Purpose of Life

Ever wonder... why are we here for? who decide the friends around us? Out of the universe why there is a difference in country, and why do people born only at that country.. i have too many doubts on god... though i'm not a believer, but i believe in its theory.. where it really teaches you how to deals with life and people.. however.. there are still statements which i dun really agree on... perhaps its because god meant the other way but the people interpreted it wrongly... as time goes by, the true meaning of the statement lost its way...

there is this statement which i really like...
"if you want your life to have impact, focus it! Stop dabbing. stop trying to do it all. do less. prune away even good activities and do only that which matters most. Never confuse activity with productivity. You can be busy without a purpose, but what's the point? "

Most of the time, it does helps you get better when you throw away those thing that you don't really need it. Do what you should instead.. So that you can "Focus" on lesser stuff and creating a greater success..

Life though is short term, but its enough to do all the things we need and some extra time to do the things you want. as long as you plan and figure what's more important..

But why are we here on earth for... Many are searching for the answer.. was it because of what we did in the past? here for suffering, helping others or to have a better future.. i can't think of others...

Anyway.. what i am trying to say here is that... we will alway find this statement familiar... "even before we are born, god has plan everything for us". I dunnoe how true is this... but it definitely explained why people behave this way and why we are being in a different status and many many others things...

Often i ask myself, so... if god really plan everything for us. how does he really judge what kind of life you should take... again.. it came back to.. does he judge base on what we had done before.. so even after our death.. he accumulate the good and bad deeds... we will be sent to hell or heaven.. so what if we go to heaven.. and what if we go to hell.. do we come back to earth again..

So.. god created adam and eve... how did two people produced millions of people.. in that case.. all of us are related to each other?

Actually i really think that i've learnt alot from all sort of religion, they teaches good things, that help me overcome many problems with people... though i am not a believer in god, their purpose is the same, for the good sake of human beings..
frankly speaking.. i am not a religion bais person.. what i feel is that they are all the same.. all of them are for the good of people.. but why do we alway have to differentiate ourselves?



From all these that i know, learning to forgive one is very important and it is very difficult... how many time or how long in your life you will meet the same person again... i think it will be less den five time that you will be able to work with the same person, or be with your friends... and it's definitely a few years long for a friends to stay very close together... why not try to forgive that person and move on... there is actually no point holding on to it as life is short... you don't forgive now.. you might never have a chance to forgive again.. as it will be too late.. by that time you might be thinking of regreting not being able to forgive...
When i have came to realise about forgiving and being able to do that.. i cherish my friends alot more... How long can a friendship last.. you will never know... it is something which you cannot control... so let go of the unwanted, and bring in the needs..

I wanted myself to be able to understand and does the right thing at the right time... Attaining to be a person with great personality... Till now.. i still don't understand why people with very bad personality exist.. I am still unsure of my personality.. i think i am not that great yet.. no one is perfect.. there's a person i really hold high respect of regarding this...


Today went to library to borrow a book...
"The Purpose of Driven Life"

It's really interesting... i really like it.. hehe..


I am still wondering... if god really plan our life for us... den.. all the things has been predicted such as not going for lesson, and so on.. so do we still just follow..

God is testing us..

When god is testing us, he gave us endurance as well...

MooornNing!!!

hehe..

Realise Naruto is not as nice as One Piece... maybe because it is only the starting...
One Piece is more lame and funny... Naruto.. seems to be erm.. more of serious stuff.. not sure how to explain..

now watch one piece till 272 episod le... den have to wait a week for the next episode to come up.. hai.. dunnoe when it will end lo.. lol..

currently watch naruto till 20 ++ only.. another 25 episode still downloading.. hehe.. not very tempting to make me want to watch..

quite angry with mita actually... i think i really hate her lo.. whahaha..
went to sch to do lab actually... suppose to meet mita to do lab work.. yest she said she will be free untill five.. however it's a different thing today... we came to realise after we reach sch that she only sent email in the morning saying she is not free.. i think it's not fair to us lo.. who will check mail on a wednesday morning... furthermore she has already confirm with us that she can make it.. what the hell lo.. even if she's not free, she didnt even bother to book lab for us.. rubbish la.. luckily we met kelvin.. den he kind of stay back awhile la.. haha.. think he quite suay too lo..

