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You Belong in Paris

Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris. The art, the fashion, the wine, the men! Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park... You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

What City Do You Belong In?

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is. You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Maybe You Would Pick Your Boyfriend Again... But Maybe Not!

It's a tough call, and that's probably why you are taking this quiz. Things between you and your guy are good, but not great. And with every road bump you hit, you can't help but wonder about other guys. With good reason, there's a pretty high chance that there's a better guy for you somewhere.

Would You Pick Him Again?

Your Reputation Is: Shy Girl

You've done pretty well in keeping your reputation protected.. Problem is, no one really knows who you are!

What's Your Reputation?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

What Your Brown Outfit Means

You're not too classic, not too funky - just up on the latest trends. You know what looks good on you, and you love to shop! You project a smart sense of style, which makes people see you as competent. Designer match: Rebecca Beeson Signature accessory: A slim leather belt

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

You Are a Skin Deep Sweetheart

You may be supermodel gorgeous or a plain Jane. It really doesn't matter, because you're confident and secure. You don't go out looking like a slob, but you are low maintenance. You have better things to worry about than whether your nails are the right shade!

Are You Obsessed With Your Looks?

You are a Mild Mama

You don't have to be screaming at the top of your lungs to have a good time You rather chill, soak in the moment, and appreciate life for what it is Guys appreciate your "take life as it comes" approach... (Though they wouldn't mind if you got a little wild from time to time!)

How Daring Are You?

You Should Be With an Earth Sign!

Your best match is a Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn Why? You like your guys to pamper, wine, and dine you Not that you're a gold digger, you just like the finer things An Earth Sign will go all out to woo you - and enjoy doing it And you'll never find a more trustworthy or loyal match!

What Sign Should You Date?

You Are Furry Boots

They're not just boots. They're your dancing shoes!

What Kind of Boots Are You?

You Were An Angel This Year

You Were 20% Naughty, 80% Nice You know you've been a super good girl this year So good, that you may have missed out a little... Don't worry, Santa will make it up to you!

How Naughty (Or Nice) Were You This Year?

You Should Get an Abstract Tattoo

Artistic and unique You're the most likely type to personally design your tattoo

What Tattoo Should You Get?

You Are a Tomboy

You're having too much fun to bother with nail polish and crazy diets. Guys are instead impressed by how much you know and do!

How Girlie Are You?

Went out with my Best frenz...

wow... jus wake up not long ago.. lol.. abt one.. very very long nv wake up at this time le.. super tired lo...
yest went to meet my old frenz.. whahaha.. den i go his house.. actually he wanted to follow his mum to dunnoe where.. then hor i came at the wrong time.. he nv tell me also la.. then his mum ask him not to follow cos i'm ard... i felt quite bad la.. luckily, his bro came back so his bro accompany her mum lo.. hai..
at his house nothing to do also.. listen to songs.. whahaha.. didnt noe that he lend a soprano sax from his frenz.. whaha anyway i think is a lousy one.. didnt maintain at all, a bit rusty liao.. lol..
haha.. then later at ard 8 ++ meet up with my other best frenz... went serangoon garden de k garden.. hai.. i actually dun like going there.. cos i dun really sing.. whaha.. i jus follow lo... didnt have to spent on transportation also.. cos got people drive.. lol.. guo qiangz you rox man.. but he also very jia lat la.. alway drive people ard.. on the way there i'm already falling aslp cos very nice to slp under the aircon somemore... lol.
at the K garden, they sing i watch lo.. i sing too la but not on mike.. jus follow them sing.. the reason i dun like singing is becos i dun really remember the lyrics and dun noe how to read some of the words.. i can only remember the music.. lol.. slack there drink my snow shake peach.. then i msg my sis ask if she wan to come.. but she finish work at 10. think she took cab there.. we went back ard 12 plus.. luckily is family car if not we got to take cab back le.. so jus nice lo. eight people in the car.. hehe.. reach home then didnt do much thing i went to slp liao..



i'm sorry if i really made you feel that way..

Hum.. i'm not sure if you are talking about me...
anyway... i knew you will nv look back... n i shall not too...
things become clearer to me... i'm learning... it's hard...
becos of my attitude, my character... my life has become like dat.. i dun blame anybody for that... as i believe certain things happen because of something... i can't tell what is it...
for i know if that's my life i shall accept it...

i'm very touch by the words you said even if it's not meant for me...

many people nv turn back in life not excluding me... if i would have turn back thing would have become worse... i'm happy that i have gotten rid of the bad.

today...
i learnt many things...
i shall jus let it be... it's best not to do anything sometimes... i still dun noe when and what i should do and what i should not... i'm still learning... the learning is long and never ending.. it tough as well...
i think i should just forget about everything that happen before whether it's in band or personal and try starting anew again... it's best to start everything from stratch, your mind will be fresher and can do thing better...

thanks for the things you mention... actually without you saying so.. i already know what i should do. your words jus make me feel better + making sure the things i'm going to do is right for me... not for you anymore... hehe. thanks for that... : ) big smiles...
not only i will take care of myself, you too...

very tired wor...
too much things to care about.. i think why not jus leave it like dat... the more i do it's just going to be worse...
everything jus goes back to the things i did again... jus wan to forget about it... shouldn't have put so much thoughts for all the things... the more thoughts and feeling i put it jus making everything worse..
am jus a failure rite now.. i can't do anything good...

Finally, manage to get enough of rest...

since thursday nite i didnt have enough slp. slept only at 2am and got to wake up at 7 plus to go sch.. after school went back home, bath, go back sch for the dance nite thing. it didnt turn out as well. not many people were there.. then after that we went to East coast park, as the whole of yr 2 SAS was invited to there, and veron really wan to go.. hehe so we took cab from sch... hum.. we can't find the pit at first...cos we've walk to the last pit of that area.. lol.. and heard from veron that the pit is near mac... however it wasn't really near.. whaha.. then call up someone to check lo..
while.. quite many people were there... haha.. wow i saw janice.. lol.. but she's quiting sch.. hai.. sian diao.. i nv thought i will be meetin her there... anyway nice to c you.. and she asked me something erm.. whaha..
at 11 plus we went back to sch.. my frenz told me they were about to close the registration... however it didnt la.. after we get our bike, push it to annex hall, den we went to bath.. lol.. den went back to the class room to get some slp but we did not... lol.. after staying in class for awhile, we went out of sch... lol.. i can't believe i'm doing such thing... lol.. we went to mobil, den from there we walk to tanglin, then we went to a very cool house... it's really really cool.. i couldn't i seen this in singapore.. it's ain't a normal bangalow.. it look like a small palace.. damm cool... how could someone be so rich??? hai.. he got so many cars... and it doesn't cost a few hundreds thousand. one of each actually cost about a million... and he has 7 of them plus 2 mecz. and 2 harley davison... damm sickening.. haha then we carry on walking to tanglin mall.. from there we sit down and talk after that we went to traders hotel before going back to sch.. lol.. so reach sch ard 3.30am.. wen we went into the class room. there were 2 people slping.. haha. cos we didnt expect people to be inside as we left it's only two of us there, the rest stayed outside of the room. i went to switch on the light... cos really dark ma.. then both of them wake up.. lol.. anyway.. we manage to get 1 hr plus of slp in not a very good position.. lol.. wake up brush teeth... den went down to collect our bike.. actually i noe very well that i might not be able to make it.. as i could no longer drink any water... lol.. haha it really a good experience.. anyway.. actually i manage to ride all the way through.. but then they ask mi whether if i wan to take the bus.. then i say anything la.. cos i dun noe what happen ma.. they tot i'm the last one but i'm not.. whaha it jus that i'm the last of the faster and the first of the slower.. in between there is not one in front of me and none behind me.. seem like i'm the only one.. whahah.. so waited for the bus to come lo.. den i didnt feel good at all.. anyway i felt better taking some rest... at ngee ann poly... i think.. so continue to ride to the incinerator there lo.. the slope it really killing... now i'm really the last.. whaha... i'm lazy liao.. actually there were people behind me.. but i'm lazy to ride so i walk up lo.. they were on the bike early then me.. i didnt noe we going to reach soon if i noe i would have move onto the bike earlier.. so pai seh..
so we took a rest at the incinerator there.. took our breakfast.. then we move on to RP campus at 9.10am.. hehe.. super fun... this time i'm in the center again.. lol..
i'll cont after my work.. going to bath then go to work.. hope i wont be late.. hehe...
Back.. i tot is going to four le.. but it's not i'm looking at the wrong time.. it's onli 2.50 i tot is 3.50.. hai...
so i think ard 930 we reach the sch... hehe the president and lee sian long were waiting for us to arrive wor.. cool rite.. whaha

then veron and me walk around and play ard in sch lo.. quite alot of activity la.. hehe.. den we did the hanna.. lol..
so happy to c u there..
rite now i'm afraid..
hope she's not the one you like.. anyway if it is rite.. den wish you guy erm.. happy together lo.. : )

hum.. u change no nv tell me.. whahaha.. so sad. felt so stupid la.. keep msgin ur old number... bleh...

anyway if i change number i also dun bother to tell people.. hehe.. cos i'm jus being lazy. only when people ask then i give. haha... anyway i also change number.. actually not really change la.. jus that i'm lazy to pay my bill.. den accumulated to alot.. den being cancel i think, nv bother to check cos i got another free line which left there nobody use it.. then i take and use lo.. whaha. i not sure abt the number also.. haha i cant remember..

so happy to c you today... you just make my day brighter without even saying a word.
nice hair style.. hehe... going to have a hair cut soon and dye my hair to some reasonable color.. lol..


