwich.. aiyo.. the subway hor.. everything also dun have lo.. sian diao. then we sit down chat chat.. time pass very fast la.. like jus finish my meal onli then the movie starting soon.. realising is abt 1.3oam liao, so we got to go up.. whaha.. anyway the movie nv start on time de la.. we was early.. lol
i realise that recently all the movie start so sudden one... like you dun noe whether it's the movie or the advertisment.. only untill after awhile where they show the producer name and so on... whaha..
talk abt the movie.. while it was quite nice.. a comedy show la... more of it it's about meet the parent... oh forgot to tell wat movie we were watching... whaha it's 'DATE MOVIE'... then got one part like mr and mrs smith.. and still got la.. i think the show not bad la.. it's super lame.. lol... the story line ok la.. whaha.. it's abt a girl who is really fat.. looking for true love.. then one day they met in her dad cafe... then after that.. she went to look for hitch, i think sort of like a match maker or help her find the guy la.. den.. erm... go watch urself.. whaha. jus tell you la.. the ending was that, the guy she met in the cafe and herself live happily ever after.. whahah...
I enjoy watching it.. haha.. very funny.. after watch we took cab home.. lol.. nothing to do liao..
later going to find ashraf to take taxi receipt so i can claim the money from borders... whaha..
chao.. bye...
Friday, March 10, 2006
Quizezz
| You Belong in Paris |
 Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris. The art, the fashion, the wine, the men! Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park... You'll love living in the most chic place on earth. |
How You Life Your Life |
 You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them. |
How Do You Live Your Life?
Maybe You Would Pick Your Boyfriend Again... But Maybe Not! |
 It's a tough call, and that's probably why you are taking this quiz. Things between you and your guy are good, but not great. And with every road bump you hit, you can't help but wonder about other guys. With good reason, there's a pretty high chance that there's a better guy for you somewhere. |
| Your Reputation Is: Shy Girl |
 You've done pretty well in keeping your reputation protected.. Problem is, no one really knows who you are! |
You Are A Professional Girlfriend! |
 You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy. |
What Your Brown Outfit Means |
 You're not too classic, not too funky - just up on the latest trends. You know what looks good on you, and you love to shop! You project a smart sense of style, which makes people see you as competent. Designer match: Rebecca Beeson Signature accessory: A slim leather belt |
You Are a Skin Deep Sweetheart |
 You may be supermodel gorgeous or a plain Jane. It really doesn't matter, because you're confident and secure. You don't go out looking like a slob, but you are low maintenance. You have better things to worry about than whether your nails are the right shade! |
You are a Mild Mama |
 You don't have to be screaming at the top of your lungs to have a good time You rather chill, soak in the moment, and appreciate life for what it is Guys appreciate your "take life as it comes" approach... (Though they wouldn't mind if you got a little wild from time to time!) |
You Should Be With an Earth Sign! |
 Your best match is a Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn Why? You like your guys to pamper, wine, and dine you Not that you're a gold digger, you just like the finer things An Earth Sign will go all out to woo you - and enjoy doing it And you'll never find a more trustworthy or loyal match! |
You Are Furry Boots |
 They're not just boots. They're your dancing shoes! |
You Were An Angel This Year |
 You Were 20% Naughty, 80% Nice You know you've been a super good girl this year So good, that you may have missed out a little... Don't worry, Santa will make it up to you! |
You Should Get an Abstract Tattoo |
 Artistic and unique You're the most likely type to personally design your tattoo |
You Are a Tomboy |
 You're having too much fun to bother with nail polish and crazy diets. Guys are instead impressed by how much you know and do! |
Went out with my Best frenz...
wow... jus wake up not long ago.. lol.. abt one.. very very long nv wake up at this time le.. super tired lo...
yest went to meet my old frenz.. whahaha.. den i go his house.. actually he wanted to follow his mum to dunnoe where.. then hor i came at the wrong time.. he nv tell me also la.. then his mum ask him not to follow cos i'm ard... i felt quite bad la.. luckily, his bro came back so his bro accompany her mum lo.. hai..