One hr of journey to school for half an hour of lab and came to realise this.. who will not be angry.. i think she's irresponsible lo.. hai.. i nv really dislike a fac.. but i think i really can't stand this lo.. lol..

after lab.. went to cwp... for my dinner cum lunch.. whaha..
elaine actually wanted to pierce her inner ear, and actually asked my to pierce.. actually i really dun mind. hehe.. but den.. scared ugly and so.. haha..
anyway.. we went to a shop.. dunnoe which shop la.. den we saw a keychain where it indicate the 'personality' of the person born on the date.. while she read hers first.. den looking for mine.. whaha.. when she saw me reading at some other date.. she suddenly asked "zai can shui de!".. gave me a shock and she's kind of curious la.. so funny.. so she guessed "....." but it's not the right person.. whahah.. i told her in the end la.. lol..

something bothering me...

bother by my family problem again...
wonder why world is so unfair... most people r at the middle line, while i am slightly below there.
though i am glad in the condition that i am in. however, it not at all satisfactory... wonder why this is happening.. i dun really like to blame on others, i believe it is not their fault... jus heaven is making fun of us.. i had happily gone though 2 yrs + of surviving, why god just can't endure for another few more months..

was it really this fun? making people life really difficult at this point of time...

wat the hell is this thing that's making people goes though so much of suffering to get it... making people minds goes wild, and all the troubles its create...

i dun understand at all.. n i dun like it...

this thing which is so uncontrollable for me.. i couldn't believe with what i had done...

21st Jul 06

Bleh... today meet ying ying in the morning, both of us were late for sch... lol.. den we didnt attend sch, as she didnt really like to be late for lesson. so we went to keep our bag at woodlands library locker. haha den took bus to woodlands market to have breakfast.. haha.. after dat went to CWP walk around for awhile, den go back to sch... slack in the library, watch anime and wait for time to pass as i have guitar later..

i burned my hand this morning when i was ironing my clothes.. hai.. so careless... pain... the scar had turned black now..

tired.. wan to slp le..

hum....

listening to music.. feel like going to KTV with frenz.. haha.. anyway i'm nt a good singer.. alway go KTV listen to people sing nia.. hehe.. cos i like listening to others sing.. whahaha..

anyway.. i'm under stress from home, to sch, to work... why? why, why.. haha.. there's too many answer to it...
N' people! dun interfer with my life by asking me question abt how's work, sch, and whatever that you wan to ask regarding my life.. cos my life isn't for you to understand. unless you are one of my close frenz who i can truely trust and talk with... haha.. cos i dun like redundant chat (do that only to new frenz)...
In poly, out of so many frenz, there're only few who i can really chat with.. lol... i think you guys know who you are.. hehe.. maybe you don't haha anyway i'm nt going to say cos those things are suppose to be felt by heart.. haha.. ops.. i think i'm quite les.. lol..
I should go study for LM UT le.. hai.. i nv come for three lesson lo.. how to do UT!!! am i going to crap again.. I had crapped thru 2 of my 3rd UT wor.. i nv expect i'm such a crapper.. haha.. i'm jus using my common sense to crap.. so it's not that bad la.. crap which contain knowledge.. yeah? haha




i'm thinking... are you?

did this during 3rd meeting....

Your Personality Is Like Marijuana

You're laid back and easy going, so much so that taking a shower is often too much trouble for you! Nevertheless, you're quite popular, and many people enjoy your company. You're rarely turned down. You're prone to giggle fits, paranoia, and forgetting where you are exactly.

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind.People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

What Do People Envy About You?

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Your Observation Skills Get A C-

You tend to notice the big things in life...But the details aren't exactly your forte

How Observant Are You?

You are Agnostic

You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care.For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine.You rather focus on what you can control - your own life.And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.

What's" Your Religious Philosophy?

You are 80% Capricorn

How Capricorn Are You?

You Belong in 1966

If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

You Are 47% Selfish

You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved. But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!

How Selfish Are You?

Your Luck Quotient: 70%

You have a high luck quotient. More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life. You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that. Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?

Your Monster Profile

Insane Worm You Feast On: M&Ms You Lurk Around In: Shopping Malls You Especially Like to Torment: Groupies

What's Your Monster Name?

You Are 72% Lady

Overall, you are a refined lady with excellent manners. But you also know when to relax and not get too serious about etiquette

Are You A Lady?

sian... i missed lesson for 6th times le.. crazy me..

dunnoe what i wan sia...

tml.. got class.. but i jus feel like there isn't any.. whahaha

i think i'm lazy lo.. hehe.. all i wan is play... lol..

yest... went to meet up with my frenz and my sis at gelang bahru (my old house) and play pool.. as usual lousy me... actually dun really like playing pool.. but then.. dunnoe what else to do le.. haha.. then chit chat till like 12 plus.. hehe..

today.. went orchard with my fyp de team mates to work on our presentation.. hum.. quite well done actually.. lol.. very happy.. finally can relax regarding our presentation liao.. haha.. after that.. suppose to go guitar but then very far lo.. haha..
anyway my frenz needs to wait for her bf to finish class at 10pm wor... so sweet of her.. haha.. since i had nothing to do, so i stayed with her till 9.30pm ba.. for like 5hrs i was with her.. anyway we enjoy ourselves walking ard la.. haha...