Yesterday in band...
it wasn't that bad as tue... however there is still problem here and there... hai... why is it so hard to keep a organisation working together peacefully.. anyway i'm glad about the attendance... and glad that GLosz came... he really make a difference in band when he comes... but then how CM and ACM were not there yesterday.. then ming cong conduct.. whaha i did conduct one piece.. keltic dance.. KNS... I realise a big big difference in conducting guitar and band.. whaha.. there is too many part in band that i couldn't concentrate... whaha..
anyway it was fun.. and it's like we play so many different pieces but glosz still not here yet..
anyway i think glosz was quite upset with the pieces we play... cos he said we did not have sectional at all... well... there it goes... haha tue again..
Define what's sectional? lol..

anyway we have band till 9.15pm... we nv have band till this late before.. like after ming cong finish talking everyone rush out of band room.. wat kind of attitude sia.. whaha.. anyway it's really late la.. every rushing home for rj and all...
band ended late nvm...
we went to eat at the prata shop, eat and stay there to talk till 11.30pm ++.. it's our last time we are going there... hai.. i going to miss it... i going to miss everything..
at the train station.. i scare if i drop at outram i will miss my train... so i rather take to lavender and took bus back.. i was really hoping there will is bus for me to take home cos it was rather late liao.. when i reach the bus stop is ard 12 pm le.. den wait abt 15 mins lo.. at that time i was quite scare la... cos i nv took bus from there so late before.. if it's at orchard i dun mind but some places with uncle and indian workers ard... then i msg someone.. but got no reply from him.. whaha..
actually long ago i suspected that he change his hp no.. but didnt ask la.. hehe.. till today.. : p
quite happy when the bus finally came.. hehe.. reach home faster do rj and talk to someone.. hai... damm sian la.. sickening problem and all.. why all problem cannot be solve... one come after another.. headache leh.. i dun wan to care so much anymore.. jus too tired too tired..
jus doing the admin work alone take up so much energy and problem kept coming... aiyo..
nvm la.. i keep forgeting wat to do la.. too much things to do le.. PX and Stan how did you guys manage!!! kill me pls.. whahaha

anyway this two days my mood very good cos holiday coming... whahaha.. : p

it seems like... in a far distance without a word spoken to each other. we have thoughts that ans each other...

i'm damm bored rite now.. i got nothing to do. i dont feel like doing rj rite now.. everyone not in sch... hai.. coming to sch during the last week is damm bored cos everyone tends to pon classes...

i'm damm scare that later what will happen... i hope it would be better than tue... what if mr glosz see the same number of people coming for band on tue..






wo heng xiang geng ni zai yi qi... ni neng zuo dao ma?
gu shi neng xie chu jue ju ma?

i still feel your presence...

我好想你。。。
How I wish I could be by ur side yesterday. I’m feel much better if you were here...
I was thinking if it's possible? 我好想再问你一次 可是，我觉得是不可能. 你会告是我吗？但是， 现在已今每关系了... 我麻木了...

Will we be together again? 我好喜欢你. another chance for us again?

let me pray hard, one day i'll share your burden and you shall share mine...

i will nt act foolish anymore... ru guo..zhe shi zheng de jiu hao.

na wo zi xiang dui ni shou sarang haeyo...

Band today...

Today isn't a very good band day... damm sian... my day was quite good and all. then come to band i super sian.. becos everyone tell me this person not coming that person not coming... hai... it really affect me alot. having listening to all the reason, i'm sick of it le... i couldn't be bother with the reason anymore, cos everyone has their reason. and i think about half the band members didn't come for band because their frenz or one of the members in the section didn't come.. I can name who were there... i think the people there add up to ard 15 or less. more than half of the band didnt come how to carry on with practise.
decided to sent a msg. i got some unhappy reply... everyone is unhappy with each other... if you guys would have come to band would there be so much problem. will everyone be unhappy, will i be sending out message and agitate you guys? i think is very unfair to those who came and couldn't do anything... becos many were not there... the number of people here today was jus like those people who came to band on friday.. how would i be able to control my feeling any longer... i know i'm harsh and all... to think about it. i guess i should. i'm really upset abt those reply i got. couldn't believe that i actually cried... i really had a headache after all the message bombing at me. at that time i really couldn't take it anymore.. i couldn't take the stress.
all the way from after those message sent to me to where we walk to the prata shop, the pain is killing me in my head, however i feel much better after talking at the prata shop.
Thanks for all the comfort the people at prata shop gave to me...
would anyone tot about how i feel?
Seriosly, has anyone really devoted to band.maybe some of you are but not all.
well i should have predicted lot of people not coming? would i be? maybe i do but is more than half of the band members, would i be able to take it? i've so many people telling me different reasons, how can i remember, how can i tell which is real and which is not? how am i suppose to understand each and every one problem. I'm not a god. i'm jus some human being with feelings. a leader with hopes on members, who thinks people will come. one of you nv come really makes alot of differences, you think i dont know. i jus dont show it. i guess i have put too much feelin in band.. perhap the feeling i put into were too much which causes me to sent a message without much thinking what will happen. do i have to think every time i do something. i'm seriously tired about all the thinking.. why should i alway think before i said something, and people can just say anything without much thinking. alway mans make mistake, can't mistake be forgiven? i dun wan to think anymore... hasn't i think enough. think of chalet, think of games, think of food, think of events.. and so on... so much so much for me to think... i dun wan to say anymore...


Okay let me talk abt my class today... hehe.. i came to sch at 930am... den... erm.. do research.. till 1030am.. then had lunch with fac at wheelock place fish and co... i didnt ate much. jus ate tiramisu.. but doesnt taste nice at all... actually suppose to have 3rd meetin at 1230. but some news came abt saying some head are going ard to check if the facilitators release the class early.. so we got to have our 3rd meeting at 2 lo.. so at ard 1pm we leave the class to have our lunch.. return back to class at 2 plus.. with the fac.. whahah... so when the fac enter the class straight away 6th p liao.. after 6th p i went to toilet right away.. had diarrhea.. think must be becos of the milk i drank in the morning... the last time i drank milk also like dat.. it wasn't so bad till recently... last time i used to have HL milk in the morning but nothing happen.. mayb too long nv drink liao.. lol..


Day started good but ended badly... i'm still upset..

elaine and me de pic... :p

boring day.... hai.. dunnoe find what pathway mapping.. KNS.. i dunnoe what i doing also.. hard to find it online.. damm boring.. whahha.. anyway i didnt regret it la.. jus slack lo... later got band...
Hum.. yest i come to sch quite sad la.. cos the person i wan to see nv come sch.. den i sian 1/2 liao... anyway we ended sch at 12 plus.. so i reach home at 1... hehe quite happy la.. come sch for awhile onli.. from 10 plus to 12.. go home watch my corpse bride.. quite sad lo.. i tot that guy will be together with the corpse bride then the ending like erm.. not nice de.. whaha..
first rite.. that guy 'Victor' was getting married with 'Victoria'.. dunnoe why the name like dat.. whaha. but at the wedding day itself.. Victor couldn't memorise his speech.. so the wedding was cancel.. the wedding doesn't goes on smoothly... so victor went to some places no idea where was it.. cos that movie i had wasn't really clear. seem like i'm watching black and white movie.. whhahah.. then he recite his speech there... as he recite, he act out the scenario that going to happen that day.. so there is one part where he was suppose to take out his ring and put it on the bride hand... and he did that. he tot that corpse bride hand was suppose to be a tree branch or something.. then blah blah... in the end.. the corpse bride left cos she say Victor wasn't suppose to be with her. the bride should be Victoria... so Victoria came in... after dat the corpse bride became many butterfly.. KNS... i hate this kind of show... whhaha.. at first they was suppose to be together.. then many conflict come in and in the end they are still together.. hai..

after watching i went to slp till seven eight like dat... den do RJ.. den play maple till 12 plus... whahha.. then one plus slp le..

tis cute little girl

while i was walking home, my usual journey from train station to my home. lazy to climb stair so walk on the opposite pathway which i can take lift. hehe

after walking about five minutes which is after a long pathment of one block.
i heard footstep running.. hehe.. a cute little run to my side slightly infront of me.. hehe. she turn and smile to me.. then she continue walking at the same speed with me... after awhile she ask me 'where i live?' i was like am i suppose to start talking first. she is so brave... talk to someone who she don't even know. so i started talking to her lo.. she's so kawai ne... she even told me where she live. den we chat chat chat lo.. until where i suppose to cross the road of the carpark then she stop. hehe she wanted to wait for her mum.. but when we turn back rite we couldn't see her mum. hehe she was walking outside the pathway... i wait awhile then i go le.. hehe.. after awhile i hear her shouting 'jie jie' in hokkien.. so cute... she was like quite far away from me when she call me. hehe i wave to her..
i like noisy, naughty, playful kids. cos i'm just the opposite.. whaha.. i like boys better because they are more cute.. but this girl is so cute that i like her so much more than boys.. hehe..
however i hated those naughty boys at borders.. they are so terrible, anyhow throw books and run away... i even seen torn book before lo.. i wondering how could their mother not care about them and left them here...