at his house nothing to do also.. listen to songs.. whahaha.. didnt noe that he lend a soprano sax from his frenz.. whaha anyway i think is a lousy one.. didnt maintain at all, a bit rusty liao.. lol..
haha.. then later at ard 8 ++ meet up with my other best frenz... went serangoon garden de k garden.. hai.. i actually dun like going there.. cos i dun really sing.. whaha.. i jus follow lo... didnt have to spent on transportation also.. cos got people drive.. lol.. guo qiangz you rox man.. but he also very jia lat la.. alway drive people ard.. on the way there i'm already falling aslp cos very nice to slp under the aircon somemore... lol.
at the K garden, they sing i watch lo.. i sing too la but not on mike.. jus follow them sing.. the reason i dun like singing is becos i dun really remember the lyrics and dun noe how to read some of the words.. i can only remember the music.. lol.. slack there drink my snow shake peach.. then i msg my sis ask if she wan to come.. but she finish work at 10. think she took cab there.. we went back ard 12 plus.. luckily is family car if not we got to take cab back le.. so jus nice lo. eight people in the car.. hehe.. reach home then didnt do much thing i went to slp liao..
i'm sorry if i really made you feel that way..
yest went to meet my old frenz.. whahaha.. den i go his house.. actually he wanted to follow his mum to dunnoe where.. then hor i came at the wrong time.. he nv tell me also la.. then his mum ask him not to follow cos i'm ard... i felt quite bad la.. luckily, his bro came back so his bro accompany her mum lo.. hai..
at his house nothing to do also.. listen to songs.. whahaha.. didnt noe that he lend a soprano sax from his frenz.. whaha anyway i think is a lousy one.. didnt maintain at all, a bit rusty liao.. lol..
haha.. then later at ard 8 ++ meet up with my other best frenz... went serangoon garden de k garden.. hai.. i actually dun like going there.. cos i dun really sing.. whaha.. i jus follow lo... didnt have to spent on transportation also.. cos got people drive.. lol.. guo qiangz you rox man.. but he also very jia lat la.. alway drive people ard.. on the way there i'm already falling aslp cos very nice to slp under the aircon somemore... lol.
at the K garden, they sing i watch lo.. i sing too la but not on mike.. jus follow them sing.. the reason i dun like singing is becos i dun really remember the lyrics and dun noe how to read some of the words.. i can only remember the music.. lol.. slack there drink my snow shake peach.. then i msg my sis ask if she wan to come.. but she finish work at 10. think she took cab there.. we went back ard 12 plus.. luckily is family car if not we got to take cab back le.. so jus nice lo. eight people in the car.. hehe.. reach home then didnt do much thing i went to slp liao..
i'm sorry if i really made you feel that way..
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Hum.. i'm not sure if you are talking about me...
anyway... i knew you will nv look back... n i shall not too...
things become clearer to me... i'm learning... it's hard...
becos of my attitude, my character... my life has become like dat.. i dun blame anybody for that... as i believe certain things happen because of something... i can't tell what is it...
for i know if that's my life i shall accept it...
i'm very touch by the words you said even if it's not meant for me...
many people nv turn back in life not excluding me... if i would have turn back thing would have become worse... i'm happy that i have gotten rid of the bad.
today...
i learnt many things...
i shall jus let it be... it's best not to do anything sometimes... i still dun noe when and what i should do and what i should not... i'm still learning... the learning is long and never ending.. it tough as well...
i think i should just forget about everything that happen before whether it's in band or personal and try starting anew again... it's best to start everything from stratch, your mind will be fresher and can do thing better...
thanks for the things you mention... actually without you saying so.. i already know what i should do. your words jus make me feel better + making sure the things i'm going to do is right for me... not for you anymore... hehe. thanks for that... : ) big smiles...
not only i will take care of myself, you too...
anyway... i knew you will nv look back... n i shall not too...
things become clearer to me... i'm learning... it's hard...