I HATE MY PARENTS.. haha..
they very mean to me...
my fridge, have all kind of milks and gassy drinks.. but none i can drink, sian diao.. there is like so many bottles of coke, sprite, FnN... which i don't drink... and milk which i can't even drink.. hai.. why like dat.. haha.. there isnt any bottle of like green tea or fruit juice.. hai..

Check out my frenz blog... it's real cool.. haha.. anyway he's damm pro in IT.. whaha..


http://www.friendster.com/guiquan

booo...

can't slp...

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bye........

I like tis pic.. haha..

Saturday...

Jus woke up at 1pm.. lol...
Yest. nite my sis took like 2/3 of the bed, den i cannot slp properly lo... anyway my bro not at home last nite, so went to his room and slp. haha.. i think his room very nice to slp compare to mine.. haha.. maybe becos of the bed.. hehe..
Hum.. yest 2 calls from unknown no... somemore call me quite late at night ard 2.30am... think again should be someone close to me de if not won't call me so late.. so decide to sent msg.. haha.. guess what? it's my bro lo.. hai yo.. so weird lo him.. hp can msg de ma.. lol..

Later going to Sam's birthday... think he should be preparing and dressing himself for his birthday now ba.. haha..
e present under my bed has been waiting for you for 2 weeks le lo.. erm.. sounded like quite bad rite, put people present under my bed.. but then.. it's kind of big.. a4 size box.. my room no space to put le.. haha..

so sian.. now till later dun noe what to do.. it's too short to study for UT 'n' do my FYP things...

some facts..

Stayhome daddy have a higher chances of getting heart disease compared to Man who works outside.

Cancer causing bottles

so -_-"' Diao lo... got this from my frenz blog actually.. whahah... and i alway reuse bottles de.. hum... shall get my own bottle le... haha.. my sis complaining that i alway bring home bottles de den my room are filled with bottles wherever there are space. cos each time i go to sch, i will get one before i reach MRT station. lol... but i dun like those plain water leh.. hehe.. prefer sweet drinks.. lol..

Anyway.. read on..

This may be very true.Do you know chemical released by plastic water bottles can cause cancer ?
It is not the water that will affect you but the chemical released from the bottle.
The next time you get a bottle of mineral water, do check for a triangular sign on the base. You will see a number in the triangle. If the number is higher than or equal to 5, then this bottle is safe for more than one-time use.
Whatever number under 5 will release the chemical. Most mineral / drinking water bottles are made for one-time use and you will notice they are marked 1.
So, do check and do not reuse such bottles marked 1.

But then.. when i went to search for it...

Reusing Plastic Water Bottles

Rumor:This email begins by saying “Many are unaware of poisoning caused by re-using plastic bottles,” and says “bottles are safe for one-time use only; if you must keep them longer, it should be or no more than a few days, a week max, and keep them away from heat as well.” The email says the bottles contain DEHA, which it calls a potential carcinogen.

Fact:This email apparently relies on a student’s college thesis to make scary claims about water bottles. In fact, DEHA is not inherent in the plastic used to make these bottles, and even if it was the U.S. Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) says DEHA "cannot reasonably be anticipated to cause cancer, teratogenic effects, immunotoxicity, neurotoxicity, gene mutations, liver, kidney, reproductive, or developmental toxicity or other serious or irreversible chronic health effects." Meanwhile, the International Agency for Research on Cancer (IARC), says diethylhexyl adipate "is not classifiable as to its carcinogenicity to humans."

It's sunday again...