ok...
let me talk abt my day today ba.. lol..
today i woke up late purposely.. whaha.. i very lazy to wake up la.. actually can reach sch on time de la... jus dun wan to wake up nia.. then.. i reach sch ard 10.45am. when i board the train at outram park i saw Terrence, haha.. wanted to walk to school at first. but i'm really lazy la.. so i ask if wan to share cab ma lo... lol
today is super slack day la.. i jus reach the class then Nacha come le, for second meeting. then i didnt talk much la cos i dun noe anything yet ma.. jus noe today is abt probiotic. lol. so after she came to discuss with us. i do some research, for like till 11.30 or wat can't remember. i finish my work liao... hehe then elaine and ying ying come to class. went down together to have lunch. then watch the RP Idol.. i was supporting Hafiz.. he's cool man.. whaha.. but so sad he chose the wrong song to sing.. however it's nice. hehe.. if only he can support his low voice.. maybe he will get a chance to be first instead of second. i was cheering for him till my throat dries up.. lol.. stay till 12.45 like dat. i went back to class cos 3rd meeting at 1pm. but nacha not here at 1 yet.. then slack ard arrange our ppt nicely... we are the second team to present.. so our 3rd meeting end at 2.30 like dat. before that i ask elaine and ying ying to wait for me. then she said they will wait for us at audio room. i don't know where is that.. first thing that came to my mind was the library second floor where we can watch movies and play games there. i went up there but see no one... went up and down to search for them.. call elaine and ying ying a few times but nv pick up my call.. haha cos they already left sch in the bus le.. whaha... then i meet them at orchard lo.. ying ying leaving us without shopping with us.. haha.. so elaine and me go shopping lo... dun intend to buy any thing de lor.. end up buying one long sleeve T-shirt and elaine bought two long sleeves t-shirt. after shopping i went back to band.. but do nothing there... slacking ard.. actually tot of going guitar.. but i'm seriously lazy... i even lazy to take up my clarinet to play liao.. whahaha.. then stone there for quite sometime before i decide to take out my laptop to do RJ. was about 7pm when i on my lappy. do rj listen song. supposedly daniel was to help shee rui take out the tuba to play, then shee rui went to wash mouth piece daniel start playing willie tuba liao.. then shee rui come back cannot play tuba, so she played euphonium instead. they all very funny la... today is slack slack one, we stay till like 8.30 they still dun wan to pack up.. usual practise we left before 8.30 lo.. then went to eat prata at the same place.. reach home my dad cook for me to eat again.. now still eating.. aiyo.. eat so much..

i was thinking....... bleh..

slppy.. tml still need to wake up early.. got work.. hai.. sian...

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what an encounter!

while today everything look fine...
from my work to home...
and then..
from home to library something happen... i'm so scare la... for being approach by a guy, who isn't singaporean, and who isn't anyone white... i din't noe i was being followed by someone... it's a very scary experience. luckily it's not somewhere wu lu where no people is around...
he's a black american guy, wanted to be friend with me.. i'm wondering why... do i look like those girl that black guys like? it's not the first time i encounter this..
it's really scary that you just left your house like five minutes, and someone follow you from the road across your house to the bus stop... then near the bridge... he ask me something which i pretend that i didn't hear anything.. after that he tried again.. asking if i'm in a hurry, of cos i said yes la.. he's very annoying... they so open with thick skin... and he said something 'do singaporean don't like making friends...' i think they are scare.. lol... trying numerous time to answer him something that will make him stop asking question.. but he doesn't stop.. and now he ask mi for my number which i didnt give.. and he's like.. wanted me to give la.. he said " is either you give me your number or i follow you to the library". i was like WTH.. and i said NO of cos.. i told him that i don't wan to give you my number and dun wan you to follow me.. erm.. it kind of like a long discussion.. finally.. he said.. can i give you my number.. i said can la... take his number only ma.. then blah blah blah... then he was saying.. do u noe that i follow you from from somewhere to here just becos of you... i said really? i don't noe.. sorry abt it.. then i walk off le..
gosh... i'm alway scare of black guy i don't why.. they look more scarier than anyone else.. and so unlucky that it's alway the black guy who approach me... then at the bus stop the bus came just in time.. and i saw him crossing back the bridge..

at the library.. i tot i couldn't find any book.. and i was so shock that i didn't see the book i wanted on shelf.. becos the library got so many differect section with the same number... i was like why they make it this way so confusing... haha then i went to the info counter ask the lady where i can find this book la.. i was pointing to the other direction when she ask where i find the book. den she told me is at the other side... so i went over to the other side.. saw the same number but still cannot find the book... kind of upset... so i walk ard.. then i'm so lucky that i jus happen to see a book on herbs lying at the side of the shelf. i wonder maybe the book is here, checking on the shelf number again... i was so happy that i actually find that shelf by luck.. whahah. at first i chose to ignore it, then i think aiya go take a look la... lucky i didnt ignore it.
so that tell me something that i'm right.
Ignorance shouldn't be the word in me... whahaha.

hum... not sure why wor.. i'll still think of you.. but then i don't feel anything for u le.. it doesn't matter anyway... if one day you were to come back, i will still accept ba.. cos i'm a very yi xin yi yi de ren(got this chi yu ma haha, should be chuan yi rite)... whahaha.. then at that time i think will erm.. shouldn't tell u... : p must pass ur driving test. not oly tat la. erm.. do good in everything.. yeah!

Let's put an end...

i have no idea whether i'm rite or wrong...
what's the problem here.... it's not anything big... why people can't just be simple and all... why do they have to make such an small thing to something big...

if only i had kept my mouth shut... and if only every kept their mouth shut... hai..

though it might not involve me... well... i simple feel it is really my fault... i'm really upset abt myself. for making things big...

why can't people give way to each other, have u heard of once bitten twice shy. once is enough why do you have to say it the second time... and you dun jus hurt ones' feeling but this time two.

while it might be what you felt, but then again. did you ever reflect about what you have done? you might not be aware who are those you will hurt.
i dun see a different between what the both of you said. at first A said B shouldn't have said those word. after that B noe abt it, to make thing worse this person C said something which A shouldn't even be told. blame on the itchy mouth. then again A said something even worse. dun you think A is the same as B both of them said something that shouldn't be said to the public. while though is in different way, however message can be deliver to the respective person.

now whoes fault is it this time. C feel that it's her fault, if only she kept her mouth shut... nothing worse will come...
Okay.... i think if only each of you give way to each other, and trying not to say words that hurts.. it would be fine rite.. how i wish i can be either one of you so that i will give way.. can i apologise on behalf of both of you.. can you guys drop it, put an end to it.. Let bygones be bygones... can pretend nothing has happen.. further more its quite long le, don't let it drag anymore... i don't wan both of you to be hurt by each other. pls give me peace...

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realise that i didnt blog for very very long time liao.. hehe. busy with stuff or wat, erm.. not too sure...
But is mostly due to my blog has change... lol.. cos i wanted to create my own blog.. but end up deleting it without saving.. wth.. lol. so i'm lazy to do it all over again, must well get blog skin from some other people.. lol.. much more easier..

jus givin myself a break from studying my very last UT of the year.. hehe.. i'm so happy that last UT finally come, and i going to year 3 soon.. i hope to get it over soon..

well.. another thing is that i got a FYP project le.. i'm so happy.. i got it fast enough... nv tot it would be so soon, our grp was still thinking what project to do few weeks ago. then we saw a mail, so went down to library for a briefing, that fac couldn't decided which grp to choose cos too many grp came down that day. so he ask us to sent a email to him saying what we have done about planting before.. so we were all bullshitting, and some copy and paste note from web.. that's how we got it, whahah...

still got exactly 2 weeks, but 7 days of schooling to sch holiday.. looking forward to it.. hehe.

hum.. one more thing, i finally think i get over it liao.. but i'm not too sure yet. :) maybe i got tired of it le.. hehe. or maybe i know what i wan? lol...
Hope you pass ur driving lesson soon. good luck to ya..
the feeling is not that strong but it's still there... there will still be space for ya.

Ya.. just now looking for drink... saw a few pack of milk, so i tot i can overcome the taste of milk already.. then i went to take a slip.. well it's still sucks... i dun understand why some people can take the taste of milk, does it taste really different in the mouth of different people? pondering...

Hum... jus realise that i had been sick for 3 times in 4 months.
not jus normal kind of sickness, first time was very very serious, then the other time was having flu, now having sore throat at first, then flu + cough... have been sick since rp open house second day... till now.. not recover yet... how sia..

I'm Sick le...

Flu... sore throat... it seems getting worse rather then better... hai...

i really can feel how ying2 felt.. haha... she is now over the moon le...

wow.. i feel so happy for u.. after so long, and you finally gets what you want... must treasure ok... good lucks to you guys.
cannot concentrate so much on other side and neglect study ok..

why god alway gave mi surprises that is so unpredictable, and when i'm totally unprepared for it... human nv understand god's thinking...
it's alway when i'd given up my hope upon somethings, i given up my hope becos i had tried hard enough and to no avail, then that something that i hope for, came so sudden that i couldn't believe it and unable to take that shock.

It's good that i actually get part of the things i wan...

Hai...

it hurt me... it nv going to be the same again... once it changes, second, third times and so on will changes forever n ever...


