Suddenly i lost myself...

I seriously lost myself...
not sure how to bring myself back together again... too tired to do anything... i haven been in sch for 2 days... sound like humpty dumpy... hehe... but seriously... i feel like i have broken into pieces... all the things i wan to do i couldnt finish... i really hated the feeling... when i couldn't find the things, and couldn't finish it when actually i can... i feel like i got sort of attitude problem... i couldn't let go of anything... i scare once i let it go i can nv bring it back again, and i won't have the energy to bring it back... that's why keep reminding about it in my mind... perhaps that's why i feel stress... that's why and so on...
feel like running out... catching up with someone... running in the rain... hope the rain can help me wash off all the useless and unhelpful things, hope that it can clear my mind, hope that it can lighten my load... and hope that... so much so much...
god help me pls...
i do love god, i do love everyone, i nv blame on anyone though is their mistake. maybe sometimes i blame.. but is temporary... i dun meant it... i may be striaght forward, i meant it though, but once it's over means it's over, jus dun do it again... i'm alright... everyone makes mistake including mi... noe your mistake and be done with it... why need to hold on to it for too long... making others feel bad? treating each others like enemies? m i sensitive? too much of emotion carrying out in my heart... how can i let go? can someone help me with it...
really feel like crying... m really scared... i'm not strong as i used to be... rest is wat i needed most i think... but i couldnt spent so much time on resting, i won't be able to catch up with the things that left it there for mi to finish.... how...
Battle with myself... i lost to myself... need time to recover...