This sunday was different from others... haven been staying home for so many weekends.. i'm so bored la.. haha..
this afternoon was doing my FYP.. den do till half way.. dunnoe what else to include in..
wanted to take a nap.. but couldn't slp.. so watch TV lo.. watching animal channel and discovery channel.. haha.. so bo liao.. watch till four really nothing to do le lo..
realise that i still have books haven return to the library so went to the library to return and borrow 3 more books.. hehe

after borrowing my books went down to orchard to catch movie with frenz... watch campus ghost stories.. erm.. at the end of the movie i dun get what it means la.. whahaha.. but then ok la.. there is few shocking moments.. the worse one was from my frenz.. haha... stupid la.. lol..
Anyway, i did enjoyed the movie with you la.. haha.. thanks for coming out.. bleh..

actually was going to slp at 11.. but then.. i'm scanning picture into lappy, and surfing net.. haha.. went to see my old frenz de friendster.. hehe..
hum.. now 12.30 le..

recently have been hard getting to slp.. feel like taking up slping pills to help me slp.. haha.. everytime lie on bed for few hrs then can't slp lo even when i'm very very tired... keep thinking abt things.. hai.. hopefully things will get better.. hehe

jus now read a few pages of a books about drugs addict de story... den i read about one who said that he doesn't like study, perhaps is becos he wants to see result fast..
i think i'm the same too... maybe that explained why i'm alway skipping school, further more those modules are which i find it meaningless..
I dun understand why there is this kind of study system... it really sucks to core.. everything you do required cert, and most of the time those modules we study are not going to be used.. why can't we look for a job that we like, and den we go for courses.. which we learn what is needed and not something redundent. isn't this better... hai.. i'm feeling like i'm just wasting my time.. lol..
i've skipped my lab mangement, proteomics 4 times, genomic and computer animation 3 times.. i wonder if i will still go any further? i noe it's going to affect my grades really bad.. but i have no idea why it just didnt bother me. lol..

what i feel is that grade doesn't determine whether you are good or not... so what you have good grades and all, but then when out to work you know nothing at all.. from what i know and i truely believe it, studying and working is a totally diff thing..

erm.. i think i should go slp le.. it's 12.55 le.. nite..

Eating disorder??? lol

I realise that i have been very unhealthy.. haha..

Didnt eat for the whole of Sunday and didnt actually realise it, till late at night. But not really that bad la, cos i had 2 pan cake. However it doesn't even fulfiled a requirement for a meal.. lol..

Recently only had like one meal a day.. erm.. that's quite crazy. but then it didnt really bother me. maybe becos i'm too tired to be bother, or i'm just too hungry that after awhile i had forgotten abt it.

it's always, either i eat alot/very little or i don't eat.. but it's not something that i could have control.. haha.. maybe it's my mindset ba..

Probably i have weird stomach.. lol... having no idea of what's fullest means and when to eat or when to stop eating.

quite worried that one day i might have eating disorder or disease related... lol..

Can't wait till the last day of my poly...

Bleh... so long nv blog liao...

quite busy with my sch, work, and IGs... almost lost my sense liao...
down with flu for 6 day recently... now recovering from flu but down with sore throat... sian diao..

for this two days has been canceling everything and stay home.. quite sian la but then.. for the sake of resting also for the better of sch reopening and so..

had been not caring for anything.. and i think it some how improve my 'life'.
maybe i'm holding on too much things that i couldn't breath... now that i couldn't be bother to care much, i felt much better..

while.. i'm waiting for the next holiday to do my pp.. hehe.. might be too late though.. but i trust myself i can do it.. : )

jus wanted to improve on my study for this semester first.. haha.. attendance have not been good.. erm.. quite hard to buck up now.. jus wanted to keep everything at rest first..

regarding band.. i guess i put too much effort into those 'nonsense', wasting my strength which in the end goes into nothing... erm.. not much idea about what i'm going to go next... just couldn't wait to step down... i knew very well the prob in it, just that have no idea how to cope with it. it's e prob with none can help... i guess it's hard... ain't going to blurt anything more, just keeping it with myself... it aim nothing good... the best thing i can do is take a step at a time... multitasking ain't a thing to handle it myself...

maybe that's why recently doesn't feel like asking band people to go out when i wanted to stay out so much..

wonder when's the next time i'm going to blog... stressful life..

Photo taken recently

hum... i got so much stuff to write about actualy.. but i'm just being too lazy to write...
anyway write about the memorable stuff ba..
where shall i start from leh?

maybe last two weeks ba...
okay, same thing happen as my previous blog.. still the same went out with frenz and all.. dun wan to get home.. den one night while out with my frenz drinking what ever shit forgot le but can get it from 7-11 cos we got it from there.. then those two of my best guys frenz drank carslberg along the river. so we sat there talk, smoke (erm, not me la), listen to music. that's all we did. lol. when we were about to leave... i saw a snake! on the chair where we sat on.. let me describe the chair... it's a wooden kind of bench.. just imagine you are at a beach where there is wooden bench. the wooden bench is like those a few pieces of wood put together with space inbetween each wood. then there is the stone which place the wood, making it look like bench. in some where inbetween and underneath the wood where the stone is lie the snake. maybe it's slping or resting.. lol.. not sure.. but is damm scary la, just sitting above the snake. my frenz when to disturb the snake as it's quite small.. reall small la. width is about 1cm while length.. i dun noe quite long la.. my frenz use a stick to drag the snake out to the floor.. den it 'ran' to the grass patch.. this stupid frenz wanted to catch it and put into a bag, however he failed.. whahah.. and so we left..