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two person said to me that...

i commit myself too much on other stuff and neglect them, do i really?

i tried to commit myself to every things that i loved, however i need to priortize which one come first, it alway happen like this, so that when it's time for me to choose i can decide fast and wouldn't be that terrible...
In life the most difficult things to learnt is to give up, and learnt to accept it. in which ever aspect of life, giving up comes in very often... hai...
it's not time to give up yet, however i hope no force come into me, i dun like being force, as i will act without thinking...

I saw a book name 'why customer do they thing they do?'. is quite interesting... haha same as why i wan to do the things i do?
i do things with reason(s), rarely i do without reason.
Now, i'm learning to accept what people wants, i won't force anymore. you want to do this rite go ahead then, i wun do things to change ur mind, i tried too hard getting the things i wan, and i end up each time with sadness. Many time i almost tears, especially someone who i have high hope on... tot that they wouldn't upset mi, but in the end, they wan their way still. ok i respect you by giving you wat you wan. jus hoping that, they still respect me by doing at least 1/3 of wat i ask for, i'll be glad.
i understand dat not everyone is alike, and they don't think alike. jus give and takes.
if i wan it the way i wan, and people jus dun agree to it, it either i give in or i do all the things... that's the way... if the things must go like this, and no one willing to work, well i take all the job then, i guess this is wat many people need to learnt... and it's the hardest amoung all.. cos not everyone wans to take everything, usually they just give up...
for me choosing to give up, is my very very last resort. cos i hate failure, regrets, and nv even try it but choose to give up...



i think i should go learnt psychology instead of science haha..

my uncle pass away... jus got a message from my dad..
it's so sudden.. life is so unpredictable... e last time i saw him was like last CNY, dun even noe i saw him or not... hai... maybe even before CNY which was when my grandma pass away... i still remember it well. it's on april fool, jus before i enter my poly... so on every april fool i wun even think of making of fun of others cos it's ain't anything fun to me at all... last year grandma pass away for one yr le.. now three more month and it's going to be 2 yrs le.. life pass so fast i dun even remember it's one or two yr le...
as i grow older... i'm more afraid, not afraid of dying but afraid that my relative, grand parents and parents pass away. i dun wan that to happen... hai.. that's how life sucks.. when one by one left u... and eventually u left.. it's an non ending thing...

Feeling bad recently...

hai.. not sure why... haha.. i alway not sure de...
i feel that i'm perfectly normal, but i don't feel good at all...
it just weird that i dun feel like eating since sch start... i have no appetite at all. and it shouldn't happen to me... cos i love food alot... so much that i couldn't control myself not to eat... the only time i felt hungy is during morning when i just reach sch... then for the rest of the day i dun feel hungry at all, maybe i do feel hungry but i got no mood to eat too... hai...
am i under stress? or am i having depression? (not possible ba)
so far i only eat in sch for the three times (proper meal) inclusive of lunch and dinner... and i dun eat when i reach home lor... actually is ok la.. attended sch for e past three days only.. haha.. jus that one day i onli take one meal.. which is not very normal...

Have i given up everything and just wan to focus on study and band... if it is.. it's very serious...
is just equivalent to i'm crazy le...
what i know now is that my mind is very clear now... i noe what i wan to do, and what i should do... could i be focusing so much that i jus forgot about every other things...

Working at borders

Working on the first day of the year...

while... was quite slack in the morning... the crowd started coming in the afternoon and people keep coming in, queuing non stop, line getting longer...

at a point of time when there wasn't any queue...
a customer came in... telling mi a boy lost his mum... asked if i can help the boy... of cos i have to... i went over.. the boy kept crying and crying...
i asked what's his mum name... he cried.. trying again asking his name... again he cried.. i not sure wat to do lor... hahaha... feel very sad for him... the way he cried made mi wanted to cry to... luckily his maid saw him... so i dun really have to anything... hehe...

wonder wat will happen when i have children... the kid will alway cry de... haha... by that time, there will be someone to take care of kid in times like this ba.. lol... : p so let him take care ba...

went to esplanade...

wanted to meet sherline and ming cong at esplanade there de... i went there after my work abt 10 plus... they were working till 1 am lor... anyway i went to find sherline.. but i couldn't find her... and very hard to reach her also.. hehe

as i walk on.. i'm feeling hungry.. and hungry, and very hungry.. so went to find food.. after i got my food le.. i try to call her again but cannot le.. cos i think got network prob.. however manage to get ming cong.. haha he was stuck at esplanade also.. while i was stuck beside a traffic light.. didnt wan to move cos either way there were too much people... the position where i was waiting for the fireworks was just nice (it's a nice spot to rest, not to catch a fireworks)... haha when it started... i could only c like half of the entire fireworks.. am happy enough la.. couldn't be bother to move around also.. too tired le.. haha

after it finished.. i was thinking whether i should move or stay there.. not sure why i just sat there for quite sometime that i decided to move.. at first tot of taking bac home.. anyway i wasn't thinking when i started walking... all i could care abt is get to the mrt and decide later... hahah.. while it wasn't that bad.. still got more then enough space for mi to stand... haha anyway it is only a few stops... hehe...

anybody i saw... yep... my fren's bro.. haha.. that's it.. haha.. so tired.. going to get a quick bath and go slp le.. later working in the morning. got to wake up at 6 30 like dat.. haha

Happy New Year...

my new year resolution...
last few nights i think of alot.. but now i all forgot le.. haha...

tuesday working...

saw a little boy playing with the floor stack of books... he's so cute and innocent... hehe... he was removing the some books from the floor stack, i went to him...
" what ya doing boy?" smiling to him la... haha. for that moment he was kind of stun i think.. i shock him.. hahaha... anyway i put back those books that he put on the floor back.. then left the last book he put it back himself.. haha.. then after that he went to tell his dad that he put back the book... haha cute sia... he very chubby lor... hehehe

to my beloved......

family problems.. who doesn't have it...
the reason i study may not be for myself.. i jus like the feeling of being in sch... frankly speaking, i'm very lazy when comes to study... trying hard not to let the laziness take over mi...

i really believe in fate (not faith)... who ever we are, what ever we can do is not within our control... God has already lay the path for us, we can choose another road. it may not be as good. for this moment, jus do what ever we want, as long as we are able to. we can choose the bad or good path... good path required lots of work and effort, while bad one will be easier... however, choosing the wrong path.. you won't be any happier... it may not be the one you wan...
what ever it is... if you think is better this way then you should go ahead...
i would say try not to give up on anything till the last moment when you really cannot take it, then come to think abt it again.. it won't be too late...
dun worry about anything, tml will comes its way.... tml will be a better day perhap...

had fun today... thanks to my dearest president, QM and this gal clarinet section rep... hahaha...
it's sherline first time went into pub and drink alcohol i think... underage leh... still can go in whahah...
i've been wanting to get a drink for myself lately... finally i got it... though wasn't strong, while it's alright... hahah... ming cong treat us leh... so nice of u... haha...
sherline and my face were so red... haha though it's like sherline first time and it isn't my first time... jus will go red regardless of how much i drank... mine was like a little redder then her.. whahah...
after drink went to nydc to eat.. hehe..
overall we enjoy ourself.. oh ya before that... i was working in the morning till 2... then went to glosz house after that... rpws comm was already there... haha...bought ice cream for them... 50 cents hehe... then i bought daniel a present cos i tot it suits him well... want to get everybodys one present jus that got to wait cos dunnoe wat to buy yet... hehe... ur turn will come...


yeah... anyone wan to sponsor mi hair cut... at 25 bucks.. whahaha...

a very sweet, nice, and cute clip... enjoy urself

http://www.tongcom.co.kr/dingani_13.htm

i'm very happy recently... not sure why things jus came smoothly as i wan to...
sometimes when i jus tot of a things, or jus thinking if it would happen, i tot it wouldn't happen... but when i look straight, it was there without further thoughts...

i not sure how i going to do it for my study... each time i think i very scare i could not graduate with diploma... i hope god would help me in this area, which i'm really weak in... i jus not used to studying so hard, i couldn't take so much stress, i will cry...
i very scare but i dunnoe how to start...
sometime i really feel like quiting my work... i couldn't take it... but i really got no choice... i jus wan to concentrate on study for now... but how? with my work requiring mi to work at least 20 hrs a week.... hai... worrying abt so much stuff in life is so tiring...
crying in my heart
i'm not as strong as i used to when i jus came to RP...



especially these few days... have been alway waiting to c him... tot that i would nv get to c him this holiday... hum... keep seeing him these days after he's back... 3 times in a row (in 2 days)... couldn't believe it also...
in market, walk pass each other in train station (he was just next to me and he didn't see mi, :( sob sob..), at the bus stop (took the same bus too)

few days back still thinking if i will see him outside... as i tot, i will only be able to c him in sch...
not sure y heaven is making mi happy... i guess i'm crazy... really miss him... how would i able to let it go...
anyway... whether if i'm with him or not... i will be jus glad ... for that past memories that this guy had given mi... thanks ya...
for that, this guys has given mi a chance that i will nv forgets, i would say that he's the nicest boyfriend i ever have ( i'm so touched)
wish you good luck, and all the best...
the door will alway be open for you...
currently we (everyone) should focus on our goals first ba (study, hehe)... it's not the time to be involve in relationship yet... it takes time and patient for each other...

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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some are true... lol... some dunnoe, some not at all...

You Should Get a PhD in Science (like chemistry, math, or engineering)

You're both smart and innovative when it comes to ideas. Maybe you'll find a cure for cancer - or develop the latest underground drug.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

You Should Learn Japanese

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture. From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

What Language Should You Learn?

