why god alway gave mi surprises that is so unpredictable, and when i'm totally unprepared for it... human nv understand god's thinking...
it's alway when i'd given up my hope upon somethings, i given up my hope becos i had tried hard enough and to no avail, then that something that i hope for, came so sudden that i couldn't believe it and unable to take that shock.

It's good that i actually get part of the things i wan...

Hai...

it hurt me... it nv going to be the same again... once it changes, second, third times and so on will changes forever n ever...


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two person said to me that...

i commit myself too much on other stuff and neglect them, do i really?

i tried to commit myself to every things that i loved, however i need to priortize which one come first, it alway happen like this, so that when it's time for me to choose i can decide fast and wouldn't be that terrible...
In life the most difficult things to learnt is to give up, and learnt to accept it. in which ever aspect of life, giving up comes in very often... hai...
it's not time to give up yet, however i hope no force come into me, i dun like being force, as i will act without thinking...

I saw a book name 'why customer do they thing they do?'. is quite interesting... haha same as why i wan to do the things i do?
i do things with reason(s), rarely i do without reason.
Now, i'm learning to accept what people wants, i won't force anymore. you want to do this rite go ahead then, i wun do things to change ur mind, i tried too hard getting the things i wan, and i end up each time with sadness. Many time i almost tears, especially someone who i have high hope on... tot that they wouldn't upset mi, but in the end, they wan their way still. ok i respect you by giving you wat you wan. jus hoping that, they still respect me by doing at least 1/3 of wat i ask for, i'll be glad.
i understand dat not everyone is alike, and they don't think alike. jus give and takes.
if i wan it the way i wan, and people jus dun agree to it, it either i give in or i do all the things... that's the way... if the things must go like this, and no one willing to work, well i take all the job then, i guess this is wat many people need to learnt... and it's the hardest amoung all.. cos not everyone wans to take everything, usually they just give up...
for me choosing to give up, is my very very last resort. cos i hate failure, regrets, and nv even try it but choose to give up...



i think i should go learnt psychology instead of science haha..