Today...

hum... morning dun feel like waking up... haha.. tired leh... dunnoe why it's alway wed. drag out of bed at ermmm abt..7.30 am like dat.. hehe... actually was slping while thinking what to wear today... so slp.. dan wake up think.. noe what to wear le dan get off from bed.. hehe... leg very pain at the knee there... hai.. lao ren... haha... not sure why... maybe is the fan kept blowing at my leg.. when bathing damm pain lor... so i jus let the warm water run from the tap to my leg lor.. feel better but after awhile come back again.. dan dun care le.. haha... went out of house nv think of it dan ok le... lol... reach sch at erm.. 8.45am.. think i do thing very slow lor. haha. now leh... finish lesson at 12 like dat... hehe.. quite surprise that the fac let us off early.. so now dunnoe do what leh... the band member hor.. say wan to go out dan end up nv go... make mi stay in sch for nothing... dan still wan mi to go buy thing... haha... sob sob.. so waiting for people to end class c if any body wan to accompany mi go... hum..
ok...
now talk abt yesterday ba...
hum... those ws people ar.. especially MING CONG... crazy... haha... actually first time my train come so early lor.. dan that ming cong and pei xuan come into the train... talk very loud that... this is mei yan... and blah blah... kept calling my name so pai seh.. dan i came out of the train.. then they drag mi into their train... idiot sia.. haha... saw my train pass over.. dan i call out pei xuan quite loudly.. hehe she told mi today that.. in the train got one guy from her church de.. then she pretend nv saw him and that guy kept laughing at her... hahah.. know how it feel le ba... drop at queenstown... took pei xuan lap top away and ming cong follow mi out of the train... the rest of the members ignore him... hahaha... so they wait for him at the next stop and he accompany mi for my train to come lor... siao de... make so much noise in the train... think people slping also wake up by us... haha.. everyone looking lor... : p hum.. at outram park de NEL.. saw tracy coming down from escalator, kind of very surprise to c her so late in the train... well.. so went home together lor.. hehe... so chiau... lol..

Boring....

hum... i dunnoe what i'm waitng for, now like doing nothing.. waiting for the rest to finish their ppt dan start thrid meetin... boring... look like everyone has finish but then... dunnoe leh.. oh.. hehe saw someone start walking to the table le.. starting soon... hehe...
Jus now went out for lunch wor.. red hill market.. lol... ate soy sauce chicken noodle.. ok la quite nice... but then hor the sauce, they put chilli like blood.. yucks.. whahaha...

act cute!. lol... 

i forgot there is UT tml...

I almost forgot that i'm having ut tml... i noe i need to study... but i tired of studying le... can i go ut tml jus like dat... the ans is of cos NO. i tried it once before, i jus read throug the slide dat i need to for that UT, the next day went too sch, ut started, almost all the question i can do except for one very simple question... i forgot, and i can't find the ans... anyway it's ok cos i think i did alright for that UT... only one question dunnoe how to do ma... that one doesn't cost a lot of marks... whahha.. i am lazy to study... jus feel like reading through the slide... refresh my memory that's all... cos i got no energy, no motivation to move on.... yes of cos i noe i need to move on. but i badly needed a rest, i need time. maybe i would jus go read the slide and maybe i will start studying...

I'm tired of talking to my frenz... i dun c a point talking to them anymore... it doesn't work any more... jus be what ever it is... i feel sick... crying.. felt stupid, feel like i'm being a fool.. i'm no longer that strong... though i can laugh and joke with frenz... but actually i'm alway sad deep in my heart, there is alway something that i can't forget, can't hide, it jus don't go away, was left it there... no idea what to do with it. what ever i do, it doesn't move at all, it is stubborn. felt helpless. i noe no one can help. no point looking for frenz.
i'm getting worse and worse. i'm tired. i wan to go. i want to go away... go away from the world of BGR. everyday, i saw it every where, it upset mi. couple eveywhere, they are so sweet.
sometime i wonder, why didnt i hold back that time. maybe if i did, things would have being different. even if it's the same as now, i would feel better becos at least i didnt show temper, treating him better. no point turning back.
i hope i can get back with him... but then i guess... no point too. even if we are back together... we might end up broken again. i dun wan to be together again if he doesn't love mi, it would be one sided. but i wan to be by his side... it jus feel so... wan this but dun wan that... i really really dunnoe what to do... i try to face him, talk to him, trying to find out answer, but everytime i dun get an answer from him. i really got no idea who to turn to already except facing him and waiting for the answer. every nite i cry to slp. thinking of him each morning i wake up, during the day whenever i'm staring at things, at nite when i'm going to slp. there is many things i dun understand, many thing i wan to know, but i dun noe where to get answer but no ones noes. and the one who noes it doesn't wan to tell mi.

Walk talk eat...

Today after sch went out with... yun jing, Vik, Xue Fang, and lee xian wors... haha, erm... mi having fun, while quite tired actually, jus enjoying going out with frenz. hehe, tot of going to china town, later change to bugis... haha... dan went to eat LJS. talk and eat there.. whaha. dan go sky garden. hum... talk and talk lor... haha... after that guess wat... i walk home from suntec... cool rite. with vik... haha walk around bugis, raffles place there kept going round and round... haha tot is the shorter way but end up walking longer, but we enjoy... hehe.. walk through bugis, sim lim, little indian dan reach home le... hehe... : p