Your Birthdate: October 25

You excel at anything difficult or high tech. In other words, you're a total (brilliant) geek. It's difficult for you to find people worth spending time with. Which is probably why you'll take over the world with your evil robots! Your strength: Your unfailing logic Your weakness: Loving machines more than people Your power color: Tan Your power symbol: Pi Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

woke up at 11 plus today... then went back to sleep again.. cos still early for the concert.. hehe then wake up at one thirty.. actually tot of staying at home dun wan to go concert one... haha... but anyway jus go lor.. since at home got nothing to do also. that daniel even worse woke up at 2pm when our concert is abt 1 hr away.. super li hai... and sherline told mi that... she went to his house to press the door bell, call his house and his phone... no one ans... whahaha... daniel pei fu ni... hahaha... ya.. so i tot i can do my thing slowly lor... suppose to meet at 2.30pm.. everyone was late... when i reach there tot that someone already there, i was shocked when i reached and tot i ended up in the wrong place... no one was there yet... started to panick... whaha.. jus called whoever that i knew they r coming... got to know that everyone going to be late.. so jus wait there lor...
the concert was quite boring at first... dun really know how to appreciate classical music... sherline was slping half way through the concert... the last few pieces were very nice... actually we go to the concert becos of sherline lor.. whahaha... at first all of us say dun wan to go de.. hehe..but we are there already so must as well lor.. after concert went to marina square wanted to have carl's juniors... after some decision went to cafe cartel.. hehe... then go to willie's work place to have some ice cream and drinks... hehe.. after that go city link buy sherline's frenz's stuff... then go home...
at first tot of going home... then when i reach outram park going towards NEL.. then i remember i haven't meet up with my old frenz very long le.. so call Bing wei up... hehe... he's at commenwelth (watever the spelling)... jus abt to go home... hum.. at first wanted to go there meet him.. then he said the car dunnoe can take so many people or not.. watever it is end up meeting him at commenwelth mrt... his dad drive and fetch us to his place there (my old house)... whahaha... hum... bing wei's bro sounded like someone... hehe... hum... then talk talk talk to him at playground till abt 12 when i was abt to go home... but i need to go toilet first... haha then when we want to go take cab rite saw siew li... then talk to her till 12.45am like dat then go home.. hahah... hum.. that's all for the day...

guys pls stop approaching mi... or crossing over the line of friendship... it never happens... try again! and there you goes... BYE...
i'm not going to treat anyone nice... want to know wat i will do? try it then...

so much to learnt in life...

In life...
Sometimes i got it... sometimes i dun... got to depends... only till i see it then will i understood... must it alway happens this way? wouldn't it be a little too late? sometimes... it's better to prevent it then let it happen. take a step back then... walk the other way instead... only then you wouldn't get yourself or other hurt...
anyway... i would rather let it happen, then to leave mi guessing all the way...
should i cont'? or take another path... i guess i wouldn't choose to take another path, i shall cont' till i see an exit rite? giving up isn't the rite way...

every door that i exit, i enter another door...

Super tired.

today very suai lor... super sian.. not my day... everything jus happened wrongly... firstly... wasn't suppose to take cab to sch in the morning.. cos promise myself, not to take cab anymore, realise i spent to much on cab... but today i really got no choice.. i estimated the wrong time... though is jus nice.. but becos of my status got to come early... hai... anyway i took cab from red hill to school so wasn't that bad... then saw jy, aisha and hui ling, so ask them to pop in lor... whahah... hum... after band i tot got guitar... super angry... today jus every thing screw up... tot that got guitar so went to eat quite fast and all so that i won't be that late for guitar... but end up realising that it start at 4pm wasted all my effort...
aisha asked 'am i still in the guitar com.. i was wondering too... wasn't the com suppose to know everything... and yet i know none... while partly it's my fault, however... people should sent out email to the rest of the members, and should make sure everyone's know there's prac isn't it? even some of the members dun know also... well... sometime i think i should involve but sometimes i think i shouldn't cos everyone's not doing their job, so why should i? further more, i'm less frequent these days... though i have the right, but how will people feel? i dun noe... jus let it be lor... i can forsee the future... i dun wan that to happen. problem is that... it's doesn't take 1 to move everything, it takes all... without the help of each other, and without anyone moving, there won't be movement. it'll jus stay on like this and eventually fade off...
ok.. enough of comment...
well next... my job... actually i dun wan to go work today... however.. i still force myself to go cos i dun wan to waste money to take MC... when i reach there... i went to check my schedule of the day... my name doesn't seem to appear there... hum.. i was wondering... i was kind of happy at first... hai.. but hor... i jus wan to confirm... so went to check with the manager... in the end they wan mi to work... so sian... hai... i was so happy lor tot i can go home rest or wat... hai...
it's a long and tiring day... and i was doing shelving all the way from the time i started working till end... and the books alot lor.. crazy people.. angry with customer.. haha.. why can't they jus put back the books.. and sometime it's jus put it back only lor... it's not that you have to walk... then i saw Lian Siong... think he was buying books or CDs.. then i asked him why not ask mi to buy for him.. got discount.. hehe.. then he said next time lor... whahaha
that's all for the day...

Do ur best girl...

yesterday i took cab to sch... the uncle talk to mi from my home to the sch... like talking to my close frenz... the uncle very nice... he asked mi how long more to finish the poly... it's abt 1 and a 1/2 yr more, he told me since i still have so long to go... why not work less and study more.. and i think it's true, better then you earn now but end up paying more in future... he said that student needs encouragement, but i'm really happy that someone actually motivates mi... really very touch.. haha... but recently i still haven stablise myself, i could hardly find time to study.. anyway.. i decided abt my time table when sch reopen.. so i would find time to study for all the modules... i guess this time i must really do it.. but i very scare there's more things coming in... my study has been declining... i nv study for ut nv attend for ut.. and all... rite now going to rest to the fullness, play to the max, and study like crazy... that's how life suppose to be rite? hum... but i need support... i would break down once i reach the climax, i need encouragement..

In deep shit...

gotten myself into this shit... where i wasn't suppose to be in... No idea how to get myself out of this... for as far as i know, i didn't want to do anything abt it.. i hope it jus remain like this or jut get over it as time pass by...
i dun want to get irritated, i dun want to lose my anger and so on... pls get myself away away from all these...

trip from kl...

i got so much to write but i'm lazy...
it was so fun at KL...
we took train there... train suppose to leave at 2245 but it doesn't, the gate only open at 2230 when we suppose to board... it takes some time to get into the train... first time taking train... quite fun.. the train super jerky, i'm not used to it, so didnt manage to get a good slp in the train... anyway mi elaine and veron were talking till 1 or 2 plus... we are the only people awake and talking in that cabin and it was very quiet...haha...
when we reach there the malaysia train station around 7 plus... was quite lost... we dun noe where our hotel was located, went to search for map, wanted to buy it but in the end jus browse it onli.. felt bad.. but couldn't be bother... whahah... knew that our hotel was located at shah alam (think i spelled correctly) but have little idea abt getting there... so jus went to search for train to reach there... the train station at other places doesn't look like train stop, look more like bus stop... and it's quite slow, slower then car... took quite long to reach from one station to another. inside the train was wet, no idea why, couldn't be the rain rite... maybe they didn't dry it after they washed it and jus let the customer board the train.. then we can't put our bag on the floor, i put it on my leg though i knew it's a little dirty... managed to reach the hotel by cab after we reached the station... it's 6RM to the hotel... check it blah blah blah... at that time it's around 9 plus or 10...
was sick on the first day, due to not enough slp... it's damm irritating... keep sneezing.... had secret recipe in the morning... then went to shop for drink and snack for our stay in hotel so that we get something to eat during the night... went to KLCC and lot 10(i guess, haha forgot le..), transportation by the hotel bus to there at around 1530... then ate at a jap resturant at roughly 7pm... super cool.. super nice... i really like jap food... i guess we can hardly get such an nice jap food in singapore with such an reasoable price... guess that the only place we can get is at those high class resturant... the whole meal was around 20 plus RM... so cheap rite... then after dinner went back to KLCC shop awhile then go back to hotel le, so left that at 9pm... i bought something at lot 10... but not for myself.. hehe...
next day went to sunway... wow... that's cool... first we had the roller coster thing... call wat? 'lost gold ...' something one la.. then went to wet park... wet park was fun but nothing much too... dry park even worst... haha.. a few thing to play only.. but after awhile everyone's tired le... haha... especially after the 360 degree turn... that one is damm sick... a few round was quite fun but after awhile kind of sick, feeling a bit giddy... not only mi, everyone feeling the same too... so they stop play all the games and rest for quite a long time... then mi, ying2, veron, and her sis went on playin... at first we also kind of sian liao... but after we went to the wild wild west or (wet) watever... hahah... the feeling is back... haha so went to ask the rest of them to play also lor... then all happily go to the wet park again... then play play till abt 5 or 6 la.. i've got the worst sun burn.. haha not sure y.. went to the sunway pyramid, then go eat at A & W... then go home at 9 pm also hehe... standard time for them to fetch us la...
third day... also the day when we leave KL... went to berjaya times square but nothing there... cos we all shop enough le... elaine bought her levi's jean... she so happy lor.. hehehe... then we decided to go to petaling street (chinatown) very fun there... we jus walk anyhow, anywhere... like we are in our own world didnt even bother if we are lost.. however we didnt... whahaha... quite cool there... i really enjoy walking through all these wuloo street... hai... time were kind of tight, got to rush back to the hotel to get our stuff, then rush to sunway pyramid to meet veron cousin... then had dinner then they fetch us back to the train station... arrived in singapore at 8 plus.. reach home at 8 pass 9.. super tired.. then i got to rush to band camp le...
i was having so much fun there... didnt even bother about anything... then the first day arriving the first call i made gave mi headache... called mind cong in the train at abt 8... then he told mi lots of things happen and that the band room was booked... damm irritated.. felt like crying at that point of time... and like going to F*** up that stupid IG who book our room... why made our room open to all... there is a performance hub down there...and there's annex hall there... why can't they used that... didnt they used their brain... F*** them upside down man...
anyway band camp was super fun super touching...but i wan to slp le.. next time then type... heheh.. good nite dear frenz.. love ya guys..