becos of my attitude, my character... my life has become like dat.. i dun blame anybody for that... as i believe certain things happen because of something... i can't tell what is it...
for i know if that's my life i shall accept it...
i'm very touch by the words you said even if it's not meant for me...
many people nv turn back in life not excluding me... if i would have turn back thing would have become worse... i'm happy that i have gotten rid of the bad.
today...
i learnt many things...
i shall jus let it be... it's best not to do anything sometimes... i still dun noe when and what i should do and what i should not... i'm still learning... the learning is long and never ending.. it tough as well...
i think i should just forget about everything that happen before whether it's in band or personal and try starting anew again... it's best to start everything from stratch, your mind will be fresher and can do thing better...
thanks for the things you mention... actually without you saying so.. i already know what i should do. your words jus make me feel better + making sure the things i'm going to do is right for me... not for you anymore... hehe. thanks for that... : ) big smiles...
not only i will take care of myself, you too...
very tired wor...
too much things to care about.. i think why not jus leave it like dat... the more i do it's just going to be worse...
everything jus goes back to the things i did again... jus wan to forget about it... shouldn't have put so much thoughts for all the things... the more thoughts and feeling i put it jus making everything worse..
am jus a failure rite now.. i can't do anything good...
too much things to care about.. i think why not jus leave it like dat... the more i do it's just going to be worse...
everything jus goes back to the things i did again... jus wan to forget about it... shouldn't have put so much thoughts for all the things... the more thoughts and feeling i put it jus making everything worse..
am jus a failure rite now.. i can't do anything good...
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Finally, manage to get enough of rest...
since thursday nite i didnt have enough slp. slept only at 2am and got to wake up at 7 plus to go sch.. after school went back home, bath, go back sch for the dance nite thing. it didnt turn out as well. not many people were there.. then after that we went to East coast park, as the whole of yr 2 SAS was invited to there, and veron really wan to go.. hehe so we took cab from sch... hum.. we can't find the pit at first...cos we've walk to the last pit of that area.. lol.. and heard from veron that the pit is near mac... however it wasn't really near.. whaha.. then call up someone to check lo..
while.. quite many people were there... haha.. wow i saw janice.. lol.. but she's quiting sch.. hai.. sian diao.. i nv thought i will be meetin her there... anyway nice to c you.. and she asked me something erm.. whaha..
at 11 plus we went back to sch.. my frenz told me they were about to close the registration... however it didnt la.. after we get our bike, push it to annex hall, den we went to bath.. lol.. den went back to the class room to get some slp but we did not... lol.. after staying in class for awhile, we went out of sch... lol.. i can't believe i'm doing such thing... lol.. we went to mobil, den from there we walk to tanglin, then we went to a very cool house... it's really really cool.. i couldn't i seen this in singapore.. it's ain't a normal bangalow.. it look like a small palace.. damm cool... how could someone be so rich??? hai.. he got so many cars... and it doesn't cost a few hundreds thousand. one of each actually cost about a million... and he has 7 of them plus 2 mecz. and 2 harley davison... damm sickening.. haha then we carry on walking to tanglin mall.. from there we sit down and talk after that we went to traders hotel before going back to sch.. lol.. so reach sch ard 3.30am.. wen we went into the class room. there were 2 people slping.. haha. cos we didnt expect people to be inside as we left it's only two of us there, the rest stayed outside of the room. i went to switch on the light... cos really dark ma.. then both of them wake up.. lol.. anyway.. we manage to get 1 hr plus of slp in not a very good position.. lol.. wake up brush teeth... den went down to collect our bike.. actually i noe very well that i might not be able to make it.. as i could no longer drink any water... lol.. haha it really a good experience.. anyway.. actually i manage to ride all the way through.. but then they ask mi whether if i wan to take the bus.. then i say anything la.. cos i dun noe what happen ma.. they tot i'm the last one but i'm not.. whaha it jus that i'm the last of the faster and the first of the slower.. in between there is not one in front of me and none behind me.. seem like i'm the only one.. whahah.. so waited for the bus to come lo.. den i didnt feel good at all.. anyway i felt better taking some rest... at ngee ann poly... i think.. so continue to ride to the incinerator there lo.. the slope it really killing... now i'm really the last.. whaha... i'm lazy liao.. actually there were people behind me.. but i'm lazy to ride so i walk up lo.. they were on the bike early then me.. i didnt noe we going to reach soon if i noe i would have move onto the bike earlier.. so pai seh..