Next event was.. i went out with my gal frenz till 6 in the morning... not sure why we had so much to chat about.. we walked from places to places and back to same places... every where we go we find a place to sit, drink and eat. and spent quite alot that day. but each place we didnt eat much la.. jus a few bites. hehe.. that was damm cool experience... lol.. it's like we nv say no to each other... i like the ok let's go on and on outing or wat ever.. maybe that's becos we were frenz 4 many yrs le.. i nv get this kind of feeling before and it's really hard to find..

hum.. while there are more la.. but erm.. let's go back to sch.. whahaha

while... realise i have skip sch for 5 days le... can skip 3 more days, erm.. quite sad for myself.. but on the other hand yes i'm happy with what i'm doing.. cos i had all the fun i had, all the craziness i wan, if only every day were like this.. but there are things called schooling and working which spoil the life i wan.

i think i already lost my own soul... i couldn't feel the soul is with my body.. body wan this while the soul wants other. the things i should aim for is study and not fun... but it's hard for me to get back to the mood of study.. i guess it is just too stressful for me, actually i can take stress, but then it's aimless for me to study. most of it was becos, it's just not something i like. the subject and all... hum.. realise that i only do what i like.. stubborn.. whaha.. for this sem guess the onli subject i love are com anima, den maybe lab management..
proteo and genomes... i guess i just can't make sense out of it.. it's all just erm.. what the fuck am i studying all these.. it just seem... not my cup of tea..

Now about guy in sch...
well... since yr 1 started and the 1st time i saw that guy, i think he's cool and has his character.. i dun say i admire him becos i dun like the word admire... it's fake, bull shit.. it were just merely liking. lol.. ya, so i said wat i wanted.. haha. not sure why, it just so happen that each time i went out with frenz, there might be possibilities i will see him, and it's always at orchard. lol.. maybe he alway go there.. and so am i.. whaha.. erm. i do remember taking the same bus from tanglin to orchard... hai ya.. he alway take that bus one.. lol.. anyway he was sitting beside me la.. just got to know his name recently..lol.. anyway... i think i'll nv approach him or wat so ever.. cos we are just living in two different world.. diff frenz, life and... further more i dun like one of his frenz la.. cos of his attitude and mouth speaking nonsense and damm vulgar.. other than that is stil ok la.. wat ever it is.. i dun think we are suitable for each other..

anyway there is someone who wat ever la.. but dun think i will wan.. as there are many reason.. and yes that i've already guess so that this day of wat ever.. lol..

erm.. i think i like to keep people guessing.. whaha.. therefore my blog is like dat... there's also other reason la..

that's all...
i wan to slp le... good nite..

Hi everyone...

lol.

Haven been bloggin for abt one month.. erm.. i'm just lazy and not in the mood.
For the past one month, i just felt like slacking at home and not doing anything. Well, actually i was kind of doing what i was hoping. Just working at borders like erm.. kind of not me.. lol.. cos there were not band practice, no guitar practice.. for the first three weeks i was just purely working and slping at home when i'm not working. then comes the last two weeks where i had fun like crazy and doesn't want to go back sch.. so much thing happen last two week. keep going out with frenz, poly frenz, ex sch frenz and so on..
and finally sch started and i was working on sunday nite till 11 and i didn't manage to get a slp after monday sch, not even a nap. then i went to my frenz grandma funeral and accompanied her till like morning 5am, went back home with my frenz didnt even slp for a few minutes, bath and go sch... erm.. den in sch i couldn't concentrate. i did my work as usual, but i slept through the whole of third meeting. trying to keep myself awake, but i can't, the class was just too boring and deadly. listen for a few minutes of talking and i dozed off.. whaha.. finally get home but then i didnt slp, forgot abt what i was doing, but slp onli after like 10pm.

erm.. think i wan to slp liao.. cont when free... not really in the mood to think abt what i wanted to write.. hehe just being myself. lazy!
Damm sian every morning have to wake up like 6.30am but who cares, as usual me alway wake up at 7am, couldn't wake up any earlier. usual wake up time because the sky turn brighter. :D