going KL...

i'm going KL in a few hrs time... oh yeah.. lol... going to take train there... it's abt 8 hrs.. so going to slp all the way there... hum... after dat.. dunnoe how liao... hehe.. update again...

i'm sorry...

i didn't realise it... i cried out when i read it... though i noe you might have none, and i still ask from u...
for the sake of myself... i didn't realise i'm so selfish... i knew i was.. but i jus wanted to enjoy myself for awhile... i didn't know you were having hard time...
i didn't know what the hell i did... i kept quiet when you shouted at me i was upset too... after that... you msg mi, i was touched by the things you did... sorry for my wildness... appreciate what you done... in times we need to help each other out...
come to all this, i'm not good at all... i don't know how to do it... i'm very bad at it...

Suddenly i lost myself...

I seriously lost myself...
not sure how to bring myself back together again... too tired to do anything... i haven been in sch for 2 days... sound like humpty dumpy... hehe... but seriously... i feel like i have broken into pieces... all the things i wan to do i couldnt finish... i really hated the feeling... when i couldn't find the things, and couldn't finish it when actually i can... i feel like i got sort of attitude problem... i couldn't let go of anything... i scare once i let it go i can nv bring it back again, and i won't have the energy to bring it back... that's why keep reminding about it in my mind... perhaps that's why i feel stress... that's why and so on...
feel like running out... catching up with someone... running in the rain... hope the rain can help me wash off all the useless and unhelpful things, hope that it can clear my mind, hope that it can lighten my load... and hope that... so much so much...
god help me pls...
i do love god, i do love everyone, i nv blame on anyone though is their mistake. maybe sometimes i blame.. but is temporary... i dun meant it... i may be striaght forward, i meant it though, but once it's over means it's over, jus dun do it again... i'm alright... everyone makes mistake including mi... noe your mistake and be done with it... why need to hold on to it for too long... making others feel bad? treating each others like enemies? m i sensitive? too much of emotion carrying out in my heart... how can i let go? can someone help me with it...
really feel like crying... m really scared... i'm not strong as i used to be... rest is wat i needed most i think... but i couldnt spent so much time on resting, i won't be able to catch up with the things that left it there for mi to finish.... how...
Battle with myself... i lost to myself... need time to recover...

i felt so stress, felt useless, upset, inferior, etc... so much things i'm not satisfied with myself.
I needed someone to talk to me, it can't be anyone.
needed for mi to rely on. felt that i couldn't hold on to so much stuff. needed someone to shared my workload with mi... of cos it can't be one way...

i'm so tired i want to rest... who will i be able to rest on... who can make mi feel safe...

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i Felt hurt...

hurt by something which i had long forgotten.. eventually i didnt... jus happen that.. i was so busy with stuff... that i didnt even have time to recall... while i think is not... i dunnoe... too many stuff coming in... and too many stuff going out of me... i jus dun noe what to accept and what to give up... end up giving up and taking in the wrong stuff.
Busy till i lost concentration... i forgot how to concentration on one stuff.. i dunnoe how to put my mind clear of other stuff...

now telling myself... jus let go of everything... take up a things only after each time i complete the other. take a step back when i loss myself... control my mind dun let my mind control me... last of all relax...
can't do fast enough... while... do the more important, and easiest one first... eventually things will get easier and lighter...
the only thing i noe, jus be patient enough... everything can be done..

Dedicate to All Wind Sym members...

Wooooow..... Performances finally over.... Great Job guys... can hear us on tv... not bad ar!
Thanks to all the people who has preserved till now... who has makes us sound like one, without one, we might not be able to make it. Yeah? haha. love u guys... You guys really done very well compare to the rest of the performances, this time is real great. can ya feel it? we have onli been together for a short term, roughly going to nine months. and we did it once again... Let's do it One More Time! Yeah!... hehe... so dun have time for you all to relax ar... band camp coming next... COMM!!! need to prepared for it le... Jia You! Believe in urself...

Performance On Sat...

it's killing us... i'm damm tired rite now, onli got abt less then 4 hrs of slp... and couldn't slp well too, becos of the stupid ghost trail thing.... people downstair shouting, and talking, wake mi up at 3 plus... sian... i tot is five le... scare then dun join la... crazy... join to scare yourself... worth it ma... rite now, i'm like half dead... jus reach home onli and finish bathing le... time now is 8:04 pm...
it's only a one day overnight but seem like a three days camp... fri nite, onli a few of us in and room... WHERE DID THE REST GO! we practise and practise till like 8.30pm (it's one day le). start moving all the instrument down. till about 9 plus like dat. then bring our belonging to the tower north level 3, super tired when we reached there, cos carry all the heavy stuff. haha but we got very nice food... like japanese bian dan. then everything settle down le and bathed le, so do wat... RJ la... sickening... almost all the yr 2 and 3 were rushing for RJ in the last 1 and a half hrs. then this and dat... wait for sherline and mabel to bath la.. cos sherline came late. then blah blah blah... till 1 plus then slp. wake up at 5, wash up all these, then pack our things within 45mins... but we took more then tat, then the Manu already reach at 5.45 like dat... the guys got to rush over there... haha then we abit slower la... reached there around 6 lor... then we slack there la, cos the guys doing the moving of instrument up to the truck... the truck left around 6.30am. not sure wat time we left but i think we reach there before 7 or slightly later then 7 cos i dun have watch with mi... guess wat... we haven had our breakfast... lucky yesterday plan to buy bread, jus in case... onli had the breakfast provided for us at 10 plus, close to 11 which is after everything had finish... then got tour around the campus... hai... one of the SA guys damm stupid make a joke which isn't funny at all and said i'm telling a joke... and kind of stupid la, so we was like HA HA HA HA... very loudly... after the tour... took photo here and there... very tired... then take photo till 12 plus la... then moved the instument le... oh ya before that... during the free time.... RPWS eat like mad... haha eat non stop... wonder how big our stomach can stored. the food is nice la.. hahaha... got three different area for the buffet thing... then i think i took more then three times lor... each time at diff area... haha.. cos the food is diff, i like the cheese cake... a very small one... is very nice... ya after all this nonsense stuff, at first in the bus we were quite noisy... but after that nothing to sing and talk le... everybody slp... the bus ride is abt 1 hr... very long lor... but we was so tired that we didnt even care... jus slp till we reach lor..
then move the instrument again lor... and the bus cannot go up to blk A... we got to carry the instrument to block A... sickening... hehe... ming cong went to ask the security to bungy ride us up... hahaha... the bungy stuffed with dunnoe how many instruments lor... i very scare that the bungy can't go up the slope... haha.. but it can lor... not bad ar... then slack in band room... dunnoe doing what stuff la... then aisha, jy, and mi playing with sponge ball.. throwing around... whahhaa... quite stupid la... slack here slack there 3 le so left the band room and mi, jy and aisha went to tiong bahru to eat KFC... hahah eat again... we chit chat till 6 plus lor... i slept in the train... and i didnt noe i missed the stop, missed 2 some more, tot i was still at douby ghaut lor.. then took back the train reach home around 7.30 like dat... so here i am writing all these stuff... cos very long nv write le... so feel like writing before i go slp.. tml need to wake up at 6 plus... got work...
JY jus told mi we were on TV... ya.. got channel news asia, media crops coming to shoot the ministers and all... then i not sure y... some of them went to take photo with minister... i saw them but didnt noe they were talking photo with him.. but i just join in... whahahhaha... :p
Rite now... i looked like panda... black eye very obvious... no need to put make up... hahaha... wan the black effect of eye shadow? and i can barely carry heavy stuff now... overstrain my muscle... can feel the stretch and pain of my shoulder to my hand...

How much things i do recently...

First very important... schooling... studying from 8 to 5 for mon,tue, thur, and fri.

Usually on mon and thur got test... so study on sun and wed...

the rest of the days.. work... wed 8 to 5, sat maybe 8 to 2, sun 8 to 5.

next IGs...
band tue and thur from 5.30 to around 9pm.
Guitar Fri around same time...

Next reading...

Lastly... Games...

Occasionally... performing, planning for Band stuff, doing admin stuff, meetings, think of plan as well as planning for it, and blah blah blah...

so usually sleep at 12 wake up at 6 plus... 6 hrs of slp everyday... no nap... no extra slp... hai...