so we took a rest at the incinerator there.. took our breakfast.. then we move on to RP campus at 9.10am.. hehe.. super fun... this time i'm in the center again.. lol..
i'll cont after my work.. going to bath then go to work.. hope i wont be late.. hehe...
Back.. i tot is going to four le.. but it's not i'm looking at the wrong time.. it's onli 2.50 i tot is 3.50.. hai...
so i think ard 930 we reach the sch... hehe the president and lee sian long were waiting for us to arrive wor.. cool rite.. whaha
then veron and me walk around and play ard in sch lo.. quite alot of activity la.. hehe.. den we did the hanna.. lol..
so happy to c u there..
rite now i'm afraid..
hope she's not the one you like.. anyway if it is rite.. den wish you guy erm.. happy together lo.. : )
since thursday nite i didnt have enough slp. slept only at 2am and got to wake up at 7 plus to go sch.. after school went back home, bath, go back sch for the dance nite thing. it didnt turn out as well. not many people were there.. then after that we went to East coast park, as the whole of yr 2 SAS was invited to there, and veron really wan to go.. hehe so we took cab from sch... hum.. we can't find the pit at first...cos we've walk to the last pit of that area.. lol.. and heard from veron that the pit is near mac... however it wasn't really near.. whaha.. then call up someone to check lo..
while.. quite many people were there... haha.. wow i saw janice.. lol.. but she's quiting sch.. hai.. sian diao.. i nv thought i will be meetin her there... anyway nice to c you.. and she asked me something erm.. whaha..
at 11 plus we went back to sch.. my frenz told me they were about to close the registration... however it didnt la.. after we get our bike, push it to annex hall, den we went to bath.. lol.. den went back to the class room to get some slp but we did not... lol.. after staying in class for awhile, we went out of sch... lol.. i can't believe i'm doing such thing... lol.. we went to mobil, den from there we walk to tanglin, then we went to a very cool house... it's really really cool.. i couldn't i seen this in singapore.. it's ain't a normal bangalow.. it look like a small palace.. damm cool... how could someone be so rich??? hai.. he got so many cars... and it doesn't cost a few hundreds thousand. one of each actually cost about a million... and he has 7 of them plus 2 mecz. and 2 harley davison... damm sickening.. haha then we carry on walking to tanglin mall.. from there we sit down and talk after that we went to traders hotel before going back to sch.. lol.. so reach sch ard 3.30am.. wen we went into the class room. there were 2 people slping.. haha. cos we didnt expect people to be inside as we left it's only two of us there, the rest stayed outside of the room. i went to switch on the light... cos really dark ma.. then both of them wake up.. lol.. anyway.. we manage to get 1 hr plus of slp in not a very good position.. lol.. wake up brush teeth... den went down to collect our bike.. actually i noe very well that i might not be able to make it.. as i could no longer drink any water... lol.. haha it really a good experience.. anyway.. actually i manage to ride all the way through.. but then they ask mi whether if i wan to take the bus.. then i say anything la.. cos i dun noe what happen ma.. they tot i'm the last one but i'm not.. whaha it jus that i'm the last of the faster and the first of the slower.. in between there is not one in front of me and none behind me.. seem like i'm the only one.. whahah.. so waited for the bus to come lo.. den i didnt feel good at all.. anyway i felt better taking some rest... at ngee ann poly... i think.. so continue to ride to the incinerator there lo.. the slope it really killing... now i'm really the last.. whaha... i'm lazy liao.. actually there were people behind me.. but i'm lazy to ride so i walk up lo.. they were on the bike early then me.. i didnt noe we going to reach soon if i noe i would have move onto the bike earlier.. so pai seh..
so we took a rest at the incinerator there.. took our breakfast.. then we move on to RP campus at 9.10am.. hehe.. super fun... this time i'm in the center again.. lol..
i'll cont after my work.. going to bath then go to work.. hope i wont be late.. hehe...