Not sure how i going to cope... currently... i'm quite worried abt my pp... cos i haven found anyone yet... i dun dare to approach leh... hai... i worried that they reject mi. actually... i noe what to do, i have a brief idea le... but haven write out yet... dun have time... and i have lots of resources to look at... hai... i planning to write lots of stuff... i need guidenance... ai yo... headache... i jus need time to plan out all the things... hai... and i need time to find people... that's the most worring part... not easy lor... all those people are like big people out there who doesn't wan to be interview, and all... so i kind of lower down my expectation... hai...

Boring...

Haven't been so boring and so free till today... i really got nothing to do. today sch was quite easy, then class end early at 2.30 like dat... got meeting at 4.30 so stay in class to do rj till then lor... by the time i just finish my rj lor... but haven submit yet cos i still wan to add something, but then when i reach home jus add 1 or 2 more lines then submit le... haha... so after meeting went to eat at red hill... hum.. eat the same thing i had in sch this morning... ji shi noodle... hahah... didnt realise it till i ate it... hai... crazy mi... after that... i bought bo bo cha cha home.. quite tired... was reading books in the train but fall asleep... then now at home rj submitted le, dunnoe what to do leh, dun feel like watchig tv... but like there's so much things waiting for mi... jus couldn't be bother.. hehe... but i wan to do something.. hahha... maybe go slp is a better idea... whahaha... but slping is like wasting of time... gosh...

Right now... i'm thinking of something... shouldn't think too much... think i going slp... having sligh flu rite now... guess that my slping time kept adjusting recently...

White...

miss it. hoping my dreams comes true soon... i will be very happy, but guess that i cant put so much time on it. but i dun mind. jus hoping a chance will come by, take mi there to my destination. i love that.
something missing in my life which i'm always foreseeing it.
unwilling to give up till i see it.
it takes a sec to take but a millions years to give up. for some reason, i guess... i have never given up anything. hoping to maintain this way.

i going to slp... tml another new day... hoping to c something happening... yeah... nite guys...

Happy today...

hum... ok first... i suppose to meet ying2 at 9.40am at douby ghaut MRT. and i woke up late... at 10 you noe... hahaha... didnt even noe she called mi.. guess that i'm still in my dreams dun feel like waking up, cos it's a nice dream. hoping it to come true... and guess, it wun. so after awhile i realise my phone is ringing, then i wake up suddenly, realising abt the time... haha so quickily call back lor... then i reach there around 11am... wahhah... ya then drag here drag there... go buy things... ya shop around NTUC for dunnoe how long and deciding what to cook and wat to buy... haha... ok.. ended up making brownie, cookies, chocolate fondue with fruits, and milk shake... whahha... still have some cookies and brownies in my bag rite now. that elaine ar.. keep saying wan to go home... haha... so trying ways to stop her from going home... lol... so drag her to stay with us till around six plus lor... then at veron house hor.. she was saying wanted to go wash hair at salon, asking want to go or not. haha... then i wanted to cut hair too... hehe... so after all the nonsense things, wait here wait there, then we left her house. went to toa payoh to cut my hair and she wash her hair.. ying2 sitting there alone reading comics and listening to music.. haha... i got my hair cut in about less then half an hour i think. and veron haven't done with her hair yet... and i have to pay more ex then her... haha like not worth it.. but ok la, jus abt 18 bucks. lots of things to say.. but then... lazy to type...
and ya... on tue rite.. guess who i saw... i dunnoe his name, and he's from the chinese show Vampire 3 (wo he jian shi you ge yue hui 3). wan yuan bupoa... at first i tot is someone else who looks like him... then pei xuan told mi is the who lor... then who lor.. haha... mi and her walk pass him lor.. they were shooting something i think... it was quite a weird place to see him la.. at little india. must be wondering why i was there rite... well... i got nothing to do after work... so call up daniel jus happen that they were working at little india, so i meet up with them... and then work with them too.. haha... their job hor damm bo liao lor... haha.. pei xuan got to walk around surveying people... and through small alley with lots of indian around, and it's so weird to have a chinese appearing in that street. poor her...

Today (31st October 05)

Wow... time past so fast... it's already one month... Our fifth problem le... fast rite... seems like it was last week that sch start but it's not...
Monday...
THink that the lesson on Immunology was quite tough.. but then.. somehow it's relaxing... not sure why.. easy Rj completed it in less then an hour? lol... went to library after school... photocopied notes... find cook books for thur... haha going veron house... cool rite.. whahaha... hum... then left mi and ying2. first elaine left after she has photocopied her stuff... then veron left after she found her cookbook... haha..
so what we do in library... ya.. do RJ!!! hum... we wasted lots of time.. chit chatting, looking for books, photocopying, wat else eat and slack there... and realise that the time was already going 6 when we started to do RJ... haha... so do RJ... and nonsense thing in the library till it closed... after dat went to eat.. haha... went Jurong east.. wat a bo liao day... lol... for ying ying sake.. i went there you noe... she's going JB... and she is meeting her mum at 9.15pm at the custom... and guess wat we left Jurong entertainment at 8.30pm... lol... and she got to rush to Kranji, so i accompanied her by taking the red line... and because of her again... whahha... so went past a stop which makes me think about it. have been thinking recently... missing it badly... sitting in the MRT tell mi that... never look back... dun start there... it goes on... yeah?... hehe... my destination is at the other place (of cos my house, hehehe)... yah... after a stop or a few Ying2 left mi... so took out my book and start reading lor... (american gods by neil gailman) hum... quite a nice book.. yup.. then fall asleep... haha too tired.. then got a old man.. sat beside me... he's quite weird.. dunnoe what he's doing.. he's taking up so much space that left mi with little space for movement... and i'm feeling so uncomfortable, then so irritated that i didnt lie on the chair, just sit half of the seat lor... lucky going off soon... hehe... ya... not much thing when i got home... hehe... tml got work at 8AM... need to wake up at 6 45 like dat.. and i'm waiting for ming cong call... he so late... wan to slp le... lol...

Currently...

Thanks ya guys for supporting me... hehe...
also... thanks those who has greet me... no time to say thanks ya to u guys... hehe... sorry abt it...
So glad that holidays has come... but it's only three days... got lots of things to do. it's not enough... surprisingly that i got the energy to do all those... jus dat i dun have enough time. hum... hehe tue and wed got work.. thur go my frenz house... yeah... we got to enjoy there man... it's a once in a million chance to go to frenz house... not sure y this sem... frenz really meant alot to mi. really enjoy with them. not jus onli frenz la.. my band too... really got to commit myself into it... gosh... Jus hope that i can do it. promise wun let ya guys down... yeah?
Ya... Congrats to all who got into the committee... out of so many we can only choose one. and after that... looking for people to be in the post. guess that it's really cruel, and kind of sensitive thing. hai... felt sorry for those who didnt get the post they wanted to... anyway, ya guys still got years to go. can't do it this year, next year lor... yeah? I'm kind of feeling bad when i c myself doing so little for the band, while for the rest of the band members they really wan to contribute to the band. maybe that's where my motivation comes from. my engine start moving, and it can't be stop rite now... whahha...hai... but lots of thing waiting for mi to do leh...
1st - studies...
2nd - Band
3rd - Frenz
4th - Work
5th - Guitar

Hum... currently... this is how i rank it... whahah. so tired...

hai.... think i got to improve myself next week... kept coming late on fri... last time is on wed now is on fri... and becos of late i got C for 3 times... i'm not sad abt that. i knew i will get it. cos i'm very late. alway reach around 10 plus... hai... how sia... and i would have gotten a better grade then this if it's not for lateness... realise it is not worth it. further more it's not that i did nothing on that day. hum... should change asap...

Next... got everything new... coping with everything new... i love that challange... whahha... but quite tiring leh... hum... first new job, then new sem, new hair, new post, everything new. like complete make over... whahha... i think this sem... really makes a big difference to mi. i feel fresher now, compare to last sem. this sem... though sometime i still dun get it. but it somehow lighten lots of weight from mi. perhaps, it is due to less one module to take care of.

no time to finish... going slp... cont next time...

I'm missing...

Missing my frenz out there... haven been meeting them for such a long time... hoping to c them soon... but dunnoe when...

Missing my instruments, left it in band room... though it jus yesterday since i touch it... we had a really long played... couldn't control my mouth yesterday, it was far beyond my limit, but i'm trying to build up, i dun wan to be in there for three years and learn nothing. I'm happy enough to play there for a year, and though didnt' really learn alot alot, erm... ok la... i also dun noe if i got improve. but i feel that i didn't, onli slightly.

Missing my frenz in band... they really make a diff in my life... they are cool, fun, cute, joker. they made my day end happier.

Missing the sound of band...

And of cos someone out there... whahaha.. a handsome dude...

so sad... there is so many things that i'm missing...

i miss out guitar... erm... i've given up my hope... only when today jennifer conducting, i feel better... i really prefer her to be the instructor. she adjust not just the rythm but the sound too. that's wat instructor should do. and not alway repeating the same thing and care all abt rythum, though it comes first, but we have being playing it for so many times, till i got sick of it. i'm feeling that, there isn't any thing that makes mi stay... people keep saying sian... but they do nothing abt it... making people more sian... i really dun feel like performing, i dun wan to feel failure...

As times goes by i start to forget... and then reminding myself again later in part of my life...
The things you see it, you want it, but you cant have it. that's how sad life is. hum... you can if you work hander for it. guess, most of the things can, but u need to work for it. things doesn't come easily rite? jus that in some part of your life you choose not to have it, cos you dun need it anyway, it's jus the feeling of having it. sometime it makes a difference but at times it don't.

hum... wat i think...

Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship, never

Love, with very young people, is a heartless business. We drink at that age from thirst, or to get drunk; it is only later in life that we occupy ourselves with the individuality of our wine.

Bored... that happens when i'm alone, when i'm thinking, when i'm free, when ...

suddenly... it's back again...

got to know that it'll nv happen.

Funny quote...

The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread.
Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love
Forget love... I'd rather fall in chocolate!
All our knowledge merely helps us to die a more painful death than animals that know nothing
Can you imagine a world without men? No crime and lots of happy fat women
Sometimes I wonder if men and women really suit each other. Perhaps they should live next door and just visit now and then.
The first time you buy a house you see how pretty the paint is and buy it. The second time you look to see if the basement has termites. It's the same with men
Women speak because they wish to speak, whereas a man speaks only when driven to speech by something outside himself - like, for instance, he can't find any clean socks - erm.. is this true???
Sure God created man before woman. But then you always make a rough draft before the final masterpiece
You start out happy that you have no hips or boobs. All of a sudden you get them, and it feels sloppy. Then just when you start liking them, they start drooping
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think
When a man talks dirty to a woman, it's sexual harassment. When a woman talks dirty to a man, it's $3.95 a minute.
A vegetarian is a person who won't eat anything that can have children
Man is the only animal that can remain on friendly terms with the victims he intends to eat until he eats them

Working on sun...

Hey... yesterday i saw a very cute boy... he's really cute... and expressive... whaha... guess what? he bring a book to his mum of who ever i dun noe... then he said. 'i'm scaring you...' and the tone he said it was really cute... then he open the page to his mum and said it again... i was there luffing... but the bad thing is that we have to pick up those book those rascal bring around... and the whole of borders really hate kids section... while maybe i should say kids... whahah... erm... i do to... but when i see them rite... they are really cute, and they make u luff and keep you thinking abt their action... especially hyperactive kids... but sometime you get headache of them... cos they kept running around banging into people, and sometime they fall down, makes mi luff... cos their reaction damm slow.. they get up... then walk a few steps... saw their parent run to them... and wat they do... cry... whahhaha... isn't that funny and try looking into their eyes... it's real funny...and their parents were luffing at them too...

Wind Sym new com coming out

I kind of scare and kind of happy... scare becos of the position i will get, happy becos got new people to help... and hopes they dun gives much problem... hope that i will remain in my position.... i dun mind having this pos... cos quite easy... not much thing... whahha... let's c wat daniel will get? and wat MC will get... hum... not sure MC will come more often if he got a better pos with more responsible? hard to predict...

it doesn't make a diff

Hum... guess that no one really cares... whether you are around or not... it will jus be the same. i'll be there doing my own stuff... learning my own things... think i really kind of give up... wat i wan isn't jus abt playing alone, if that's wat i wan, mus well go yamaha and learn. i have been lowering mself so much so much... time taken was too long... wasted half a year... half a year of my time there's alot i can do. well... there is people who can play well there, there is people hu is willing to teach... admit that i'm kind of unwillingly... cos wat i do? sit there... teach them watch them... wat else? wat i gain... nothing.. at the end of the day.. jus tired (go home slp better, got people to replace mi)...
if people cant clicked well, tat person dies off... even if he tried his best to stay, it doesn't make a point also, cos it doesn't belong to there at first. it jus like north pole animal moving to the equator and staying with the animal there, the end result is dying there. i lost my good frenz there... should go back to where i belong....
hai... went for wind sym meeting today... well lots more intesting and challenging things coming up... i dun understand why the yr three can do so much in wind sym and why not the yr 3 in genre? the people are the same, from the same couse and so on...only 3 of the yr three hanging there and pushing the whole band, i really appreciate them alot alot... i really have no idea... wat will happen next time when the new com takes over? will they be the same as them? for mi i think they really do very well, i guess i couldn't be as good as them but i'm willing to try. and they did a good job, i will feel guilty if i dun. maybe they are e first batch and they went through alot... and the years 2 went through hard time with them too... and those days were memorable... laughter, work, though there is complaing and getting angry with each other... but then, we get over it after we vent out. people leaves and comes... well... i'm happy that i've met them... but it's kind of sad when the people are close to us left... if only all of them stay, that would be great... and i'm really glad that those who are still here stay on... they make us looks like a band at least... Daniel, you really did a great job by maintaning all those instrument in shape.. haha... sad that jy left u alone... Knoe it's hard to maintain both study and band and do well in both. we decide for our own things... if choose to pick up then you have to maintain it, got to learn, and adapt to it. if you want it then organise it... if cannot take it den too bad it's when people leave... we can't blame them too.. it's a personnal things, cant be done by forcing. not sure why i talk about all this but hum... type and type and type... that's how it goes...
maybe last sem it's really tough for mi.. and i kind of able to manage it this sem... though i say i wanted a week break from both the Igs... but i went to band... i dun feel stress, though i feel tired, at least we can c that everyone play their part by learning their own part and makes us sound like band. though some of the pieces still sounded bad... guess we can make it rite... yeah...
yesterday actually dun wan to go for band, i was at the bus stop goin to board the bus, lucky the bus is not 111... whaha... i feel really bad when pei xuan say she's not going... and that's when daniel call mi... lol... in the end headed back to sch... well i didn't regret abt it. cos it's fun there and realise that big event coming out in ws... so perhap next time i wouldn't mention about not going to band... whaha, unless i really really very tired, and no time to study for ut... went to eat with hannah and theodore at mos... had my corn soup and bought a pair of ladies shoe... lol...

World, work and people!!!

Very sian... very sad too... hai... everyone has his own problem... while mi too... and kind of sad things to say abt... nv tell anyone abt this and nv like to mention it also...
What kind of world is this... damm sickening... people out there... wat the hell they thinking... what's wrong with their mind manz... out there to ask for problem... find things for other to do, and harm others... what sort of human is this... still considering yourself human... go and die la... much worse then a animal... at least they dun have any harm to people. fuck up people, fuck up world... full of nonsense and rubbish they can come out with... what goods they get? fuck off... why cant jus do your own work instead... make yourself so troublesome looking troubles for people... this kind of people should go hell manz... why cant they jus do their own work, and dun be bother with wat others thinking, so wat if people are like dat, it's none of ur business to care, and you shouldn't even be bother to find trouble for them. if you dun like that person, do your own stuff den, and get off your ass for each other... wouldn't that be good for both. doing stuff that is diff for people ends up seeing each other more, why can't jus do wat you suppose to do instead. less trouble, dun have to back stabbed each other too. and make each other feel good instead... making fun of other makes you happy... fucked off... you shouldn't be in this world... get off your ass to another... you dun now what you do, may do to others. ends up making sin for yourself. and in the end i will laugh at you... stupid.

so sian... so early reach class.... first time.... having orea cheese cake in class... but sick of it... whhahaha... maybe too early le... only slp for awhile.. hai....slept at 3 plus.. wake up at 6 plus.... feeling abit sick... damm bored... nv been in class so early before... it's like i'm the third person to be in class.

Done with my things at 2.39am...Slp time...Nite.

Sian... tired... jus got back home... after long hrs of guitars... hum... wasn't learning anything from there recently... went to dinner with jon, YZ, wei lun and joanne... while the others went to red hill market to eat... actually was joining them but then... hum... deli dey li... haha.. so was quite far away from them le, must well join jon they all rite? hum.. bitching abt people in club... hu dun like hu, and say wat ever we feel in the club there... hahaha... while... ok la... lucky finish my rj in sch...

yeah JY you are right... i planning to take a week off from all the igs... dunnoe why leh i jus feel so tired... keep waking up late for lesson... i'm late again today... sad leh.. lucky the fac quite good.. lol... so sian... today lesson quite easy... my horoscope say i need plenty of rest... and need to center myself... i think quite true... cos i really lose control over myself.. need to stablise...

My dear... how long more you need to take...
Argggg... i really cant take it leh... pls...
It's so long le... forget it ba...
Dun think...
that is how it goes...
you can do it de... all i needed is time... very very long...
hai... how long should i take...
how how... kept thinking...
go slp la... should dump everything aside first...
tml wake up and things will be prepare for you... yeah...
Cant predict the future...

Really down recently...

Sorry RPWS... didnt come for practise again... i really tired... really stress and sad about all the sch stuff... i scared i couldn't handle it... too much things... i dunnoe how sia... take one things at a time... cannot la.. when things come it's too late le... not sure how... really very sad... i very scared...

really miss you guys out there... but i didnt have time for you guys... feel like haven't been meeting up with u guys for quite some times... though performance is jus over... hum... needed some time for myself to rest and recover... trying to settle down with all the sch work and work stuff... and for guitar... headache... stop trying to find more performances... i really cannot take it le... now i noe been involve with two IGs with lots of commiment is difficult... really difficult... one side is falling... hai.. keep wondering on those bo liao stuff really exhausted... Pls would you guys make life easier for us... maybe i expecting too much from myself and all... when things fail... really upset abt it... really really...

erm...

Oh my god... how sia?
No no pls... arggg....
i'm going crazy le...
i gonna kill myself soon... it's only the first week and im like fully packed... no time for myself... oh pls... give mi a break...
can i take off from all the practises for 1 week... i really need that... think i should...