Back.. i tot is going to four le.. but it's not i'm looking at the wrong time.. it's onli 2.50 i tot is 3.50.. hai...
so i think ard 930 we reach the sch... hehe the president and lee sian long were waiting for us to arrive wor.. cool rite.. whaha
then veron and me walk around and play ard in sch lo.. quite alot of activity la.. hehe.. den we did the hanna.. lol..
so happy to c u there..
rite now i'm afraid..
hope she's not the one you like.. anyway if it is rite.. den wish you guy erm.. happy together lo.. : )
Friday, March 03, 2006
hum.. u change no nv tell me.. whahaha.. so sad. felt so stupid la.. keep msgin ur old number... bleh...
anyway if i change number i also dun bother to tell people.. hehe.. cos i'm jus being lazy. only when people ask then i give. haha... anyway i also change number.. actually not really change la.. jus that i'm lazy to pay my bill.. den accumulated to alot.. den being cancel i think, nv bother to check cos i got another free line which left there nobody use it.. then i take and use lo.. whaha. i not sure abt the number also.. haha i cant remember..
so happy to c you today... you just make my day brighter without even saying a word.
nice hair style.. hehe... going to have a hair cut soon and dye my hair to some reasonable color.. lol..
Yesterday in band...
it wasn't that bad as tue... however there is still problem here and there... hai... why is it so hard to keep a organisation working together peacefully.. anyway i'm glad about the attendance... and glad that GLosz came... he really make a difference in band when he comes... but then how CM and ACM were not there yesterday.. then ming cong conduct.. whaha i did conduct one piece.. keltic dance.. KNS... I realise a big big difference in conducting guitar and band.. whaha.. there is too many part in band that i couldn't concentrate... whaha..
anyway it was fun.. and it's like we play so many different pieces but glosz still not here yet..
anyway i think glosz was quite upset with the pieces we play... cos he said we did not have sectional at all... well... there it goes... haha tue again..
Define what's sectional? lol..
anyway we have band till 9.15pm... we nv have band till this late before.. like after ming cong finish talking everyone rush out of band room.. wat kind of attitude sia.. whaha.. anyway it's really late la.. every rushing home for rj and all...
band ended late nvm...
we went to eat at the prata shop, eat and stay there to talk till 11.30pm ++.. it's our last time we are going there... hai.. i going to miss it... i going to miss everything..
at the train station.. i scare if i drop at outram i will miss my train... so i rather take to lavender and took bus back.. i was really hoping there will is bus for me to take home cos it was rather late liao.. when i reach the bus stop is ard 12 pm le.. den wait abt 15 mins lo.. at that time i was quite scare la... cos i nv took bus from there so late before.. if it's at orchard i dun mind but some places with uncle and indian workers ard... then i msg someone.. but got no reply from him.. whaha..
actually long ago i suspected that he change his hp no.. but didnt ask la.. hehe.. till today.. : p
quite happy when the bus finally came.. hehe.. reach home faster do rj and talk to someone.. hai... damm sian la.. sickening problem and all.. why all problem cannot be solve... one come after another.. headache leh.. i dun wan to care so much anymore.. jus too tired too tired..
jus doing the admin work alone take up so much energy and problem kept coming... aiyo..
nvm la.. i keep forgeting wat to do la.. too much things to do le.. PX and Stan how did you guys manage!!! kill me pls.. whahaha
anyway this two days my mood very good cos holiday coming... whahaha.. : p
anyway if i change number i also dun bother to tell people.. hehe.. cos i'm jus being lazy. only when people ask then i give. haha... anyway i also change number.. actually not really change la.. jus that i'm lazy to pay my bill.. den accumulated to alot.. den being cancel i think, nv bother to check cos i got another free line which left there nobody use it.. then i take and use lo.. whaha. i not sure abt the number also.. haha i cant remember..
so happy to c you today... you just make my day brighter without even saying a word.
nice hair style.. hehe... going to have a hair cut soon and dye my hair to some reasonable color.. lol..
Yesterday in band...
it wasn't that bad as tue... however there is still problem here and there... hai... why is it so hard to keep a organisation working together peacefully.. anyway i'm glad about the attendance... and glad that GLosz came... he really make a difference in band when he comes... but then how CM and ACM were not there yesterday.. then ming cong conduct.. whaha i did conduct one piece.. keltic dance.. KNS... I realise a big big difference in conducting guitar and band.. whaha.. there is too many part in band that i couldn't concentrate... whaha..
anyway it was fun.. and it's like we play so many different pieces but glosz still not here yet..
anyway i think glosz was quite upset with the pieces we play... cos he said we did not have sectional at all... well... there it goes... haha tue again..
Define what's sectional? lol..
anyway we have band till 9.15pm... we nv have band till this late before.. like after ming cong finish talking everyone rush out of band room.. wat kind of attitude sia.. whaha.. anyway it's really late la.. every rushing home for rj and all...
band ended late nvm...
we went to eat at the prata shop, eat and stay there to talk till 11.30pm ++.. it's our last time we are going there... hai.. i going to miss it... i going to miss everything..
at the train station.. i scare if i drop at outram i will miss my train... so i rather take to lavender and took bus back.. i was really hoping there will is bus for me to take home cos it was rather late liao.. when i reach the bus stop is ard 12 pm le.. den wait abt 15 mins lo.. at that time i was quite scare la... cos i nv took bus from there so late before.. if it's at orchard i dun mind but some places with uncle and indian workers ard... then i msg someone.. but got no reply from him.. whaha..
actually long ago i suspected that he change his hp no.. but didnt ask la.. hehe.. till today.. : p
quite happy when the bus finally came.. hehe.. reach home faster do rj and talk to someone.. hai... damm sian la.. sickening problem and all.. why all problem cannot be solve... one come after another.. headache leh.. i dun wan to care so much anymore.. jus too tired too tired..
jus doing the admin work alone take up so much energy and problem kept coming... aiyo..
nvm la.. i keep forgeting wat to do la.. too much things to do le.. PX and Stan how did you guys manage!!! kill me pls.. whahaha
anyway this two days my mood very good cos holiday coming... whahaha.. : p
Thursday, March 02, 2006
it seems like... in a far distance without a word spoken to each other. we have thoughts that ans each other...
i'm damm bored rite now.. i got nothing to do. i dont feel like doing rj rite now.. everyone not in sch... hai.. coming to sch during the last week is damm bored cos everyone tends to pon classes...
i'm damm scare that later what will happen... i hope it would be better than tue... what if mr glosz see the same number of people coming for band on tue..
wo heng xiang geng ni zai yi qi... ni neng zuo dao ma?
gu shi neng xie chu jue ju ma?
i'm damm bored rite now.. i got nothing to do. i dont feel like doing rj rite now.. everyone not in sch... hai.. coming to sch during the last week is damm bored cos everyone tends to pon classes...
i'm damm scare that later what will happen... i hope it would be better than tue... what if mr glosz see the same number of people coming for band on tue..
wo heng xiang geng ni zai yi qi... ni neng zuo dao ma?
gu shi neng xie chu jue ju ma?
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
i still feel your presence...
我好想你。。。
How I wish I could be by ur side yesterday. I’m feel much better if you were here...
I was thinking if it's possible? 我好想再问你一次 可是，我觉得是不可能. 你会告是我吗？但是， 现在已今每关系了... 我麻木了...
Will we be together again? 我好喜欢你. another chance for us again?
let me pray hard, one day i'll share your burden and you shall share mine...
i will nt act foolish anymore... ru guo..zhe shi zheng de jiu hao.
na wo zi xiang dui ni shou sarang haeyo...
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